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[00:03:46] Hello and welcome to the Enormo cast.
[00:03:48] This is your host, Chris Kalus.
[00:03:50] It is December 26th, 2024, about 11 a.m. here in Wisconsin.
[00:03:58] And this is episode 299, a reunion of sorts with Swiss climber Nina Caprez.
[00:04:06] Nina is definitely one of my favorite people to interview.
[00:04:10] She was last on the Enormo cast in 2015, episode 80.
[00:04:16] I also talked to her on the other podcast, The Runout, a couple years ago.
[00:04:20] But this one is a comprehensive catch up over the last nine years.
[00:04:25] That's the cool thing about the Enormo cast lasting so long is that some real time has passed since last time I talked to Nina.
[00:04:33] Almost a decade and many, many changes in her life.
[00:04:37] But she was just as charming as always.
[00:04:40] And we'll get to that in a minute.
[00:04:41] A little bit of business.
[00:04:42] I am here in Wisconsin, the annual holiday trip back to the old country.
[00:04:48] Been getting a lot of Wisconsin love on the Enormo cast lately.
[00:04:51] Paul Keen from Wisconsin.
[00:04:54] Jim Erickson originally from Wisconsin.
[00:04:57] And the upper Midwest is the site of both of my confirmed ice festival visits.
[00:05:04] One in Winona, Minnesota, right there across the river from Wisconsin.
[00:05:08] And one up in the UP at the Michigan Ice Festival.
[00:05:13] Not too far north of where I'm sitting right now.
[00:05:15] In fact, I usually fly into Green Bay.
[00:05:18] See my parents before stealing their Jeep and heading up that way.
[00:05:23] So yeah, check out both those ice festivals if you want to hang out.
[00:05:26] Also, I would like to announce that the phone number, the voicemail, the call in number is open for this year's episode of TAPS.
[00:05:36] Which I'm actually rebranding this year.
[00:05:39] We're going to call it Last Writes from now on.
[00:05:42] Although it's going to be hard to leave behind the original moniker.
[00:05:47] I'll explain that on the show.
[00:05:50] The rebranding, the reasons for it.
[00:05:52] But the FKA TAPS episode is coming up.
[00:05:57] Last year we did a call in version and I enjoyed the hell out of it.
[00:06:00] To remind you guys, this is the episode where we talk about things that we'd like to see killed in climbing.
[00:06:09] Things that are dying, but we lament.
[00:06:12] And zombies.
[00:06:13] Zombies are the stuff we just keep trying to get rid of, but we can't get rid of it.
[00:06:16] I actually suggested getting rid of the TAPS episode, killing the TAPS episode a couple, maybe two years ago.
[00:06:24] And frankly, it's one of my highest downloaded episodes.
[00:06:27] So I can't quit you, baby.
[00:06:29] I can't quit you.
[00:06:30] I think you guys enjoy it.
[00:06:32] It's definitely something people look forward to.
[00:06:34] So call in.
[00:06:36] The number is 1-888-888-888-838-532-9822.
[00:06:44] 1-888-532-9822.
[00:06:48] If you can't remember that or you're driving or whatever, you can find it at the website at normacast.com.
[00:06:54] I'll pin that to the top of the first page.
[00:06:58] Go for it.
[00:06:59] Get your voice heard.
[00:07:02] And last year, I asked for more women to call in because it was mostly dudes.
[00:07:08] And many did.
[00:07:09] And then I kind of hardly used any of them on the show.
[00:07:13] The reasons for that was simply that I had written all my notes down without genders necessarily next to those notes.
[00:07:22] And things got rolling.
[00:07:23] People got drinking.
[00:07:24] And I just kind of was skipping all over the place.
[00:07:26] And it just turned out I didn't go to too many of those.
[00:07:29] It was just a statistics problem.
[00:07:32] So this year, I will endeavor to make it more even or at least as even as the percentage of calls that I get.
[00:07:40] Love to hear from the ladies.
[00:07:42] You guys have a much different perspective on everything.
[00:07:45] Okay, let's get to Nina.
[00:07:47] Nina is a Swiss climber, but kind of on the French side of things.
[00:07:52] I don't think anyone would blame you if you thought she was French.
[00:07:56] She's a highly accomplished sport climber, but also a highly accomplished big root climber with free ascents on El Cap.
[00:08:03] Free ascents on tons of big roots all over Europe and beyond.
[00:08:06] And despite seeing many pretty pictures of her sending steep limestone all over the continent, she's truly an adventure climber through and through.
[00:08:16] And when we talked 10 years ago, I think Nina was just hitting her stride, her imperial period, if you will.
[00:08:25] And sending basically everything that she decided to try.
[00:08:28] And this episode is kind of about her evolution from that period of just ticking everything she saw one trip after another to some revelations about what she really wanted from life.
[00:08:42] Which resulted in love and a family and sort of changing her attitudes about performance and about climbing and about what it all meant.
[00:08:52] The great thing about Nina is that she's very candid.
[00:08:56] I think maybe it's a bit of a European sensibility to say what she's thinking come what may.
[00:09:02] There's sort of a quiet intimacy to this podcast, which I enjoyed the hell out of.
[00:09:06] We were literally sitting in front of a fake fireplace, sort of shimmering in the background.
[00:09:11] And I just think it's a cool vibe.
[00:09:14] So I hope you dig this update with Nina Caprez.
[00:09:16] And before we get to that, even though it's the 26th, the day after Christmas, Boxing Day, I believe today is the first day of Hanukkah.
[00:09:26] Nevertheless, I want to present another holiday tradition, which is, of course, taking you back to the lounge with this slightly embarrassing holiday classic.
[00:09:36] And while I sang and played guitar on this one, focus on the guitar.
[00:09:41] I'm actually a guitar player, not a singer.
[00:09:44] Hey, Bobby, you going ice climbing this winter?
[00:09:48] Well, all right.
[00:09:49] Why don't we tell them how to keep their toes warm up on those icicles?
[00:09:54] Yeah, swing them tools, baby.
[00:10:00] Oh, the weather outside is frightful.
[00:10:03] But in the gym, it's quite delightful.
[00:10:07] But you don't want to know.
[00:10:10] So ice climbing, you will go.
[00:10:13] But the crummy boots you've chosen
[00:10:17] Will keep your poor toes frozen
[00:10:21] Pain builds character, you know
[00:10:24] So ice climbing, you will go
[00:10:28] With sportiva boots fit right
[00:10:31] You love going out in the storm
[00:10:36] Even when you grip too tight
[00:10:38] Up the icicle, you'll be warm
[00:10:43] Under the boards, the bros are spraying
[00:10:45] But indoors, you'll not be staying
[00:10:49] Let sportiva take care of your toes
[00:10:52] So ice climbing, you can go
[00:10:58] Remember this winter?
[00:10:59] That frozen feet, losing your toenails
[00:11:02] And bashing your front points around like a drunken Cossack dancer
[00:11:05] Is not just, quote, part of ice climbing
[00:11:08] Do it better, warmer, and with pleasure
[00:11:11] And exceptional ice climbing in mountain boots from Sportiva
[00:11:14] Alright, Bobby, let's take them to the moon
[00:11:20] 2, 3
[00:11:22] Instead of loudly whining
[00:11:25] Or with the barfies you start crying
[00:11:28] Be a boss up on the flows
[00:11:32] With Sportiva around your toes
[00:11:36] Cha-cha
[00:11:37] Hey Bobby, why don't we slide on over to sportiva.com
[00:11:44] Or our favorite local shop
[00:11:46] And check out them boots
[00:11:49] What were your impressions of last night?
[00:11:52] Our dual MC gig that we just did at the Arcteryx Academy
[00:11:57] We needed some warm-ups
[00:11:59] Yeah
[00:11:59] A warm-up round or two
[00:12:01] And then it went really well
[00:12:03] Yeah
[00:12:04] I love actually speaking here
[00:12:06] I think I prefer today to not be like
[00:12:08] The one who was interviewed
[00:12:09] Which is to be like this element around like
[00:12:13] People, they just did a performance
[00:12:15] Or had success
[00:12:16] And to celebrate them
[00:12:18] By knowing really what they did and what it means
[00:12:20] So I think it's a good
[00:12:23] I don't know, perspective
[00:12:24] Yeah
[00:12:25] What was your kind of just personal feelings about the movies?
[00:12:31] Keep it real
[00:12:32] I loved it
[00:12:34] Because that's exactly what everyone feels
[00:12:37] When they climb in Fontainebleau
[00:12:40] Me included
[00:12:41] Then
[00:12:43] Jonathan's film
[00:12:44] I've watched it before
[00:12:45] I love it as well
[00:12:46] It's really him
[00:12:47] And it's very authentic
[00:12:50] I really love how it's edited
[00:12:52] And yeah
[00:12:54] It's really him
[00:12:55] It's a film for the community
[00:12:57] And Amy T's film
[00:12:59] It was really charming
[00:13:00] To me
[00:13:01] I had
[00:13:02] Since I climbed El Nino
[00:13:04] By myself
[00:13:05] Not by myself
[00:13:06] But I also climbed El Nino
[00:13:08] Back in 2017
[00:13:10] Yeah
[00:13:11] There were many memories coming up
[00:13:13] And I was like
[00:13:14] Damn, that looks so hard
[00:13:16] It didn't feel so hard actually
[00:13:18] When I climbed it
[00:13:20] Isn't that like Amity's magic though?
[00:13:23] Like she's always trying hard
[00:13:24] Yeah, yeah, yeah
[00:13:25] So it's like it makes it
[00:13:26] Way more dramatic
[00:13:27] It makes it way more dramatic
[00:13:28] Yeah, it's awesome to watch
[00:13:29] She's fun to watch
[00:13:30] Yeah, she is
[00:13:31] And yeah
[00:13:32] I felt her very sympathetic
[00:13:34] In the video
[00:13:35] And very natural
[00:13:38] I was thinking about this
[00:13:39] As like an update
[00:13:40] To
[00:13:41] You were on in 2015
[00:13:44] Which isn't like
[00:13:45] Early, early
[00:13:45] Enormacast
[00:13:46] But it's not too long
[00:13:48] Into it
[00:13:49] I mean I started in 2011
[00:13:50] And we met up in Spain
[00:13:53] And that was when I was trying to do
[00:13:55] Everything face to face
[00:13:56] So I happened to be in Spain
[00:13:58] And so I was like
[00:13:58] Kind of cold calling
[00:14:00] Or walking up to people like you
[00:14:02] And I don't know how we met
[00:14:03] I can't remember
[00:14:04] Maybe it was because you were staying with James
[00:14:06] Yeah, James and Jonathan actually
[00:14:08] And then you like graciously agreed
[00:14:11] To talk to this American guy
[00:14:13] For his podcast
[00:14:15] And I thought it was really
[00:14:16] A nice interview
[00:14:17] And I was quite charmed by you
[00:14:19] And so I remember it as being a really good one
[00:14:21] But it's been like almost 10 years
[00:14:23] You know?
[00:14:24] And I think of like
[00:14:26] A lot of climbers like
[00:14:27] Jonathan Segrist, right?
[00:14:29] I mean that guy's like the seasons, right?
[00:14:31] He just...
[00:14:31] It just ebbs and flows
[00:14:33] It goes back
[00:14:35] Yeah
[00:14:35] And he goes on and he's just like
[00:14:37] Moving around sending
[00:14:38] And I mean
[00:14:40] For better and worse maybe
[00:14:42] It doesn't change that much
[00:14:44] What he's doing
[00:14:45] And you can just count on him
[00:14:46] Like the son coming up
[00:14:49] That he's gonna send something hard
[00:14:50] He got a house and he got married
[00:14:52] Yeah, yeah
[00:14:53] But it will not change his way of proceeding
[00:14:56] And his way of...
[00:14:57] He climbs and trains and stuff, yeah
[00:14:58] Yeah, which is kind of what the film was about
[00:15:00] Like he's just...
[00:15:01] That's his...
[00:15:02] That's...
[00:15:02] He's found what he wants to do
[00:15:03] And that's what he wants to do
[00:15:04] And maybe you thought you had too
[00:15:06] When we talked
[00:15:08] But lots and lots of things changed in your life
[00:15:11] In that last 10 years
[00:15:12] Which is I think what we'll end up talking about here
[00:15:15] And obviously the progression
[00:15:17] But you just mentioned El Nino
[00:15:20] So that was like only a couple years after I talked to you
[00:15:23] So you were...
[00:15:24] You had taken...
[00:15:25] You know, you'd done a lot of big climbing in Europe
[00:15:28] In that interview when I talked to you
[00:15:30] You said you hadn't actually climbed in the States very much
[00:15:33] And so then you...
[00:15:34] The obvious thing to do if you're gonna be climbing in the Radicon
[00:15:37] And big Alpine and big faces in Europe
[00:15:42] Is to go to Yosemite
[00:15:43] So talk a little bit about that mission
[00:15:45] And coming in free climbing on El Capitan
[00:15:48] And how that was different and new
[00:15:50] And what you learned from all that
[00:15:53] Well, I have to say that I had a hard time
[00:15:56] Taking the decision to leave to the US
[00:15:59] Because it is full of contradictions
[00:16:02] And full of things I don't really appreciate
[00:16:05] Or I did not appreciate too much
[00:16:08] And I think it was good for my mindset and personality
[00:16:11] Just to let...
[00:16:12] To reset starting from zero
[00:16:14] And just to enter in this US world
[00:16:17] Big world
[00:16:18] Like anyone else
[00:16:20] I was super intimidated by entering in a park
[00:16:25] For my first time
[00:16:26] It was actually in...
[00:16:28] I did the first trip
[00:16:29] Three months trip to the US in 2016
[00:16:33] Alone
[00:16:34] Because I had two goals
[00:16:36] The first one was to send to Bolter not to be
[00:16:38] In Smith Rocks
[00:16:40] Oh, that's...
[00:16:40] Yeah, you actually mentioned wanting to go to Smith
[00:16:42] In the other interview, right
[00:16:44] Yeah
[00:16:44] And then I really wanted to learn how to track climb
[00:16:48] That was my second goal
[00:16:50] Because I climbed a bunch in Chamonix in the mountains
[00:16:53] But I was so bad, I was so slow
[00:16:54] I was so scared
[00:16:56] So that was a good objective
[00:16:58] So I left for three months
[00:17:00] I ticked my goal to Bolter not to be quite fast at the beginning
[00:17:04] And then I was just free and open
[00:17:06] So I went to Indian Creek
[00:17:08] Also alone
[00:17:11] Set up my tent there
[00:17:12] And then...
[00:17:13] Yeah, just nice people
[00:17:15] They introduced me to track climbing
[00:17:16] And I had really this Indian Creek feeling
[00:17:19] The taste of the sandy, dirty track climbing
[00:17:24] That was great
[00:17:25] And...
[00:17:26] Yeah, I was surrounded by mason
[00:17:28] I was surrounded by...
[00:17:29] I don't know, just really originals from the desert
[00:17:32] I would say
[00:17:32] And after 10 days I got it
[00:17:34] And then I really started to love it
[00:17:37] And then at the end of the trip
[00:17:39] I went to Yosemite for the first time
[00:17:43] But it was in spring
[00:17:44] It was quite rainy
[00:17:45] But a friend of mine, he asked me if I wanted to climb up
[00:17:50] And...
[00:17:51] To climb Freerider in a day
[00:17:52] I was like, wow
[00:17:53] I was never in Yosemite
[00:17:55] I never climbed that big mountain
[00:17:57] So let's go
[00:17:58] So we went for like a 22 hour mission
[00:18:01] The top part was unfortunately a little bit wet
[00:18:04] So we couldn't free everything
[00:18:05] But yeah, that was my first day in Yosemite
[00:18:08] Wow, what kind of style were you trying to do?
[00:18:10] Were you supporting him?
[00:18:12] No, no, just free him
[00:18:13] Yeah, exactly
[00:18:16] Right
[00:18:17] So apparently you had learned how to track climb
[00:18:21] Yeah
[00:18:22] And I think if you climb up that wall
[00:18:24] You practice a lot
[00:18:25] And of course there was a lot of learning
[00:18:27] Right
[00:18:28] And speak of it, which was kind of awkward
[00:18:30] But I mean, yeah
[00:18:31] The time I spent in Indian Creek
[00:18:35] Was so pre-sist for me
[00:18:37] Because I was so hungry to learn
[00:18:40] This new, almost new discipline of climbing
[00:18:42] Or way of climbing
[00:18:44] God, it must have been a trip for people to wake up
[00:18:47] And find Nina Caprez
[00:18:49] Camp next to them
[00:18:50] Alone in her tent
[00:18:51] No, I don't think so
[00:18:53] Because I came from Euro
[00:18:54] You know, little skittle showing up
[00:18:56] All the, you know, colorful clothes
[00:18:59] In the Indian Creek
[00:19:01] And they had no idea because
[00:19:02] The skittle
[00:19:04] I was like, did she just say skittle?
[00:19:07] Yes, I did
[00:19:09] So, you know
[00:19:11] I think if you only climb in Europe
[00:19:13] People from the US, they don't really know what's going on
[00:19:16] Except you're like, whatever, a superstar
[00:19:18] But I was definitely not
[00:19:19] Oh yeah, that's true
[00:19:20] Yeah, I was just a climber
[00:19:22] It was one of the things I sort of talked about on the previous interview
[00:19:25] Was that no one kind of knew who you were in the States
[00:19:28] So yeah, you're undercover
[00:19:30] But yeah, that's pretty cool
[00:19:32] I actually remember hearing rumors that you were out there
[00:19:34] Back then
[00:19:36] Being over in Colorado and whatnot
[00:19:37] So yeah, that's awesome
[00:19:39] But I mean, to walk into Yosemite
[00:19:41] I mean, look
[00:19:41] It just says what, I mean
[00:19:44] Your kind of climber you are
[00:19:46] What kind of great and adaptable climber you are
[00:19:49] And then the other thing is like
[00:19:51] You know, you had climbed in the Radicon
[00:19:53] And like I said, other big places in Europe
[00:19:56] And even though you weren't necessarily a trad climber
[00:19:59] Those routes are, they're committing
[00:20:01] They're not sport routes
[00:20:02] I mean, they're famous for not being sport routes
[00:20:05] And the Radicons
[00:20:06] So you probably had a head for approaching big objectives
[00:20:10] And things like that
[00:20:11] Sure
[00:20:12] And I was really willing to learn
[00:20:16] But I think it wasn't the climbing
[00:20:18] Or my style or whatever I did in climbing
[00:20:20] Which was really impressive for US people
[00:20:23] It was the fact that I was traveling for three months in the US
[00:20:26] And I was traveling by public transportation
[00:20:30] How was that?
[00:20:31] Great!
[00:20:32] Really?
[00:20:33] Yeah, they're like
[00:20:34] Does our buses exist?
[00:20:37] And train lines?
[00:20:37] Like hell yeah
[00:20:38] Everywhere
[00:20:39] So yeah, I was traveling
[00:20:41] And of course when I arrived in
[00:20:45] Let's say in Las Vegas by bus
[00:20:48] There was a friend of mine
[00:20:49] We hitchhiked together to Moab
[00:20:51] And then in Moab he was like
[00:20:52] Okay Nina, sorry I have a date
[00:20:54] But here's Mason
[00:20:55] Mason he will take you down to the creek
[00:20:57] Right
[00:20:57] He has a car
[00:20:58] And I was like hey, I don't know if Mason
[00:21:00] It is
[00:21:01] So I went down to the creek
[00:21:02] And then I was there without a car
[00:21:03] And then yeah, I just met people
[00:21:05] And then I took another bus
[00:21:07] And another train
[00:21:08] And it is great
[00:21:09] But yeah, it was my way of traveling
[00:21:12] And I was alone
[00:21:13] And you know, I wasn't this kind of superstar
[00:21:18] Right, right
[00:21:19] Renting a car and driving around
[00:21:22] And with all the bullshit
[00:21:23] That was just, yeah
[00:21:24] With my whole bag
[00:21:25] That's so cool
[00:21:26] I mean I totally remember thinking that
[00:21:29] And I appreciated that
[00:21:31] You know, because there is
[00:21:32] You can have professional climbers
[00:21:35] and I don't know what level
[00:21:36] You were then as far as like
[00:21:38] What kind of money you were making
[00:21:39] Or anything like that
[00:21:40] But you can have them show up
[00:21:42] And very much like
[00:21:43] Separate themselves from the masses
[00:21:45] And I appreciate when that doesn't happen
[00:21:48] And you know, and I think like
[00:21:51] You know, the Hubers
[00:21:53] Who were the guys that
[00:21:54] You know, these Euros that showed up in Yosemite
[00:21:56] One of the graces of those guys
[00:21:58] They were basically the lords of the dirtbags
[00:22:03] When they were there, you know
[00:22:04] They were in it just like everybody else
[00:22:06] And I think there's a, I mean I know with Thomas
[00:22:08] There's a lasting legacy of his connection to those people
[00:22:12] Because he was doing that
[00:22:14] He was in the dirt
[00:22:15] I think I was also, I needed
[00:22:19] I needed to experience in that way
[00:22:25] Back in 2014
[00:22:26] I split up with Cedric Lacha
[00:22:28] We were together for like eight years
[00:22:31] And you know, we kind of mastered like the discipline
[00:22:34] And all this stuff
[00:22:35] And then I really had to be on my own
[00:22:38] And yeah, to reset with the US
[00:22:41] I think I needed to do
[00:22:42] To go through this experience when you're alone
[00:22:45] Traveling alone
[00:22:46] And then just this openness
[00:22:48] That requires to team up with people, right?
[00:22:52] Because you need a partner to go climbing
[00:22:53] And that helped a lot
[00:22:55] And so this contradiction of the US
[00:22:58] Actually, I start to appreciate
[00:23:01] And I start loving it actually
[00:23:04] Can you explain that?
[00:23:06] The contradiction of the US?
[00:23:08] You know, I mean when you're back home
[00:23:11] Everything is kind of small
[00:23:12] And very simple
[00:23:13] And kind of good
[00:23:16] I would call it
[00:23:17] Yeah, I mean you're from Switzerland
[00:23:18] Food is good
[00:23:19] And like, you know, whatever
[00:23:22] And then the image of
[00:23:23] Yeah, the US
[00:23:24] Like the big cars
[00:23:25] And the big Coca-Cola
[00:23:27] And just the big malls in general
[00:23:31] Was a thing I felt disgusted almost about it
[00:23:35] But I had no idea
[00:23:37] Because I never met people
[00:23:39] Never met people
[00:23:40] Living like the outdoor life
[00:23:41] And living simple
[00:23:44] And living in their van
[00:23:45] And climbing in the desert
[00:23:47] That was great
[00:23:48] So let's go to the next Yosemite season
[00:23:51] And it sounds like
[00:23:53] Right after that
[00:23:54] Yeah
[00:23:54] Or the next year
[00:23:55] I think the year after
[00:23:56] Maybe the same often
[00:23:57] I don't remember
[00:23:58] But yeah, I was back there
[00:24:01] With my ex-boyfriend
[00:24:02] And as everyone does
[00:24:04] We climbed the nose first
[00:24:06] In three days
[00:24:06] It was a total disaster
[00:24:09] We had, you know, big fights
[00:24:12] Setting up a portaledge by dark
[00:24:15] Of course we damaged the portaledge
[00:24:18] So it was fucked up
[00:24:19] And it was just a big battle
[00:24:21] In those cracks
[00:24:23] He wasn't such a good climber
[00:24:25] So it was all kind of up to me to lead
[00:24:28] Which I love
[00:24:29] But yeah, it was just
[00:24:31] We were kind of all over the place
[00:24:33] And too much emotions
[00:24:34] Too much effort
[00:24:35] And then, yeah
[00:24:39] We actually had to separate for a couple of days
[00:24:41] Just to breathe
[00:24:43] So luckily
[00:24:44] My good friend Barbara Zonger
[00:24:46] Was there in the valley
[00:24:47] And we went just cragging a little bit together
[00:24:50] Did some cold cracks
[00:24:51] And then, I don't know
[00:24:53] We found our way back in
[00:24:56] Forresta, I think
[00:24:56] I don't know where we met
[00:24:58] But then he was just like
[00:24:59] Hey, we should go back on the wall
[00:25:02] And I was like
[00:25:02] No, we should not go back on the wall
[00:25:05] He's like
[00:25:06] Come on!
[00:25:07] And I was like
[00:25:08] Okay, why not?
[00:25:10] And
[00:25:11] Yeah, I just asked a little bit around
[00:25:13] Which route would be good
[00:25:14] For like a
[00:25:14] Euro climber
[00:25:16] And everyone
[00:25:18] Considered El Nino
[00:25:19] As a good first wall
[00:25:21] And it was actually perfect to me
[00:25:24] Really?
[00:25:24] Yeah
[00:25:24] Why?
[00:25:25] I mean that seems like a
[00:25:26] I don't know
[00:25:27] It seems kind of
[00:25:28] It's pretty hard
[00:25:29] Like that
[00:25:29] And that right side is
[00:25:31] You know, it's like
[00:25:33] Mungier and
[00:25:34] Looser rock and things like that
[00:25:35] So it's
[00:25:36] No, it wasn't so bad
[00:25:37] Oh really?
[00:25:38] Okay
[00:25:38] I was just so intimidated by all the people on the left side
[00:25:42] You know, there was always a line
[00:25:44] And there was so many people
[00:25:45] You could see so many headlens at night
[00:25:46] And I don't want to go in there
[00:25:49] So there's nobody on El Nino
[00:25:51] And I checked out the first three pitches
[00:25:54] They're quite hard
[00:25:56] Crimpie styles
[00:25:57] All bolted
[00:25:58] For like two days, I would say
[00:26:00] And then yeah
[00:26:01] We packed
[00:26:01] And I gave it a go
[00:26:03] Ground up
[00:26:04] And then we were off for
[00:26:06] For a couple of days in a while
[00:26:08] Just a couple
[00:26:09] Yes, it took us four days
[00:26:11] Oh wow
[00:26:11] Yeah
[00:26:12] And luckily there was
[00:26:14] The day before
[00:26:15] There was a team from Sweden
[00:26:18] They were also on the sending go
[00:26:20] And they worked on the route
[00:26:22] Have been worked on the route
[00:26:23] For like a month or so
[00:26:24] So there were tick marks everywhere
[00:26:27] And chalk
[00:26:27] And you know all the
[00:26:29] I basically had surfed the route on the plateau
[00:26:32] Oh right
[00:26:33] I just had to crimp and climb hard
[00:26:34] And of course, I mean you have to read the route
[00:26:37] And you have to play skier and stuff
[00:26:38] But there were always like four pitches above us
[00:26:42] So we could basically just follow
[00:26:46] And I was also super naive
[00:26:48] I mean I had no like real clear image of the
[00:26:51] Or picture of the route
[00:26:52] And nobody has really done it before
[00:26:54] And so there's a few informations
[00:26:57] And yeah, I remember
[00:26:59] Like I just all the hard pitches
[00:27:01] I think there are three
[00:27:03] I mean the first ones
[00:27:04] And then there's another like five, thirteen
[00:27:07] I just checked them out once
[00:27:10] And then I climbed it
[00:27:11] And then we moved on
[00:27:12] And we hold after every pitch
[00:27:14] And my boyfriend was
[00:27:16] Jumoring or climbing if he could
[00:27:18] But it was really like easy going
[00:27:21] Not easy going
[00:27:23] But it felt, you know, it was fluid
[00:27:26] It was fluid
[00:27:27] You know, we kind of got dialed a little bit
[00:27:30] With the system, with the holding
[00:27:32] We had enough water
[00:27:34] We figured out how to set up a portal edge
[00:27:37] And yeah, it was great
[00:27:38] It was really great
[00:27:40] I was, yeah, and I was just lucky
[00:27:42] Because they were just above us
[00:27:43] So there were tick marks
[00:27:44] It was kind of obvious in the crux pitches
[00:27:46] Right
[00:27:47] What to do also
[00:27:48] That helped
[00:27:48] Yeah
[00:27:49] Part of your story is this like naive, wide-eyed
[00:27:53] Oh yeah
[00:27:54] Beginner in a way to walk
[00:27:56] Like that kind of wall climbing
[00:27:57] And yet you keep saying like
[00:27:58] But then we just went ahead and did it anyway
[00:28:00] And it was fine, you know
[00:28:03] So yeah, it's pretty wild
[00:28:05] And maybe there's this like
[00:28:06] The naivete has served you
[00:28:09] Because I would be super intimidated
[00:28:11] Because I, you know
[00:28:13] Like I said, I've always heard
[00:28:15] The right side was kind of crummy
[00:28:17] No, not really, no
[00:28:18] And I mean the hard pitches are all on crimps
[00:28:20] So I felt really like
[00:28:22] It was my home
[00:28:23] Right
[00:28:23] And then, yeah, of course
[00:28:25] There were some twelfths on trad and so
[00:28:28] But since I climbed a lot in Chamonix
[00:28:30] In the mountains
[00:28:31] I wasn't so
[00:28:33] It wasn't scary to me
[00:28:34] It was just like, yeah, you know
[00:28:36] Watch out sometimes
[00:28:37] But it wasn't something I wasn't used to do
[00:28:39] So it was really, to me, the perfect start
[00:28:40] I mean, especially since
[00:28:43] I learned how to track climb
[00:28:44] I would, there was none
[00:28:47] Climbing style
[00:28:48] I wasn't really familiar with
[00:28:50] And that just opened like a playground
[00:28:53] In the endless, you know
[00:28:55] I mean, I've never been like a super
[00:28:58] I don't know, training machine
[00:28:59] Like Jonathan Zikris style
[00:29:01] But my, my
[00:29:03] I was so thirsty for like walls and experience
[00:29:06] And I felt comfortable
[00:29:07] I felt that I had the skills
[00:29:09] And I got pretty dialed with like a
[00:29:12] The holing and all this stuff
[00:29:13] And I became a really tactic climber
[00:29:15] You know, I knew how much water I needed
[00:29:18] Or how much food or
[00:29:20] So I got so dialed in that
[00:29:22] And then I tried the nose
[00:29:25] And same, it was a great experience
[00:29:28] And it became just better and better and better
[00:29:31] But then this route became an obsession
[00:29:34] The nose
[00:29:35] The nose, yeah
[00:29:35] And I couldn't
[00:29:37] I couldn't feel the same as I felt
[00:29:40] In all the other routes I climbed
[00:29:42] Or tried
[00:29:43] There has always been this feeling of
[00:29:47] Or this questioning like
[00:29:49] Wait, why do I do this?
[00:29:52] And I couldn't feel my heart really beating for it
[00:29:55] Like being totally satisfied with whatever comes
[00:29:59] You know, good and bad and whatever
[00:30:01] There was always this kind of wish of like
[00:30:04] I want to succeed
[00:30:05] Let's talk a little bit about that story
[00:30:07] So you, how did you end up up there with Lynn?
[00:30:10] Well, Lynn and I
[00:30:11] How did that work out?
[00:30:12] Yeah, we're kind of friends
[00:30:13] Yeah
[00:30:13] Through the Petzl team
[00:30:15] Right
[00:30:15] And then we teamed up because
[00:30:20] In 2018, because she wanted to celebrate her
[00:30:24] 25th anniversary of the first female ascent
[00:30:26] Or first ascent
[00:30:28] And asked her to team up
[00:30:30] Because I wanted to try the route
[00:30:32] So it was kind of a win-win situation
[00:30:36] And it's fun
[00:30:37] It is fun
[00:30:38] And yeah, I had minimized gear
[00:30:40] And she never set up a part of ledge
[00:30:42] And she never used a stove on a wall
[00:30:44] So it was so impressive to see like
[00:30:47] Yeah, there were so many things
[00:30:48] She had no clue
[00:30:49] Wow
[00:30:50] And it was cool
[00:30:51] So I was kind of the
[00:30:53] She showed me the route
[00:30:54] But I showed her like
[00:30:56] In the new style of like, climbing, you know
[00:30:59] So we spent a month in the route
[00:31:03] Working it out
[00:31:04] And was her intention to try to free it again?
[00:31:07] Yeah
[00:31:07] Okay
[00:31:08] But when she was in it
[00:31:09] She was like
[00:31:09] No way
[00:31:13] That would be impressive
[00:31:14] I mean, that would have been
[00:31:15] Oh yeah
[00:31:16] A hell of a feat
[00:31:17] No, but
[00:31:17] I mean, she's still a crack climber
[00:31:19] I mean, she's a really good climber
[00:31:21] But yeah, yeah
[00:31:21] And seriously, she did great
[00:31:24] It's just those changing corners
[00:31:26] I think they
[00:31:27] I don't know if they changed or not
[00:31:29] But they're really polished now
[00:31:32] Especially in the way she climbed it
[00:31:34] It's really stuck into these corners
[00:31:36] It is just like black polish
[00:31:38] And black polish
[00:31:39] Right
[00:31:39] So it's kind of hard to stick in it
[00:31:41] But for her
[00:31:44] It has been the first time
[00:31:47] After Owen
[00:31:49] That she went off for
[00:31:50] Her son
[00:31:51] Yeah, her son
[00:31:52] Yeah
[00:31:52] And it was a big step for her
[00:31:58] And to me, of course
[00:31:59] It was great to team up with Lynn
[00:32:01] I mean, this
[00:32:02] Also this age difference
[00:32:03] And generation difference
[00:32:05] I really liked it
[00:32:07] And so we did a three day push
[00:32:09] Where I send all the pitches
[00:32:12] Except the changing corners
[00:32:14] And then
[00:32:16] Yeah, that route couldn't go out of my mind
[00:32:18] And it became an obsession
[00:32:20] And I
[00:32:20] I was sleeping no
[00:32:22] I was eating no
[00:32:23] I was drinking no
[00:32:25] It was just
[00:32:25] I was training so hard
[00:32:28] And I really lived for this route
[00:32:32] And
[00:32:33] Like how long did you stay obsessed with it?
[00:32:35] Until the year after
[00:32:37] Okay
[00:32:37] Yeah, and then I went back
[00:32:38] And I was, I was afraid actually to go back
[00:32:41] I was fit as never in my life
[00:32:43] And I was really afraid
[00:32:45] And I had some, you know
[00:32:47] And I don't know
[00:32:49] I think I was just really stressed
[00:32:51] But anyways
[00:32:52] I managed to
[00:32:54] Make my way
[00:32:55] Back to Yosemite
[00:32:56] And I called Lynn
[00:32:57] And I was like
[00:32:57] I'm ready
[00:32:58] And she's like, okay
[00:32:59] I'll come
[00:33:00] Really, like she's like
[00:33:02] Alright, I will support you again
[00:33:04] And then we checked out
[00:33:06] From the top changing corners
[00:33:08] Because I really figured out how
[00:33:10] How to do
[00:33:11] Thing I had in time
[00:33:13] During 2018
[00:33:14] I was more focused on the great roof
[00:33:17] And
[00:33:18] Somehow
[00:33:19] I wasn't able to send the pitch in
[00:33:21] You know
[00:33:22] In one try
[00:33:23] But I did it in
[00:33:24] Like two sections
[00:33:25] And I had a really good idea
[00:33:27] What to do
[00:33:28] So we decided to do
[00:33:30] To give it a ground up
[00:33:31] And then I
[00:33:32] I told Lynn that I really wanted to take
[00:33:34] The entire lead
[00:33:35] And so she could just follow
[00:33:37] So I did all the leading
[00:33:39] All the hauling
[00:33:39] Which is kind of hard
[00:33:41] But I did it
[00:33:42] Because she
[00:33:42] Yeah, she climbed pretty slow
[00:33:44] And by the time she arrived at the
[00:33:45] Belay station
[00:33:46] I hold already
[00:33:47] Everything
[00:33:48] And so I could just move on
[00:33:50] And yeah, great roof
[00:33:51] I had really like no
[00:33:53] No problem
[00:33:54] But it felt
[00:33:55] I felt comfortable doing it
[00:33:57] So I did it
[00:33:58] On the day
[00:33:59] Day two
[00:33:59] Or day three
[00:34:01] And then we made it up to
[00:34:03] The last camp
[00:34:04] And then I felt
[00:34:05] That
[00:34:08] I
[00:34:08] I don't know
[00:34:09] How to explain
[00:34:11] I felt that
[00:34:12] It was that moment
[00:34:13] In your life where
[00:34:15] You just want to be done
[00:34:17] With something
[00:34:18] And of course
[00:34:19] I tried
[00:34:20] And of course
[00:34:21] I
[00:34:22] Really I was
[00:34:23] You know, trying really hard
[00:34:25] But it wasn't the same
[00:34:26] Positive
[00:34:27] Energy
[00:34:29] Of trying
[00:34:30] And this positive mindset
[00:34:32] I had
[00:34:33] Then in all the other routes
[00:34:35] I climbed
[00:34:35] There was something like
[00:34:37] I need to finish it
[00:34:38] I need to finish it
[00:34:39] I'm tired
[00:34:39] I'm tired
[00:34:40] I'm tired of this world
[00:34:42] I'm tired of
[00:34:43] Being alone
[00:34:44] I'm tired of
[00:34:46] Of
[00:34:46] Of being
[00:34:48] Celebrated like a superstar
[00:34:49] And although I just want to
[00:34:50] Kind of settle down
[00:34:51] And have a
[00:34:52] You know, a boyfriend
[00:34:54] And a family
[00:34:54] And so it is very
[00:34:57] Contradictional
[00:34:58] And so I tried for three days
[00:35:00] Up there
[00:35:00] And it was really hot
[00:35:01] So we woke up every night
[00:35:03] At like 4am
[00:35:04] To have like this two hours
[00:35:06] Of just when it's in the daylight
[00:35:09] Until like 9.30
[00:35:11] When it turns into the sun
[00:35:13] And so during the day then
[00:35:15] You're just chilling
[00:35:17] Chilling
[00:35:18] With your thoughts
[00:35:20] Yeah
[00:35:20] I'm just like
[00:35:21] I can only imagine
[00:35:22] You're just like
[00:35:22] For hours
[00:35:23] People coming by
[00:35:25] Oh yeah
[00:35:26] It was so entertaining
[00:35:27] Lynn and I
[00:35:28] We just tried to hide ourselves
[00:35:30] From the sun
[00:35:30] Right
[00:35:31] And you know
[00:35:31] We're almost naked up there
[00:35:33] It was so hot
[00:35:34] And people just you know
[00:35:36] You know
[00:35:36] We did like one selfie
[00:35:38] After the other
[00:35:38] With people coming
[00:35:40] Yeah
[00:35:41] For sure
[00:35:41] But there was nothing to do
[00:35:42] Right
[00:35:42] And...
[00:35:43] But think
[00:35:46] Oh man
[00:35:47] Yeah
[00:35:49] Oh man yeah
[00:35:50] So...
[00:35:51] And I was super close
[00:35:52] I mean
[00:35:53] Seriously
[00:35:53] I was
[00:35:54] I did this last
[00:35:55] You know
[00:35:56] Whip
[00:35:58] Slip
[00:35:58] Whip
[00:35:58] Just before the final jog
[00:36:00] And it was
[00:36:01] Yeah
[00:36:02] It was a
[00:36:03] Heartbreaker
[00:36:03] I was just crying
[00:36:05] But I was also
[00:36:06] Kind of relieved
[00:36:07] That it was kind of over
[00:36:08] Right
[00:36:09] Yeah
[00:36:09] So how long
[00:36:11] Did that take
[00:36:12] To sink in?
[00:36:14] I mean
[00:36:14] Because you topped out
[00:36:15] Lynn I'm sure
[00:36:16] Was as supportive
[00:36:17] As she could be
[00:36:18] And you know
[00:36:19] You came down
[00:36:20] And went on
[00:36:21] With your life
[00:36:22] But was it
[00:36:24] Did it take a while
[00:36:25] To sink in that
[00:36:26] What I'll say is like
[00:36:27] I can point to these things
[00:36:29] In my life right
[00:36:30] That were pivotal
[00:36:30] But I didn't maybe
[00:36:32] Know it at the time
[00:36:33] And only in retrospect
[00:36:34] Do you look back
[00:36:35] And go oh yeah
[00:36:35] That was the end of that
[00:36:37] Or that was the step
[00:36:39] Where things changed
[00:36:41] The thing was like
[00:36:44] For...
[00:36:45] Like before trying the nose
[00:36:47] For the three years before
[00:36:49] That little feeling of loneliness
[00:36:52] Was there more and more
[00:36:54] You know that
[00:36:55] I was on the wall
[00:36:56] It has always been great
[00:36:57] I really enjoy my life
[00:36:59] On the wall
[00:36:59] Or climbing
[00:37:00] Whatever it is
[00:37:01] But then once
[00:37:03] Backing around
[00:37:03] There was always
[00:37:04] This lonely feeling
[00:37:05] Of like
[00:37:07] Oh shit
[00:37:07] I'm back on the ground
[00:37:09] Like everyone has
[00:37:10] Kind of a normal life
[00:37:10] And me
[00:37:11] What I do?
[00:37:12] I'm alone
[00:37:12] So whoa
[00:37:14] You know fast
[00:37:15] To like the next adventure
[00:37:16] And next trip
[00:37:17] Or whatever
[00:37:18] Just to escape this like
[00:37:19] Reality
[00:37:19] And it was easy
[00:37:21] Because I always had success
[00:37:23] And this time
[00:37:24] I failed
[00:37:25] And I was backing around
[00:37:27] And nobody was there
[00:37:29] Saying
[00:37:29] Wow good job
[00:37:30] Great
[00:37:31] Whatever
[00:37:31] You can try it again
[00:37:34] You're coming back
[00:37:35] Yeah exactly
[00:37:35] You're like
[00:37:36] What do you try again?
[00:37:37] I'm like
[00:37:37] I can't
[00:37:39] Like
[00:37:39] You know
[00:37:40] I was really on the border
[00:37:42] Of like
[00:37:43] Getting sick
[00:37:44] Like
[00:37:45] I was
[00:37:46] Seriously like
[00:37:47] My feet
[00:37:48] They hurt so badly
[00:37:49] And just my body
[00:37:50] Was
[00:37:51] Was
[00:37:52] So tired
[00:37:53] Of like
[00:37:54] Just climbing
[00:37:54] All the time
[00:37:55] And
[00:37:56] And being kind of
[00:37:57] Restless
[00:37:58] And so
[00:37:58] And that was really
[00:38:00] Like the
[00:38:02] That was the thing
[00:38:03] I needed
[00:38:04] Because then
[00:38:05] Yeah
[00:38:06] It just
[00:38:07] It wasn't over
[00:38:08] But
[00:38:08] There wasn't this
[00:38:10] Positive energy
[00:38:12] Of like
[00:38:12] Great
[00:38:13] Let's do the next thing
[00:38:15] You know
[00:38:15] And like
[00:38:16] Back on the ground
[00:38:17] Nobody
[00:38:17] Normally
[00:38:18] Usually there will be
[00:38:19] People
[00:38:19] You know
[00:38:20] Just celebrating
[00:38:21] Or whatever
[00:38:21] So it was kind of
[00:38:22] Easy to
[00:38:23] Stay in this
[00:38:24] Like
[00:38:24] Little world
[00:38:25] Of like
[00:38:26] The climbing superstars
[00:38:28] You know
[00:38:28] Just having success
[00:38:30] Yeah I did not
[00:38:31] I was just missing
[00:38:32] Like one meter
[00:38:33] Of like
[00:38:33] Thousand
[00:38:34] But
[00:38:34] It doesn't count
[00:38:36] So anyways
[00:38:37] I was back on the ground
[00:38:38] And the only thing
[00:38:40] I wish to make
[00:38:41] Was love
[00:38:44] Yeah I had such a
[00:38:45] Big desire
[00:38:46] For
[00:38:47] Man adventure
[00:38:49] And having sex
[00:38:50] And being loved
[00:38:51] And giving love
[00:38:52] And just
[00:38:53] Not think about
[00:38:55] Like
[00:38:55] Going out of this world
[00:38:56] A little bit
[00:38:57] And yeah
[00:38:58] And then there was
[00:38:59] Jeremy
[00:38:59] It was perfect
[00:39:02] He just was like
[00:39:05] Oh hi
[00:39:09] Well
[00:39:10] That's what you
[00:39:10] Yeah
[00:39:11] You
[00:39:12] Now
[00:39:13] In the van
[00:39:16] He's like
[00:39:16] All right
[00:39:17] We
[00:39:20] Yeah I don't know
[00:39:21] I mean we met before
[00:39:22] Briefly
[00:39:23] But he was still
[00:39:24] In a relationship
[00:39:24] And I was not at all
[00:39:26] Ready for whatever
[00:39:27] Right
[00:39:27] And Makatea
[00:39:29] In like a
[00:39:29] Really cool project
[00:39:30] And then
[00:39:31] I don't know
[00:39:32] He
[00:39:32] His photograph
[00:39:33] And he
[00:39:35] Still owe me
[00:39:35] Like a photo
[00:39:36] For whatever
[00:39:37] Sponsor
[00:39:38] MSR
[00:39:38] So I contacted
[00:39:39] Him
[00:39:39] Like hey
[00:39:40] You still owe me
[00:39:41] A photo
[00:39:41] And I don't know
[00:39:42] I was just flirting
[00:39:43] He was flirting
[00:39:44] And then
[00:39:44] Yeah I took a train
[00:39:46] From Switzerland
[00:39:47] All the way to France
[00:39:47] And
[00:39:49] There I was
[00:39:50] And we started dating
[00:39:51] And
[00:39:51] It was really refreshing
[00:39:53] Because he was not
[00:39:54] From the climbing
[00:39:55] Where he had no clue
[00:39:56] Who I was
[00:39:57] And what climbing is
[00:39:58] And all this stuff
[00:39:59] So
[00:39:59] I was so relieved
[00:40:01] Just to be
[00:40:02] Somewhere
[00:40:03] As
[00:40:07] Yeah I mean
[00:40:08] Did you have
[00:40:09] Aside from a boyfriend
[00:40:10] Did you have like
[00:40:12] Other support
[00:40:14] I mean
[00:40:14] What about your family
[00:40:15] What about
[00:40:16] Like close friends
[00:40:17] Was there anyone
[00:40:18] You were able to
[00:40:18] Like kind of
[00:40:19] Express this with
[00:40:20] Or were you really
[00:40:22] Kind of feeling
[00:40:23] Pretty isolated
[00:40:24] Well I mean
[00:40:26] That's also
[00:40:27] The result of
[00:40:28] Like
[00:40:29] Hardcore climbing
[00:40:30] And traveling
[00:40:31] Over years and years
[00:40:32] My friends were
[00:40:33] Mostly climbing buddies
[00:40:34] Sure
[00:40:35] And it was great
[00:40:36] When you run a wall
[00:40:37] Or you team up
[00:40:38] But
[00:40:38] Yeah when you just
[00:40:40] Have like a
[00:40:41] Daily life
[00:40:42] Whatever
[00:40:43] I had no place
[00:40:45] To go
[00:40:45] I mean
[00:40:46] I had a base
[00:40:47] In Grenoble
[00:40:47] Which is great
[00:40:48] For like
[00:40:49] Just in between
[00:40:50] Two trips
[00:40:50] And stuff
[00:40:51] I had my family
[00:40:52] Back in Switzerland
[00:40:54] And
[00:40:55] You know
[00:40:55] Just
[00:40:55] Some friends
[00:40:57] But
[00:40:58] Since
[00:40:59] In my eyes
[00:41:01] They lived
[00:41:01] A pretty
[00:41:02] Regular life
[00:41:02] I somehow
[00:41:03] Felt attracted
[00:41:04] To it
[00:41:05] But
[00:41:05] I was so
[00:41:06] Far off
[00:41:07] Their way
[00:41:08] That
[00:41:08] I couldn't
[00:41:09] Really feel
[00:41:09] Like a
[00:41:10] Deep connection
[00:41:10] Anymore
[00:41:11] Yeah
[00:41:12] And your
[00:41:12] Climber
[00:41:13] Friends
[00:41:13] Are probably
[00:41:14] Like
[00:41:14] What do you
[00:41:14] Mean you
[00:41:15] Don't want
[00:41:15] To
[00:41:15] Yeah
[00:41:15] They're
[00:41:16] Just
[00:41:16] Do the
[00:41:16] Next thing
[00:41:17] All over
[00:41:17] When are you
[00:41:18] Going back
[00:41:18] To the nose
[00:41:18] Yeah
[00:41:19] Exactly
[00:41:19] Are you
[00:41:20] Going back
[00:41:20] To the nose
[00:41:20] Next year
[00:41:21] Sure
[00:41:21] Kind of a
[00:41:22] Thing
[00:41:22] I'm sure
[00:41:22] Sure
[00:41:23] Yeah
[00:41:23] Sure
[00:41:24] I mean
[00:41:24] I don't
[00:41:25] Criticism
[00:41:26] This
[00:41:26] But
[00:41:27] I was
[00:41:27] Yeah
[00:41:28] I was
[00:41:29] I was
[00:41:30] Lonely
[00:41:30] Yeah
[00:41:30] So
[00:41:31] You know
[00:41:32] Jeremy's not
[00:41:32] A climber
[00:41:33] You could be
[00:41:34] Yourself with him
[00:41:35] In a different
[00:41:36] Way
[00:41:36] Did
[00:41:37] You know
[00:41:37] As the
[00:41:38] As the
[00:41:38] Relationship
[00:41:39] progressed
[00:41:40] Did you
[00:41:41] Sort of
[00:41:42] Open
[00:41:43] All these
[00:41:43] Things up
[00:41:44] To him
[00:41:44] And try
[00:41:45] To get
[00:41:45] Him to
[00:41:46] Understand
[00:41:46] Your
[00:41:47] Feelings
[00:41:47] Because
[00:41:48] That's
[00:41:48] The other
[00:41:48] Problem
[00:41:49] Is
[00:41:49] You know
[00:41:50] Sometimes
[00:41:50] When you
[00:41:51] Talk about
[00:41:51] Climbing
[00:41:52] And
[00:41:52] And
[00:41:53] You need
[00:41:54] To talk
[00:41:54] To a
[00:41:54] Climber
[00:41:54] Because
[00:41:55] There's
[00:41:55] The only
[00:41:55] One
[00:41:55] Who
[00:41:55] Gets
[00:41:56] It
[00:41:56] Right
[00:41:57] But
[00:41:57] At the
[00:41:58] Same
[00:41:58] Time
[00:41:58] Yeah
[00:41:59] So
[00:41:59] I mean
[00:41:59] Yeah
[00:41:59] So
[00:42:00] When did
[00:42:00] You like
[00:42:00] Kind of
[00:42:01] Express
[00:42:01] Yourself
[00:42:02] Right
[00:42:02] From the
[00:42:03] Beginning
[00:42:03] I was
[00:42:03] Pretty
[00:42:04] Obvious
[00:42:04] That I
[00:42:04] Really
[00:42:06] Needed
[00:42:06] Something
[00:42:06] Else
[00:42:07] And
[00:42:23] That I
[00:42:23] Could
[00:42:23] Manage
[00:42:23] To
[00:42:24] Having
[00:42:25] A
[00:42:25] Solid
[00:42:25] Relationship
[00:42:26] And
[00:42:26] Continuing
[00:42:27] Exactly
[00:42:27] In
[00:42:28] The way
[00:42:28] I
[00:42:28] Wanted
[00:42:28] To
[00:42:29] Do
[00:42:29] And
[00:42:29] I
[00:42:29] Was
[00:42:30] Used
[00:42:30] To
[00:42:30] Do
[00:42:30] And
[00:42:31] I
[00:42:31] Remember
[00:42:32] At the
[00:42:32] Really
[00:42:32] Beginning
[00:42:33] He
[00:42:33] Told
[00:42:33] Me
[00:42:34] Look
[00:42:34] Nina
[00:42:34] I
[00:42:35] Will
[00:42:35] Not
[00:42:36] Be
[00:42:36] The
[00:42:36] Man
[00:42:36] Who
[00:42:36] Is
[00:42:37] Waiting
[00:42:37] For
[00:42:37] You
[00:42:38] At
[00:42:38] The
[00:42:38] Bottom
[00:42:38] Of
[00:42:39] A
[00:42:39] Cliff
[00:42:40] And
[00:42:40] I
[00:42:40] Was
[00:42:40] Like
[00:42:41] Why
[00:42:41] And
[00:42:42] He's
[00:42:42] Like
[00:42:42] No
[00:42:42] No
[00:42:43] Way
[00:42:43] I
[00:42:44] Will
[00:42:44] Not
[00:42:44] Waiting
[00:42:45] For
[00:42:45] You
[00:42:45] And
[00:42:46] Be
[00:42:46] Home
[00:42:46] And
[00:42:47] Be
[00:42:47] Scared
[00:42:47] All
[00:42:47] The
[00:42:47] Time
[00:42:48] Or
[00:42:48] Just
[00:42:48] Waiting
[00:42:48] Not
[00:42:49] Even
[00:42:49] Be
[00:42:49] Scared
[00:42:49] Just
[00:42:50] Be
[00:42:50] Waiting
[00:42:51] So
[00:42:52] It
[00:42:52] Was
[00:42:52] A
[00:42:52] Battle
[00:42:52] For
[00:42:53] The
[00:42:53] First
[00:42:53] Six
[00:42:54] Month
[00:42:54] It
[00:42:54] Was
[00:42:54] A
[00:42:54] Real
[00:42:55] Battle
[00:42:55] Because
[00:42:57] I
[00:43:16] Hard
[00:43:16] You
[00:43:17] Probably
[00:43:18] Feel
[00:43:18] Like
[00:43:18] You
[00:43:18] Have
[00:43:18] To
[00:43:19] Keep
[00:43:19] Climbing
[00:43:19] I
[00:43:19] Your
[00:43:20] Job
[00:43:20] Is
[00:43:20] Climbing
[00:43:20] I
[00:43:21] Your
[00:43:21] Sponsors
[00:43:21] Want
[00:43:22] You
[00:43:22] Climbing
[00:43:22] So
[00:43:22] I
[00:43:23] Gotta
[00:43:23] Keep
[00:43:23] Climbing
[00:43:23] I
[00:43:24] Was
[00:43:24] Pissed
[00:43:24] In
[00:43:24] Beginning
[00:43:25] It
[00:43:46] To
[00:43:47] Be
[00:43:47] Truly
[00:43:47] Honest
[00:43:48] All
[00:43:48] My
[00:43:48] Other
[00:43:48] Boyfriend
[00:43:49] They
[00:43:49] Kind
[00:43:49] Of
[00:43:49] Served
[00:43:50] To
[00:43:51] Reach
[00:43:52] A
[00:43:52] Goal
[00:43:53] Or
[00:43:53] Somehow
[00:43:54] Which
[00:43:55] Is
[00:43:55] Kind
[00:43:55] Yeah
[00:43:56] I'm
[00:43:57] A
[00:43:57] Little
[00:43:57] Bit
[00:43:57] Ashamed
[00:43:57] To
[00:43:57] Say
[00:43:58] That
[00:43:58] But
[00:43:58] Yeah
[00:43:59] Either
[00:43:59] He
[00:43:59] Was
[00:43:59] A
[00:44:00] Really
[00:44:00] Good
[00:44:00] Mountaineer
[00:44:00] So
[00:44:01] He
[00:44:01] Introduced
[00:44:01] Me
[00:44:16] I
[00:44:16] Moved
[00:44:17] On
[00:44:17] And
[00:44:17] I
[00:44:17] Was
[00:44:17] Loan
[00:44:18] Again
[00:44:18] Yes
[00:44:19] I
[00:44:20] Mean
[00:44:20] This
[00:44:20] Is
[00:44:20] All
[00:44:20] An
[00:44:21] Arc
[00:44:21] Of
[00:44:21] Maturity
[00:44:22] Is
[00:44:23] A
[00:44:23] Lot
[00:44:23] Of
[00:44:23] What
[00:44:23] It
[00:44:23] Is
[00:44:24] Right
[00:44:24] Maybe
[00:44:24] Yeah
[00:44:25] Maybe
[00:44:25] So
[00:44:26] So
[00:44:26] Last
[00:44:27] Time
[00:44:27] We
[00:44:27] Spoke
[00:44:27] Actually
[00:44:28] Was
[00:44:28] On
[00:44:28] The
[00:44:28] Run
[00:44:28] Out
[00:44:29] And
[00:44:29] You
[00:44:30] Had
[00:44:30] Conceived
[00:44:31] Of
[00:44:31] A
[00:44:31] Plan
[00:44:32] And
[00:44:32] An
[00:44:32] Idea
[00:44:33] With
[00:44:33] This
[00:44:35] Truck
[00:44:35] Exactly
[00:44:36] And
[00:44:46] To
[00:44:47] Defend
[00:44:47] Jeremy
[00:44:47] He
[00:44:48] Is
[00:44:48] Not
[00:44:48] At
[00:44:49] All
[00:44:49] Just
[00:44:49] Like
[00:44:49] A
[00:44:50] Wallflower
[00:44:51] Wait
[00:44:51] For
[00:44:52] You
[00:44:52] To
[00:44:52] Be
[00:44:52] Exactly
[00:44:53] Or
[00:44:53] Just
[00:44:54] Like
[00:44:54] He
[00:44:54] Is
[00:44:54] His
[00:44:55] Photographer
[00:44:55] You
[00:44:56] Know
[00:44:56] He
[00:44:56] Is
[00:44:56] Ski
[00:44:57] Photographer
[00:44:57] So
[00:44:58] He
[00:44:58] Has
[00:44:58] Not
[00:44:59] Like
[00:44:59] A
[00:44:59] Regular
[00:44:59] Life
[00:45:00] He
[00:45:00] Is
[00:45:00] Not
[00:45:00] A
[00:45:01] Life
[00:45:01] As
[00:45:01] Other
[00:45:02] People
[00:45:03] Have
[00:45:03] You
[00:45:04] Know
[00:45:04] And
[00:45:04] He
[00:45:04] Don
[00:45:05] Wanted
[00:45:05] Me
[00:45:06] To
[00:45:06] Be
[00:45:06] Like
[00:45:06] Okay
[00:45:07] Nina
[00:45:07] Now
[00:45:07] Climbing
[00:45:08] Is
[00:45:08] Over
[00:45:08] And
[00:45:08] You
[00:45:08] Stay
[00:45:09] Home
[00:45:09] And
[00:45:09] We
[00:45:45] He
[00:45:46] Which
[00:45:47] Made
[00:45:48] Actually
[00:45:48] Future
[00:45:48] Attractive
[00:45:49] You
[00:45:49] Know
[00:45:49] It
[00:45:50] Made
[00:45:50] It
[00:45:51] Something
[00:45:51] We
[00:45:52] Could
[00:45:53] Grow
[00:45:54] Together
[00:45:54] Something
[00:45:55] We
[00:45:55] Could
[00:45:55] Create
[00:45:55] Together
[00:45:56] We
[00:45:57] Wanted
[00:45:58] To
[00:45:58] Keep
[00:45:58] It
[00:45:58] Totally
[00:45:59] Private
[00:45:59] To
[00:46:00] Have
[00:46:00] Like
[00:46:00] You
[00:46:00] Know
[00:46:00] No
[00:46:01] Pressure
[00:46:01] From
[00:46:01] Sponsors
[00:46:02] Or
[00:46:02] Money
[00:46:03] Or
[00:46:03] So
[00:46:03] To
[00:46:03] Make
[00:46:04] It
[00:46:04] In
[00:46:04] The
[00:46:04] Way
[00:46:05] We
[00:46:05] Wanted
[00:46:05] To
[00:46:05] Make
[00:46:05] It
[00:46:05] So
[00:46:06] We
[00:46:06] Invested
[00:46:06] All
[00:46:06] Our
[00:46:07] Money
[00:46:07] In
[00:46:07] A
[00:46:07] Jog
[00:46:08] And
[00:46:10] Yeah
[00:46:10] The
[00:46:11] Project
[00:46:11] Grew
[00:46:12] And
[00:46:12] We
[00:46:12] Had
[00:46:13] Ideas
[00:46:13] And
[00:46:15] We
[00:46:15] Built
[00:46:15] A
[00:46:15] Climbing
[00:46:16] Wall
[00:46:16] In
[00:46:16] It
[00:46:17] And
[00:46:17] We
[00:46:17] Started
[00:46:18] Our
[00:46:18] First
[00:46:18] Trip
[00:46:18] And
[00:46:19] All
[00:46:20] During
[00:46:21] That
[00:46:21] Time
[00:46:21] Of
[00:46:21] Construction
[00:46:22] It
[00:46:22] Was
[00:46:22] Almost
[00:46:22] A
[00:46:23] Year
[00:46:23] It
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[00:48:17] That
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[00:48:18] And
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[00:48:19] Joy
[00:48:19] Of
[00:48:19] Climbing
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[00:48:22] Adults
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[00:48:55] Good
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[00:48:56] Is
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[00:48:58] Here
[00:48:58] Is
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[00:48:58] Place
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[00:48:59] Are
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[00:49:23] Time
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[00:49:24] People
[00:49:24] Which
[00:49:25] Is
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[00:49:29] Serves
[00:49:29] More
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[00:49:31] Deep
[00:49:32] Connection
[00:49:32] And
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[00:49:34] Are
[00:49:34] Like
[00:49:34] More
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[00:49:52] And
[00:49:53] Then
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[00:49:56] Was
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[00:49:57] Morocco
[00:49:58] Last
[00:49:58] Year
[00:49:58] I
[00:49:59] Mean
[00:49:59] We
[00:49:59] Spent
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[00:50:00] Bunch
[00:50:00] Of
[00:50:00] Time
[00:50:00] In
[00:50:00] France
[00:50:01] And
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[00:50:02] Know
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[00:50:03] So
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[00:50:05] Living
[00:50:06] Outdoors
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[00:50:08] Especially
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[00:50:09] We
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[00:50:11] How
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[00:50:12] It
[00:50:12] Is
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[00:50:14] A
[00:50:14] Family
[00:50:14] And
[00:50:16] Again
[00:50:17] Like
[00:50:17] Our
[00:50:18] Climbing
[00:50:18] Walls
[00:50:18] Served
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[00:50:20] Know
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[00:50:21] A
[00:50:21] Hot
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[00:50:22] A
[00:50:22] Hot
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[00:50:23] A
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[00:50:25] And
[00:50:26] They
[00:50:26] Share
[00:50:26] The
[00:50:26] Stories
[00:50:27] And
[00:50:27] They're
[00:50:28] Pretty
[00:50:28] Dramatic
[00:50:29] Stories
[00:50:29] Actually
[00:50:30] So
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[00:50:32] Place
[00:50:33] For
[00:50:34] Everybody
[00:50:35] And
[00:50:36] Again
[00:50:37] In
[00:50:38] Morocco
[00:50:38] I
[00:50:39] Realized
[00:50:39] Like
[00:50:39] How
[00:50:40] How
[00:50:40] Rich
[00:50:41] Now
[00:50:41] My
[00:50:41] Life
[00:50:41] Is
[00:50:42] I
[00:50:42] Always
[00:50:43] Travel
[00:50:44] For
[00:50:44] Climbing
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[00:50:45] Climbing
[00:50:45] I'm
[00:50:46] Always
[00:50:46] Connected
[00:50:47] To
[00:50:47] Community
[00:50:47] But
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[00:50:50] So
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[00:50:54] Real
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[00:50:54] And
[00:50:54] And
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[00:51:02] Things
[00:51:03] Like
[00:51:03] Hard
[00:51:03] Things
[00:51:03] On
[00:51:04] The
[00:51:04] Road
[00:51:04] But
[00:51:04] Also
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[00:51:05] Things
[00:51:05] And
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[00:51:07] To
[00:51:07] Be
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[00:51:09] Like
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[00:51:11] Doing
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[00:51:16] We
[00:51:17] Talked
[00:51:17] About
[00:51:18] It
[00:51:32] It
[00:51:32] But
[00:51:33] But
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[00:51:33] Was
[00:51:34] Not
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[00:51:34] The
[00:51:34] Horizon
[00:51:35] Yet
[00:51:35] No
[00:51:35] So
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[00:51:37] Go
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[00:51:37] Little
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[00:51:38] Whole
[00:51:39] Theme
[00:51:39] Of
[00:51:40] You
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[00:51:42] Transitions
[00:51:42] And
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[00:51:43] Is
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[00:51:48] Person
[00:51:48] Who's
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[00:51:52] About
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[00:51:53] Climbing
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[00:51:54] Kind
[00:51:54] Of
[00:51:54] Get
[00:51:55] Through
[00:51:55] That
[00:51:56] A
[00:51:56] What
[00:51:57] Was
[00:51:57] Your
[00:51:57] Reaction
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[00:51:58] Getting
[00:51:59] Pregnant
[00:51:59] Because
[00:52:00] It
[00:52:01] Also
[00:52:01] Is
[00:52:02] You
[00:52:03] Know
[00:52:03] It's
[00:52:03] A
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[00:52:04] Thing
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[00:52:05] About
[00:52:05] Your
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[00:52:06] And
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[00:52:08] A
[00:52:08] Kid
[00:52:08] As
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[00:52:10] Responsibility
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[00:52:12] Body
[00:52:13] You
[00:52:13] Know
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[00:52:14] What
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[00:52:15] The
[00:52:15] First
[00:52:15] Kid
[00:52:15] Is
[00:52:16] A
[00:52:16] Mystery
[00:52:16] Of
[00:52:17] What
[00:52:18] It's
[00:52:18] Gonna
[00:52:18] Do
[00:52:19] And
[00:52:19] Sometimes
[00:52:20] The
[00:52:20] Pregnancy
[00:52:20] Goes
[00:52:21] Perfectly
[00:52:21] You
[00:52:22] You're
[00:52:22] Young
[00:52:22] Ish
[00:52:22] You
[00:52:23] You
[00:52:23] Come
[00:52:24] Back
[00:52:24] To
[00:52:24] Perfect
[00:52:25] Physical
[00:52:26] Health
[00:52:26] Sometimes
[00:52:26] It
[00:52:27] Doesn't
[00:52:27] Sometimes
[00:52:28] There's
[00:52:28] Complications
[00:52:28] That
[00:52:29] Do
[00:52:29] Things
[00:52:30] That
[00:52:30] You
[00:52:30] Never
[00:52:30] Recover
[00:52:31] From
[00:52:31] So
[00:52:31] How
[00:52:32] Did
[00:52:32] You
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[00:52:34] A
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[00:52:36] Idea
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[00:52:40] Well
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[00:52:40] Going
[00:52:40] To
[00:52:40] Happen
[00:52:41] Now
[00:52:41] So
[00:52:42] And
[00:52:43] You
[00:52:43] Can
[00:52:43] Be
[00:52:43] Honest
[00:52:43] Yeah
[00:52:44] When
[00:52:44] I met
[00:52:44] Jeremy
[00:52:45] I
[00:52:45] Was
[00:52:45] Pretty
[00:52:45] Sure
[00:52:46] That
[00:52:46] I
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[00:52:54] Enjoy
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[00:52:56] Couple
[00:52:56] Of
[00:52:56] Years
[00:52:57] And
[00:52:57] Then
[00:52:57] Making
[00:52:58] Kids
[00:52:59] And
[00:52:59] Kind
[00:52:59] Of
[00:52:59] Whatever
[00:53:00] Then
[00:53:01] And
[00:53:02] Then
[00:53:02] Leah
[00:53:03] Was
[00:53:03] An
[00:53:03] Accident
[00:53:04] And
[00:53:05] You're
[00:53:05] Like
[00:53:05] Oh
[00:53:06] Shit
[00:53:07] That
[00:53:24] Plus
[00:53:24] Nine
[00:53:24] Is
[00:53:24] Like
[00:53:24] Are
[00:53:24] You
[00:53:24] Fucking
[00:53:25] Crazy
[00:53:25] Like
[00:53:26] You
[00:53:26] Want
[00:53:26] To
[00:53:26] Have
[00:53:27] Kids
[00:53:27] And
[00:53:28] Just
[00:53:28] Because
[00:53:28] She
[00:53:28] Arrived
[00:53:29] Like
[00:53:29] Maybe
[00:53:29] Three
[00:53:30] Years
[00:53:30] Before
[00:53:31] Like
[00:53:32] Are
[00:53:32] You
[00:53:32] Stupid
[00:53:33] And
[00:53:34] So
[00:53:34] We
[00:53:34] Did
[00:53:35] It
[00:53:35] And
[00:53:36] Honestly
[00:53:36] I
[00:53:54] Had
[00:53:54] Had
[00:53:54] Had
[00:53:54] Babies
[00:53:54] And
[00:53:54] They
[00:53:55] Were
[00:53:55] All
[00:53:55] Just
[00:53:55] Like
[00:53:55] It
[00:53:56] Was
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[00:53:56] Come
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[00:53:57] As
[00:53:57] Before
[00:53:58] Like
[00:53:58] Martina
[00:53:59] Kufar
[00:54:00] Slovenian
[00:54:01] Machine
[00:54:02] Laurence
[00:54:03] Spinet
[00:54:03] You
[00:54:03] Know
[00:54:03] Just
[00:54:03] Really
[00:54:04] Strong
[00:54:05] Climbers
[00:54:05] Like
[00:54:06] 8C
[00:54:06] 9A
[00:54:07] Climbers
[00:54:07] And
[00:54:08] So
[00:54:08] It
[00:54:24] I
[00:54:24] Enjoyed
[00:54:24] It
[00:54:25] A
[00:54:25] Lot
[00:54:25] I
[00:54:25] Climbed
[00:54:26] A
[00:54:26] Lot
[00:54:26] Because
[00:54:27] I
[00:54:28] Was
[00:54:28] Very
[00:54:28] Conscious
[00:54:29] That
[00:54:29] It
[00:54:29] Will
[00:54:29] Be
[00:54:29] The
[00:54:29] Last
[00:54:30] Time
[00:54:30] In
[00:54:30] My
[00:54:30] Life
[00:54:30] Where
[00:54:31] I
[00:54:31] Would
[00:54:31] Just
[00:54:32] Be
[00:54:32] Responsible
[00:54:32] For
[00:54:33] Myself
[00:54:33] And
[00:54:35] Pregnancy
[00:54:35] Was
[00:54:36] Wow
[00:54:37] It
[00:54:37] Was
[00:54:38] Really
[00:54:38] Good
[00:54:38] Giving
[00:54:39] Birth
[00:54:39] Was
[00:54:40] The
[00:54:40] Best
[00:54:40] Experience
[00:54:41] Ever
[00:54:41] In
[00:54:41] My
[00:54:41] Life
[00:54:42] Wow
[00:54:42] With
[00:54:43] Jeremy
[00:54:43] Like
[00:54:44] Yeah
[00:54:45] We
[00:54:45] Just
[00:54:46] Did
[00:54:46] It
[00:54:46] The
[00:54:46] Two
[00:54:46] Of
[00:54:46] In
[00:54:47] The
[00:54:47] Back
[00:54:47] Of
[00:54:47] The
[00:54:47] Van
[00:54:47] No
[00:54:50] In
[00:54:51] The
[00:54:54] We
[00:54:54] Had
[00:54:54] Midwives
[00:54:55] With
[00:54:55] Us
[00:54:55] They
[00:54:55] Were
[00:54:56] Great
[00:54:56] And
[00:54:56] It
[00:54:57] Was
[00:54:57] Just
[00:54:57] A
[00:54:57] Total
[00:54:58] Natural
[00:54:58] Birth
[00:54:59] And
[00:54:59] Yeah
[00:55:00] Seriously
[00:55:01] I
[00:55:02] This
[00:55:03] Part
[00:55:03] For
[00:55:03] Me
[00:55:03] Was
[00:55:04] Really
[00:55:04] Easy
[00:55:05] And
[00:55:06] As
[00:55:07] Soon
[00:55:07] As
[00:55:07] I
[00:55:07] Stopped
[00:55:08] Breastfeeding
[00:55:08] I
[00:55:09] Felt
[00:55:10] Really
[00:55:10] Fit
[00:55:10] Again
[00:55:11] I
[00:55:11] Was
[00:55:11] Climbing
[00:55:12] Again
[00:55:12] Like
[00:55:12] 80
[00:55:12] Plus
[00:55:14] And
[00:55:14] Then
[00:55:15] I
[00:55:15] Would
[00:55:15] Really
[00:55:15] Say
[00:55:16] Like
[00:55:16] After
[00:55:16] Really
[00:55:17] Nine
[00:55:17] Months
[00:55:17] I
[00:55:24] You
[00:55:24] Climb
[00:55:24] A
[00:55:24] Little
[00:55:24] Bit
[00:55:25] Less
[00:55:25] But
[00:55:26] There
[00:55:27] Was
[00:55:27] No
[00:55:27] Big
[00:55:28] Change
[00:55:28] Like
[00:55:28] No
[00:55:29] Change
[00:55:29] Actually
[00:55:30] Physically
[00:55:30] Wise
[00:55:31] Right
[00:55:31] Yeah
[00:55:31] Jeremy
[00:55:32] Was
[00:55:33] Like
[00:55:33] What
[00:55:34] Were
[00:55:34] The
[00:55:34] Discussions
[00:55:34] As
[00:55:35] Far
[00:55:35] As
[00:55:35] His
[00:55:35] Part
[00:55:36] And
[00:55:36] Like
[00:55:36] Wow
[00:55:37] This
[00:55:37] Is
[00:55:37] An
[00:55:38] Accident
[00:55:39] This
[00:55:39] Is
[00:55:39] Too
[00:55:39] Soon
[00:55:40] Did
[00:55:41] You
[00:55:41] Guys
[00:55:41] Both
[00:55:41] Get
[00:55:41] On
[00:55:41] Board
[00:55:42] Or
[00:55:53] Were
[00:55:53] To
[00:55:53] Take
[00:55:54] A
[00:55:54] Decision
[00:55:54] Actively
[00:55:55] I
[00:55:56] Was
[00:55:56] The
[00:55:56] Same
[00:55:56] Way
[00:55:56] I
[00:55:56] Don't
[00:55:57] Know
[00:55:57] If
[00:55:57] I
[00:55:57] Said
[00:55:57] That
[00:55:57] But
[00:55:58] Yeah
[00:55:58] Miles
[00:55:58] Was
[00:55:58] A
[00:55:58] Whoops
[00:55:59] As
[00:55:59] Well
[00:55:59] And
[00:56:00] And
[00:56:00] I
[00:56:01] Was
[00:56:01] Immediately
[00:56:01] Pretty
[00:56:02] Much
[00:56:02] On
[00:56:02] Board
[00:56:02] Steph
[00:56:02] Was
[00:56:03] A
[00:56:03] Little
[00:56:03] Had
[00:56:04] A
[00:56:04] Few
[00:56:05] Days
[00:56:05] Of
[00:56:06] Like
[00:56:06] Not
[00:56:07] Really
[00:56:07] Like
[00:56:07] Oh
[00:56:07] We're
[00:56:08] Going
[00:56:08] To
[00:56:08] Terminate
[00:56:08] But
[00:56:09] But
[00:56:09] Like
[00:56:09] Oh
[00:56:09] My
[00:56:10] God
[00:56:10] What's
[00:56:10] Happening
[00:56:11] No
[00:56:11] The
[00:56:11] Good
[00:56:11] Thing
[00:56:11] Is
[00:56:11] Jeremy
[00:56:12] It
[00:56:12] Was
[00:56:12] Then
[00:56:12] Because
[00:56:13] We
[00:56:14] Love
[00:56:14] To
[00:56:14] Be
[00:56:15] Free
[00:56:15] And
[00:56:16] We
[00:56:16] Were
[00:56:16] Free
[00:56:16] For
[00:56:16] Such
[00:56:17] A
[00:56:17] Long
[00:56:17] Time
[00:56:17] We
[00:56:18] Had
[00:56:19] Serious
[00:56:19] Discussion
[00:56:20] About
[00:56:20] How
[00:56:21] The
[00:56:21] Time
[00:56:21] Management
[00:56:22] And
[00:56:22] Just
[00:56:22] The
[00:56:22] Management
[00:56:23] In
[00:56:23] General
[00:56:23] Afterwards
[00:56:24] So
[00:56:25] It
[00:56:25] Was
[00:56:25] Pretty
[00:56:26] Clear
[00:56:26] For
[00:56:26] Us
[00:56:26] That
[00:56:26] Both
[00:56:27] Of
[00:56:27] Us
[00:56:27] We
[00:56:27] Would
[00:56:28] Love
[00:56:28] To
[00:56:28] Continue
[00:56:28] To
[00:56:29] Work
[00:56:29] To
[00:56:30] Do
[00:56:30] Our
[00:56:30] Jobs
[00:56:30] And
[00:56:31] So
[00:56:31] We
[00:56:33] Figured
[00:56:33] Out
[00:56:33] That
[00:56:33] Au
[00:56:34] Pair
[00:56:41] Would
[00:56:42] Like
[00:56:42] 8C
[00:56:43] Or
[00:56:44] 8B
[00:56:45] Yeah
[00:56:45] Like
[00:56:46] Easy
[00:56:46] Like
[00:56:46] She's
[00:56:47] Such
[00:56:47] A
[00:56:47] Talent
[00:56:48] Like
[00:56:49] Seriously
[00:56:49] Yeah
[00:56:50] And
[00:56:51] You
[00:56:51] Know
[00:56:51] She's
[00:56:51] Full
[00:56:52] Of
[00:56:52] Like
[00:56:52] Energy
[00:56:52] And
[00:56:53] Willing
[00:56:53] To
[00:56:54] Learn
[00:56:54] Pretty
[00:56:54] Young
[00:56:55] When
[00:56:55] She
[00:56:55] Started
[00:56:56] She
[00:56:56] Was
[00:56:56] 19
[00:56:57] And
[00:56:58] Yeah
[00:56:58] She
[00:56:59] Originally
[00:57:00] She
[00:57:01] Sent
[00:57:02] Us
[00:57:02] An
[00:57:02] Email
[00:57:02] Because
[00:57:03] She
[00:57:03] Wanted
[00:57:04] To
[00:57:04] Be
[00:57:05] A
[00:57:05] Volunteer
[00:57:06] For
[00:57:06] Project
[00:57:07] Andrea
[00:57:07] And
[00:57:08] We
[00:57:08] Met
[00:57:08] And
[00:57:09] She
[00:57:09] Was
[00:57:09] So
[00:57:10] Soft
[00:57:11] And
[00:57:12] Friendly
[00:57:13] And
[00:57:13] You
[00:57:13] Know
[00:57:13] Young
[00:57:15] And
[00:57:15] It's
[00:57:16] Like
[00:57:16] Well
[00:57:17] We
[00:57:17] Are
[00:57:18] Not
[00:57:18] Really
[00:57:18] Looking
[00:57:18] For
[00:57:18] Volunteer
[00:57:19] But
[00:57:19] How
[00:57:20] Do
[00:57:20] You
[00:57:28] We
[00:57:28] Just
[00:57:29] Learned
[00:57:29] To
[00:57:29] Go
[00:57:31] As
[00:57:38] Soon
[00:57:39] As
[00:57:40] Possible
[00:57:43] And
[00:57:44] To
[00:57:44] Be
[00:57:44] Strong
[00:57:44] As
[00:57:44] Soon
[00:57:44] As
[00:57:45] Possible
[00:57:45] Because
[00:57:46] Yeah
[00:57:46] I
[00:57:46] Needed
[00:57:47] Something
[00:57:47] To
[00:57:48] Hang
[00:57:48] On
[00:57:49] And
[00:57:49] To
[00:57:49] Feel
[00:57:50] Comfortable
[00:57:50] And
[00:57:51] Safe
[00:57:51] In
[00:57:51] This
[00:57:52] Little
[00:57:52] Word
[00:57:53] Versus
[00:57:54] Like
[00:57:54] Parenting
[00:57:55] When
[00:57:55] I
[00:57:55] Was
[00:57:55] Like
[00:57:55] All
[00:57:56] Right
[00:57:56] You
[00:57:57] Don't
[00:57:57] Know
[00:57:57] What
[00:57:57] You're
[00:57:57] Doing
[00:57:58] Yeah
[00:57:58] At
[00:57:58] All
[00:57:58] So
[00:57:59] She
[00:58:00] Helped
[00:58:00] A lot
[00:58:00] Because
[00:58:01] Then
[00:58:01] I
[00:58:01] Had
[00:58:01] A
[00:58:02] Partner
[00:58:02] Available
[00:58:03] All
[00:58:03] The
[00:58:04] Time
[00:58:04] So
[00:58:04] Crazy
[00:58:04] And
[00:58:05] This
[00:58:05] Is
[00:58:05] Actually
[00:58:05] The
[00:58:05] Most
[00:58:06] Difficult
[00:58:06] Thing
[00:58:06] Right
[00:58:06] When
[00:58:07] Your
[00:58:07] Parents
[00:58:07] Is
[00:58:07] Like
[00:58:07] To
[00:58:08] Find
[00:58:08] Someone
[00:58:08] Who
[00:58:08] Fits
[00:58:09] Into
[00:58:09] Your
[00:58:09] Shadow
[00:58:09] And
[00:58:27] As
[00:58:27] To
[00:58:27] To
[00:58:27] be our third yeah our person that's just exactly she's there yeah and you're always looking for
[00:58:32] somebody that's kind of like yeah you probably won't climb as much today but you'll climb a lot
[00:58:36] but you're gonna be rotating in and out exactly there she was all the time she was and i built
[00:58:41] the wall at home so we trained a lot together while leo was just napping and stuff and so it
[00:58:46] really helped a lot to go back physically and to maintain a really high side of like climbing
[00:58:53] and trying hard and then a year after leo was born just a little bit before i had this multi-pitch
[00:58:59] route in mind it was the ap plus multi-pitch and i was like ah do you want to try it and i couldn't
[00:59:05] find partner and then i asked jeremy and and pauline if we could do like a family project and so is this
[00:59:14] yeah man yeah man yeah and so jeremy took the role of the nanny for a whole summer and pauline and i
[00:59:21] were climbing partners yeah and you pulled it off and we're talking about what like a nine pitch or
[00:59:28] so exactly yeah ap plus which is i think 14a and in the u.s yeah so that's i mean like this whole
[00:59:37] you know we took well we watched that film with amity last night we were talking about earlier and
[00:59:41] you know this whole idea of of climbing hard on sport climbing versus climbing hard on a long route now
[00:59:48] they were up there for eight days so it's a whole different thing but this is somewhere in between
[00:59:51] is the idea of climbing that hard or that well um after you know or on a long climb is pretty
[01:00:00] daunting and i think it's one of those things that has set you apart um previous to all this as a
[01:00:06] climber um so yeah i mean that's it's a pretty awesome goal to be back on a multi-pitch 14a uh would
[01:00:14] you say nine or was the year after nine months it was exactly a year after yeah she was born like
[01:00:20] 11 months months after well
[01:00:25] so i felt like nina if you want to stick to climbing and do great things it's really up to you
[01:00:32] to to make it happen and maybe with yamen it shows a little bit also the personality i i was and
[01:00:41] i've always been through all my years of climbing maybe not at the real beginning where cedric and
[01:00:46] i were really strong team and it was always kind of you know he was always stronger than i so
[01:00:51] but since then since we split up i've always been like the leader like i often climb not with babsy but
[01:01:00] with other people i was always stronger so i took the lead and i had all the responsibility and stuff
[01:01:06] and i loved it really i love it and just after giving birth i was a little bit more
[01:01:12] you know i wasn't so sure and i really haven't climbed in a big wall or in a wall for a long time
[01:01:20] and so i was like gosh can i manage this just with pauline because yeah we did all the work it
[01:01:27] was just the two of us and she was 19 and uh so we carried all the static rows up there
[01:01:34] you know and then i just started climbing the first pitch actually i missed the good wall so
[01:01:39] the good route so it wasn't a wrong route for the first pitch but i realized it really quickly but
[01:01:44] that was just the start of this like wow back again like you know you start in the wrong route
[01:01:50] and you find yourself in like a crazy dirty 70 plus instead of like a easy 7a start and it was just this
[01:01:56] excitement was back like from the first start we actually packed and we
[01:02:01] we carried up all the gear up there just the two of us it was like yeah that's me that's i want to do
[01:02:08] and so yeah we we climbed ground up and set up static lines because the pitch 8 is this AP plus
[01:02:17] key pitch but also before they're like eight days and so it's not easy but i i taught her a lot and
[01:02:24] she learned so fast and we figured out betas together and and it was great she's so strong she
[01:02:33] just she was missing a bit of a this warrior mindset when you can just as jonathan said when
[01:02:39] you really want to send you think about nothing and you're in this nothingness just like focus on a
[01:02:45] one move and so i could send the AP plus quite quickly and then like two days later we tried to
[01:02:54] make a team ascent so that was great but she couldn't like send everything but i sent it that day
[01:03:00] and then we did some filming a little bit later in the season and then she also sent the AP plus
[01:03:09] she wasn't ready and she didn't really wanted to try a real ground up but she sent that AP plus and it
[01:03:15] was her first actually first AP plus up there and then yeah we took off all the static robes and you
[01:03:22] know it was gosh it was just this great experience of like me now in this kind of new role but still
[01:03:30] really connected to the older one and the confidence that requires and the know-how you know to set up
[01:03:40] like a wall especially for filming or shooting or just to make it safe and spending a summer in a wall
[01:03:47] and at the end of the summer everyone is healthy and everything is back on the ground and you can
[01:03:53] celebrate a personal succeed at this time it was really different because i mean i was happy standing
[01:04:00] and summit but then um i texted jeremy when i sent the AP plus and then he uh walked up with lia in
[01:04:09] the backpack and when we were back on the ground she was there like they were there and it was it is
[01:04:14] the most beautiful gift so it was really like this family project and it was like wow now climbing is
[01:04:21] is a sharing it's not just for me so there was probably a time not too long ago when i think
[01:04:29] a professional female climber would be very very worried about getting pregnant having a kid having
[01:04:38] sort of performance drop sponsors flee kind of a thing i feel like that's changed um quite a bit
[01:04:46] there is leeway for that now and in fact it's sort of almost getting to the point where it's celebrated
[01:04:52] in some ways but you know you do have to kind of come back you know well just what's your perspective
[01:05:00] on that attitude of like what it's like to be what what the professional world reacts to as far as um
[01:05:08] an athlete like yourself getting pregnant taking the time off that's necessary um and it's different
[01:05:14] for everybody and the amount how far you come back is different for for everybody and so yeah put your
[01:05:21] perspective on it you know we've got i think um you know beth rodden's definitely spoke at length about
[01:05:27] these sorts of things and she was ahead of you in this and well i was lucky because i had the impression
[01:05:33] when i got pregnant there were a few female athletes pregnant at the same time so it was this kind of like
[01:05:43] pure azar that we're all kind of giving birth at the same time and we also would say spoke publicly
[01:05:53] about being pregnant and we all continued climbing there was no no big deal around it but when i got
[01:06:01] pregnant i was really nervous to announce it to my sponsors i had to wait it was kind of tricky because
[01:06:08] i was just at the end of my three months and and before that i had to deal like with new contra
[01:06:17] sponsorships and stuff and i couldn't really tell them and i felt like kind of guilty to say that yeah
[01:06:22] let's make a new contract and by knowing i will be pregnant and i will be off for a year or so
[01:06:27] uh but then their reactions were so positive it was so great like it was just kind of after covid
[01:06:34] time where people were just so excited to have like uh to listen to some positive news all my bosses are
[01:06:42] mostly male and they're they're also fathers and it is so well received later then it is more
[01:06:48] i often feel guilty because i would love to climb more sometimes i can't just for time management and
[01:06:55] project and whatever so it's a personal feeling of like is it really fair that i'm still paid
[01:07:03] for like climbing as free as times less than before this is like a natural question that comes up to me
[01:07:09] but then i also try to convince myself that we need idols and we need people who are going through and
[01:07:19] of course there are a period of time where it's easier so you climb more and then there's more
[01:07:22] you know tough with like teething and like sleeping less and whatever wintertime summertime
[01:07:28] but um it also shows that our sports is not just like an olympic sports it's really like a lifestyle
[01:07:37] and um a pure inspirational sports for so many people and i think now i'm a mom and before
[01:07:45] i think i appealed to the core a lot and now i appeal to almost everybody because i'm a mom so i am
[01:07:55] you know i identify everybody almost every woman in this world who has given birth and stuff so to me
[01:08:04] it's also really a nice feeling and when i speak today i i almost feel ashamed about not ashamed but
[01:08:13] i don't feel comfortable anymore to talk about performance and about what i did and you know all
[01:08:19] those things you celebrated in the past i'm like yeah that was great but but now let's talk about
[01:08:25] real life like how do you manage like teething how do you manage like uh cragging of a kid how do you
[01:08:32] manage you know just like this normal questions tell me one thing like tell me one moment thing
[01:08:40] in the last you know year you're you're painting this like very very idyllic life but tell me sometime
[01:08:47] when you were really fucking frustrated um either with having the kid or what was next for you or
[01:08:55] give me a moment that just to just to put a little perspective that there are times even in this really
[01:09:02] beautiful life that you've created where you know as a parent i just want you to commiserate
[01:09:08] honestly they're little moments but they're not big moments of frustration it's more like jeremy and i
[01:09:13] as soon as you know i kind of see like a project i could do it immediately takes over and i have this
[01:09:19] like shining eyes for like i need to go and jeremy's like what like sometimes he's kind of it's not slowing
[01:09:26] me down but sometimes he just reminds me that that was not the deal you know so i was struggling a
[01:09:32] little bit that to check in all the time you know okay let's check in let's make it happen and
[01:09:39] let's figure it out that was definitely a thing i had a hard time learning just checking in and not
[01:09:45] just like okay i want to go there buff i go and and i drive or whatever um for lia i think we just
[01:09:54] started this period of time where it's kind of hard she turned two like two months ago and between two
[01:10:01] and three it's kind of it's kind of energy taking but um like seriously it's not like a
[01:10:10] wrong image i give like sure it is really a thing i wanted to and i think it's also a thing i defend
[01:10:16] uh although i it took time to to get used to being a mother and i think uh yeah it took me almost a year
[01:10:24] to feel comfortable in this role and to to realize the responsibilities and the way of like
[01:10:30] acting or reacting now there hasn't been big frustration honestly i think it was just slow
[01:10:38] you know life goes a little bit more slowly positions are slow i really had this wish for a
[01:10:45] second kid like this this winter it was so strong like physically was such a big wish and it worked
[01:10:54] immediately and then i had a miscarriage and that was a really that was just i think the hardest moment
[01:11:01] over the last two two years three years it was such a big loss it was such a yeah i i was diving deep
[01:11:13] into like a emptiness and a yeah a little depression and um what did you do there was a moment where
[01:11:25] i went back climbing to saint leger with the family and with a couple of friends and i really got back
[01:11:32] into like hard climbing you know like i climbed this 14a i was so close to sand and i was really back
[01:11:39] into this wow my body works so well and had such a good you know attitude of like wow i want to send
[01:11:47] and my family was really supportive and leah was at the cliff you know cheering oh go mama and so that
[01:11:52] was nice and that helped a lot because having this athletic and like strong body is kind of the opposite
[01:12:00] of when you're pregnant and so i just saw the positive thing out of it it's like okay actually
[01:12:04] it's not a bad thing not being pregnant i'm just strong again that's nice so it was kind of an
[01:12:10] escape just climbing but it's good positive feelings and yeah i just had one cycle and then i was back
[01:12:17] pregnant and here we are and here we are where are you at with it right now how far in second trimester
[01:12:24] okay yeah full in full in and this one was on your terms we you know we talked about the the other
[01:12:31] one that was really on my she wanted to and this time you you sort of it fits the plan yeah it is
[01:12:37] really planned like jeremy wasn't so enthusiastic but i really wanted to have a second kid and because
[01:12:44] he was also look nina sometimes you wish you could climb more and sometimes you have little frustrations
[01:12:50] but with a second one it's it will be not over but it will be really hard and i know it's gonna be
[01:12:58] some years of uh you know kind of little family stuff but yeah that's really a thing i wanted
[01:13:08] so there's a there was like a little theme i was sort of hearing um and maybe this is old nina
[01:13:15] uh not old nina previous nina about like you know this person was climbing slow and like building the
[01:13:22] van was so slow and like you know i was just getting this theme of you with this nervous energy
[01:13:29] this energy to always be going forward and those those kind of things can be one of these essential
[01:13:35] parts of a person i mean how are you with the sort of you know the i mean there's a franticness to
[01:13:42] to to having a kid and she's a toddler now right um and so but it's still like the like the greater
[01:13:52] lifestyle can feel slow as in getting your projects done and getting your things going forward and
[01:13:57] that's the thing like how are you with that are you able to deal with it speed is drastically reduced
[01:14:02] now in my life yeah just because i also decided to to take good care of my daughter right and to also
[01:14:10] to respect her rhythm and her speed and if we combine with my objectives or my things i want to
[01:14:20] do in life great but not only you know like so many days i just spend with her on the playground
[01:14:27] or just like playing with kids and just there's no ah i would love to go for a run or i would love to
[01:14:33] do like a one hour of training it's like no it's it's her and it's not that it's only her now
[01:14:38] but i think she's such a cool kid and we travel so much and with this truck which is also really
[01:14:44] slow which is great because it really fits into this new like new life but she's not complicated
[01:14:50] you know she sleeps everywhere she's eating whatever she's as soon as mom and dad are there
[01:14:55] with love she's super cool and so when i can i really want to offer her just like this normal
[01:15:03] kid life playing around on the playground and and i can also feel this exterior speed is also like a
[01:15:12] in the inside of mine the speed really reduced to see things more clearly and to appreciate little
[01:15:22] things in life or to put you know time in a climb because i really enjoy now when i have a day off
[01:15:33] for climbing or the project i had in gas lows in yemen you know i wasn't in a rush to do it not at all
[01:15:40] jeremy was like okay i take care of lee i take your time and it's like well i'll take my time
[01:15:45] actually wanted it to push as much as possible but um yeah i don't feel frustration today and that
[01:15:57] has always been my objective in life for the day when i will have a kid i think i climbed almost
[01:16:06] everything i wanted to climb or at least i tried it and i think also by trying to know so hard and
[01:16:12] really pushing my limits was uh it was a good change for me and as i told you when i came back
[01:16:21] to the ground after sending yemen with my au pair and there was jeremy and leah it was the first time
[01:16:27] i came back to the ground and i i wasn't alone and it was great i felt so yeah lucky for this
[01:16:38] all right folks thanks for listening and of course thanks to nina for sitting down she's always
[01:17:14] very gracious with her time when i ask and i appreciate that and i think we all appreciate
[01:17:19] her candor i also want to thank arcteryx for bringing me up to the arcteryx academy that's
[01:17:26] where nina and i met up they provided the space and the invite to get us together so thank you very
[01:17:33] much to arcteryx and of course you can check out the squamish arcteryx academy next year you can
[01:17:39] follow nina at instagram but her website nina caprez dot ch is remarkably update on her blog
[01:17:47] she's one of these few climbers left out there who enjoy telling her story on her blog i think blogs
[01:17:53] should come back battle against the short attention span theater of the social media yeah so that's
[01:17:59] nina caprez dot ch and then i'd recommend you just dig back through all of her videos they've
[01:18:06] always got a good sense of humor they've managed to make climbing in the radicon on orubayu several
[01:18:12] other big faces in europe look terrifying and fun at the same time finally don't forget to check out
[01:18:19] the last rights fka taps hotline on the website on ormacast.com also check me out at the upcoming
[01:18:28] ice festivals in winona minnesota and munising michigan and don't forget to have fun out there it's almost
[01:18:35] the new year i'll see you next year the new year is always a great time to check all those knots
[01:18:43] physical emotional and otherwise
[01:19:19] that's great i almost cried when i thought about the moment when li and jim were there in the bottom
[01:19:25] i know oh god i loved it you can hear it it's perfect it's perfect i should have pushed a little
[01:19:30] more to get you to cry crying it's good podcasting yeah
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