How To Identify & Shift the Glitches in Your Own Personal Matrix w/ Dr. Sam Rader

[00:00:03] [SPEAKER_02]: Welcome to Make One Day Happen, the podcast that makes woo-woo relatable for busy founders, leaders, executives and high performers who give a fuck about prioritizing themselves in their personal and professional development.

[00:00:18] [SPEAKER_02]: I'm your host Shenna Jean and on this show we'll cover the bases on a lot of different topics that relate to energy management, mindset, leadership and all things woo through solo episodes and dope ass guest conversations.

[00:00:29] [SPEAKER_02]: Our guest lineup is so fire and includes professional athletes, award winning musicians, New York Times bestselling authors, thought leaders, CEOs, industry experts and more who share their stories about how they've been able to make their one day happen with a little bit of woo in their journey.

[00:00:44] [SPEAKER_02]: My promise to you is that after every episode you'll leave energetically shifted with an elevated vibe and feeling hella grateful that you made some space for yourself along with some tangible things you can get into action with. So pull up a seat and let's get to it.

[00:01:00] [SPEAKER_02]: Welcome back to the Make One Day Happen podcast. I'm your host Shenna Jean and today I am joined by Dr. Sam Rader of The Source Code.

[00:01:08] [SPEAKER_02]: Dr. Sam has a background in AI, neuroscience, Eastern religion and psychology. Like a really stunning background and she's created a new approach to healing and growth called Source Code where powerful shifts happen fast.

[00:01:21] [SPEAKER_02]: After working with clients for over two decades, Dr. Sam discovered that there are really only 12 negative patterns that are holding us back in life which she calls our coping styles.

[00:01:29] [SPEAKER_02]: Dr. Sam discovered that when we address these patterns instead of trying to work at it directly through the mind, radical change is possible in the here and now.

[00:01:37] [SPEAKER_02]: Now we met in the middle of the Atlantic Ocean in one of these kismet moments that really the universe is the only one responsible for arranging.

[00:01:45] [SPEAKER_02]: And I'm so grateful for the Summit community continually providing the canvas for these types of experiences.

[00:01:50] [SPEAKER_02]: I've had the pleasure of watching her in action, sharing her story, working the source code with people and watching their blocks dissolve instantly on the spot.

[00:01:58] [SPEAKER_02]: I've taken her quiz multiple times and we'll talk about that here in a moment. And she's got some incredible stuff online that you can learn with her.

[00:02:06] [SPEAKER_02]: I'm so excited to bring her on the show today y'all and share her story and modality with us. Welcome Dr. Sam.

[00:02:12] [SPEAKER_02]: Hi Shenna, I'm so happy to be here.

[00:02:14] [SPEAKER_02]: So happy to have you. First question I always ask is do you know your human design type?

[00:02:19] [SPEAKER_02]: Yes, I do. I'm a manifesting generator.

[00:02:23] [SPEAKER_02]: I mean, not that there's a best type, however, I'm highly biased. Team MG.

[00:02:29] [SPEAKER_02]: We're you know, we're an interesting bunch. I'm glad I had a hunch that you were also on the team manifesting generator. So exciting.

[00:02:37] [SPEAKER_02]: I love it when people know and can speak to that. So maybe that'll come up in the rest of the conversation. Maybe not. But I always just like to have that frame of reference.

[00:02:44] [SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, I don't know much about it. But what I've heard is that we're the ones who can make up what we want to do, but then also do it.

[00:02:53] [SPEAKER_03]: And so that's me and I'm wearing multiple hats and running multiple companies and always very busy and very inspired.

[00:03:01] [SPEAKER_02]: Yes, definitely me. So yeah, I think the other like that's like the beauty and the brilliance of it.

[00:03:08] [SPEAKER_02]: And I think sometimes for me, I experience the okay, too many projects, too many ideas, too many things in motion at the same time.

[00:03:17] [SPEAKER_02]: Like, okay, where am I going to choose to pull back because I can't literally do everything. So kind of the exactly my story.

[00:03:23] [SPEAKER_03]: I do everything and then say, oh no, I can't do everything anymore. And then I do everything again. Yes.

[00:03:28] [SPEAKER_02]: This is my life.

[00:03:30] [SPEAKER_02]: Delegation might be the biggest life lesson I get to learn in this trip around.

[00:03:35] [SPEAKER_02]: Well, I'm so excited that you're here. I'd love for you to just spend a little time sharing more of like who you be in the world and how you got to this point in your journey.

[00:03:42] [SPEAKER_02]: I think your story is so fascinating. And if you could just give a little bit more context to our listeners and share like how you stumbled upon manifesting and generating the source code.

[00:03:52] [SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, absolutely. So source code has revealed itself to me over the past 13 years.

[00:04:01] [SPEAKER_03]: And it's been an incredibly circuitous experiential process where I'm just kind of being guided and I'm just I've just offered my willingness and devotion to be taught this new modality.

[00:04:14] [SPEAKER_03]: I wouldn't say I've created it. I guess you could say I've created it, but I've really just been willing to pay attention enough to download it, learn it as a student of the universe.

[00:04:24] [SPEAKER_03]: But my journey with it began about 10 years into my psychology practice. I was a licensed clinical psychologist in private practice.

[00:04:32] [SPEAKER_03]: I learned about this way of diagnosing and helping clients that was to see these patterns that were called at the time their character styles.

[00:04:43] [SPEAKER_03]: There was this book called Character Styles by a man named Stephen Johnson. It was written for psychoanalytic psychologists like myself.

[00:04:49] [SPEAKER_03]: It was a highly academic dense book, and it was saying, OK, based on our childhood developmental stages, there's these seven basic character styles that we can have.

[00:04:59] [SPEAKER_03]: And you're one of the seven, right? Which is very different than what things have netted out with source code.

[00:05:04] [SPEAKER_03]: But that's what got me thinking about it. And I got so excited about this material because I recognized myself and all my loved ones and all my clients in these categories.

[00:05:14] [SPEAKER_03]: I wanted everyone to learn about them, but the book was so dense, I knew no one would read it.

[00:05:18] [SPEAKER_03]: So I made like a 40 page outline of the book with all the basic material, and I circulated it to everyone I knew like, guys, this is going to change the world, you know.

[00:05:26] [SPEAKER_03]: And I couldn't get it out of my head that I was so excited about it. So I contacted the author Stephen Johnson and said, Hey, how would you like to co-author a book for the general public on your character styles?

[00:05:40] [SPEAKER_03]: So he said, fly up to San Francisco and meet with me so we can talk about it.

[00:05:43] [SPEAKER_03]: And I did in 2011. And he said, Listen, I'm dying of a rare neurological disease akin to ALS.

[00:05:56] [SPEAKER_03]: And the things that you have updated since I completed writing the book 30 years ago, the things you've noticed with your clients that you've, he's like, I since have also realized those new fresh updates.

[00:06:07] [SPEAKER_03]: We are simpatico. So you have my blessing to take the work forward.

[00:06:12] [SPEAKER_03]: Yeah. So in 2011, I know it was so sweet. And in 2011, I tried writing the book, essentially his book from my mind for the general public.

[00:06:22] [SPEAKER_03]: And I got so excited and I sent it out to all these book agents. And I was like, let's go universe.

[00:06:27] [SPEAKER_03]: And it was like, no, there was nothing crickets. Like everyone was like, yes, but no, I'm not interested.

[00:06:32] [SPEAKER_03]: And I was like, what is going on? I know this material is going to help the world.

[00:06:38] [SPEAKER_03]: I know I'm meant to be the one who's going to be the conduit for it. Why isn't it going?

[00:06:44] [SPEAKER_03]: And it hadn't ripened into its full version of itself yet.

[00:06:48] [SPEAKER_03]: And it hadn't been channeled through me or channel to experience. It was all through my mind and through his material.

[00:06:55] [SPEAKER_03]: And so the next 10 years, the universe put me through the most incredible odyssey of my life where they would set me in the center of the labyrinth for one style at a time,

[00:07:05] [SPEAKER_03]: one negative pattern that we can have as human beings. And I would experience it from the inside and my life would feel very painful in a very specific way.

[00:07:13] [SPEAKER_03]: And I'd get into all these tangles in all my relationships and circumstances. And I was like, what is this awfulness?

[00:07:19] [SPEAKER_03]: And I would have to find my way out. I would have to figure out what is this? Where does it come from in childhood?

[00:07:24] [SPEAKER_03]: And how the hell do you get out of it? That was a 10 year process.

[00:07:27] [SPEAKER_03]: And during those 10 years, what was shown to me experientially is that there's actually 12, not seven.

[00:07:34] [SPEAKER_03]: And that we all have several of the 12. Unlike the enneagram or human design or astrology, we all have several of the 12.

[00:07:44] [SPEAKER_03]: And I had all 12 of what I call now coping styles.

[00:07:48] [SPEAKER_03]: To go over the perfect conduit.

[00:07:50] [SPEAKER_03]: Exactly. Exactly. And so I got to heal all 12 within myself while I was simultaneously healing them in my clients and all my supervisees and my friends.

[00:08:00] [SPEAKER_03]: It was this very serendipitous, synchronistic 10 year experience of us all being stuck in these tangles together and working our way out together as a team.

[00:08:11] [SPEAKER_03]: And it was only when I could bust out of it and taste the antidote, taste the healed position, like each coping style has a corresponding antidote.

[00:08:22] [SPEAKER_03]: And it was only when I could live the antidote, oh my God, I'm free of that awful lifelong pain that the universe would be like, okay, now write the chapter.

[00:08:30] [SPEAKER_03]: So it's not that I've been writing the book for 13 years. It's that for 10 years, I wasn't allowed to write anything until I'd lived it.

[00:08:39] [SPEAKER_03]: And sometimes it would take me a full year to live one and find my way out.

[00:08:43] [SPEAKER_03]: So that was a wild psychedelic, very immersive process.

[00:08:48] [SPEAKER_03]: I don't recommend it, but I went through it so that no one else has to take that long to get out of these tangles.

[00:08:53] [SPEAKER_03]: And in the last three years, since completing that process, the universe has now shown me there is a more simple, direct, profound way to work with these tangles than doing it through psychology.

[00:09:04] [SPEAKER_03]: So I've left the field of psychology. I no longer identify as a psychologist, and I'm now working in the quantum.

[00:09:11] [SPEAKER_03]: So again, I was shown experientially that when we work with embodiment and energy doing a process I've created called coding, which is a new alternative to coaching and therapy, the work is much faster, much deeper and much more effective.

[00:09:27] [SPEAKER_03]: It's a very psychedelic experience, which you're about to have today.

[00:09:31] [SPEAKER_03]: But it's like a psychedelic experience without any medicine.

[00:09:35] [SPEAKER_03]: And as opposed to a psychedelic experience that can be kind of uncontaining and messy and hard to integrate and maybe overwhelming, source code has a lot of precision and aim, and it's very, very gentle.

[00:09:46] [SPEAKER_03]: And so we're able to go into that sort of psychedelic realm and make deep, deep changes on a fundamental level in the fabric of reality without all the catharsis and intensity and disorganization that normal psychedelics can bring.

[00:10:07] [SPEAKER_03]: Love that.

[00:10:09] [SPEAKER_02]: Love that for all of us. There's, oh, there's so much beautiful gems in what you just shared. I think the experiential wisdom that we can't skip, right?

[00:10:23] [SPEAKER_02]: As much as we might.

[00:10:25] [SPEAKER_04]: I tried to skip it. I sent it out.

[00:10:27] [SPEAKER_04]: I could find.

[00:10:28] [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah, you know, right before we started recording, you said some very lovely things and one of them about just how what an interesting mirror for each other that we are.

[00:10:40] [SPEAKER_02]: And just so much of what you just shared.

[00:10:42] [SPEAKER_02]: I'm like, wow, like that's I'm in the same process coming out the other side of like having my methodology of what I teach.

[00:10:51] [SPEAKER_02]: And as soon as I'm like, oh, let me share energy hygiene with the world.

[00:10:57] [SPEAKER_02]: Then God's like, all right, well, first, right.

[00:10:59] [SPEAKER_02]: We're gonna live it and we're gonna like, and you're gonna have to figure out your way out of it with your own shit before you're allowed to teach it to other people, which is great.

[00:11:10] [SPEAKER_02]: And it's it is a testament to your strength and to your obedience in the calling on your life and your willingness to practice what you preach.

[00:11:21] [SPEAKER_02]: There's a lot, I think, happening in the world right now where it's like, are you a life coach?

[00:11:26] [SPEAKER_02]: Do you do you know about this or there's just a lot of illusion in our world.

[00:11:32] [SPEAKER_02]: And so I love to hear that as painful as it could have been or as long air quotes as it might have taken like there's really just such a deeper level of trust, of wisdom and what you're sharing with us.

[00:11:48] [SPEAKER_02]: So it's thank you for taking the journey and being here to share it with us.

[00:11:53] [SPEAKER_03]: Yes, it's been a labor of love.

[00:11:56] [SPEAKER_03]: And luckily, the lessons are getting more and more gentle and subtle.

[00:12:00] [SPEAKER_03]: And I'm out of the fire.

[00:12:04] [SPEAKER_03]: Thank God.

[00:12:05] [SPEAKER_03]: But now in this stage of bringing this treasure I've unearthed for the last 13 years, bringing it out into the world and sharing it.

[00:12:13] [SPEAKER_02]: So exciting.

[00:12:15] [SPEAKER_02]: It's so exciting.

[00:12:16] [SPEAKER_02]: So, okay.

[00:12:18] [SPEAKER_02]: Maybe talk about fractal patterns first.

[00:12:22] [SPEAKER_02]: Sure.

[00:12:22] [SPEAKER_02]: Or however you kind of think that you want to explain this a little bit deeper.

[00:12:26] [SPEAKER_02]: But for someone who's listening is like, okay, I have no idea what y'all are talking about.

[00:12:31] [SPEAKER_02]: I really love the way that you describe patterns and just how fractals occur in the universe and so within us.

[00:12:38] [SPEAKER_02]: And so I think that could be a good place to start.

[00:12:40] [SPEAKER_02]: And then we can kind of swish around into the ins and outs of it and see where this conversation around source code goes.

[00:12:49] [SPEAKER_02]: I love that.

[00:12:52] [SPEAKER_03]: So quantum physicists are discovering that the true nature of this universe is fractal, that we're living in a fractal universe.

[00:13:02] [SPEAKER_03]: What the hell does that mean?

[00:13:03] [SPEAKER_03]: Let's go into it.

[00:13:04] [SPEAKER_03]: So a fractal is kind of a mathematical equation that represents a pattern that recurs at scale.

[00:13:15] [SPEAKER_03]: So what that means is you've probably seen colorful, beautiful psychedelic renderings of fractals online.

[00:13:23] [SPEAKER_03]: You can Google it right now.

[00:13:24] [SPEAKER_03]: I highly recommend you do because they're beautiful.

[00:13:26] [SPEAKER_03]: But what's amazing about a fractal is that you'll see like this kind of squiggly, swirly pattern.

[00:13:32] [SPEAKER_03]: But if you zoom all the way in to a microscopic level, the exact same pattern is down there.

[00:13:40] [SPEAKER_03]: Zoom all the way out, same pattern, all the way to left, same pattern, all the way to the right, same pattern.

[00:13:44] [SPEAKER_03]: So it's basically this ubiquitous pattern that recurs at every level, in every dimension, at every scale.

[00:13:50] [SPEAKER_03]: There are many, many, which means spiritually speaking, everything is interconnected.

[00:13:57] [SPEAKER_03]: Everything is one.

[00:13:59] [SPEAKER_03]: And the pattern here reflects the pattern there as within, so without, the macro and the micro, all these things that we know this.

[00:14:08] [SPEAKER_03]: But it's now kind of being proven on a scientific mathematical level that that is the fabric of our reality is what it's fractal.

[00:14:17] [SPEAKER_03]: And so on the physical plane, we see recurring fractal patterns.

[00:14:23] [SPEAKER_03]: So for example, if everyone wants to look down at their fingertips and you look at your fingerprints, the spirals there in your fingers reflect the spirals of our DNA and the spiraling galaxies in our universe.

[00:14:40] [SPEAKER_03]: Our nerve cells and the fractal branching veins in our lungs reflect the fractal branching patterns of ferns and rivers and lightning systems.

[00:14:52] [SPEAKER_03]: So there's these patterns that repeat in our universe at scale, and that's in the physical concrete world.

[00:14:58] [SPEAKER_03]: But the same is also true in our emotional energetic worlds.

[00:15:03] [SPEAKER_03]: What are the patterns that keep repeating in our lives?

[00:15:06] [SPEAKER_03]: What's the same old story that we keep living in over and over and over again of like, why do my relationships always dot dot dot?

[00:15:14] [SPEAKER_03]: Right. And that's because I believe with source code that we get encoded in our first five years of life through our direct experience that whatever kind of symbolic landscape we're raised inside of,

[00:15:28] [SPEAKER_03]: like for example, if we've got a father who's a bit of an authoritarian bully and a mom who's really passive, we encode that into the fabric of our being, into our quantum field, into our energetic system.

[00:15:44] [SPEAKER_03]: That there's this big scary bully thing and this other thing that just goes limp and allows scary things to happen.

[00:15:49] [SPEAKER_03]: Right. And then as adults, we live into that pattern.

[00:15:55] [SPEAKER_03]: So we're either the scary thing in certain situations or we're the limp thing in other situations, but we keep reenacting it at work, at home, in our friendships, on the road, everywhere we go, at the store.

[00:16:07] [SPEAKER_03]: There's always a bully.

[00:16:08] [SPEAKER_03]: And that's because the bully got encoded into our quantum field and became a symbol that recurs at scale.

[00:16:17] [SPEAKER_03]: And that's how our lives are like fractals, that the same problems keep repeating with different circumstances because of an underlying pattern or code.

[00:16:28] [SPEAKER_03]: That's why I call my modality source code because in computer language, source code is the original fundamental code that determines how a program will function.

[00:16:38] [SPEAKER_03]: And then that's how we get encoded in our first five years.

[00:16:41] [SPEAKER_03]: And so what I've learned how to do with source code is that when someone brings me a problem, and this is what you and I are going to be doing later, any concrete problem from my boss is not treating me well or my boyfriend's ignoring me or I have this pain in my knee.

[00:16:59] [SPEAKER_03]: It doesn't really matter what it is in the concrete world.

[00:17:01] [SPEAKER_03]: Or I can't get a break. I can't find a job, whatever it is.

[00:17:05] [SPEAKER_03]: It's always going to be a reflection of the underlying code that was encoded into us in our first five years.

[00:17:11] [SPEAKER_03]: And with source code, what I learned was there's only 12 glitches in our code, which these are the 12 coping styles that we inherit in early childhood when we don't get exactly what we need at each stage of development.

[00:17:26] [SPEAKER_03]: And so we can talk about those specifically when you talk about your quiz results.

[00:17:30] [SPEAKER_03]: But when we don't get exactly what we need, we have to adapt by adopting a coping style and we all have a combination of coping styles.

[00:17:36] [SPEAKER_03]: So when someone brings me a specific problem in their life and says, Hey, my boss isn't treating me well, I asked them to tell me about that problem just for one minute.

[00:17:47] [SPEAKER_03]: And as I write down all the words they're saying, the way they tell me about the problem, the words they use, the keywords they use are going to show me which coping styles are they talking about that are creating this problem?

[00:18:00] [SPEAKER_03]: Which glitches in their matrix are married together and generating this problem and all the other problems in their life.

[00:18:06] [SPEAKER_03]: So once they tell me that we no longer we throw out anything about the boss like, OK, so for the rest of this session, the other 55 minutes of this session,

[00:18:15] [SPEAKER_03]: we're not going to talk about your boss at all. Your boss is completely beside the point. Your boss. Nothing's real, right?

[00:18:20] [SPEAKER_03]: The Hindus have been saying for thousands of years. It's all an illusion.

[00:18:23] [SPEAKER_03]: Every this is a matrix. We're living inside a matrix and the matrix is projected out from our underlying coding.

[00:18:29] [SPEAKER_03]: And so when we shift the code, the matrix shifts. You don't need to worry about the boss. Let go of the boss. Let go of that story.

[00:18:35] [SPEAKER_03]: Let's talk about this big scary bully thing that keeps everything oppressed.

[00:18:41] [SPEAKER_03]: And we're just going to feel that as an energetic, as a symbol.

[00:18:46] [SPEAKER_03]: So the way source code works is we go beyond the mind into what I call the symbolic realm or what people might call the quantum field.

[00:18:52] [SPEAKER_03]: And we work with these as energies and as symbols as the code itself.

[00:18:58] [SPEAKER_03]: And source code is a homeopathic medicine, which means all we have to do is mirror the coding back to itself for it to dissolve and resolve on its own.

[00:19:08] [SPEAKER_03]: We don't try to fix it or change it in any way. We just say so there's this big scary thing that keeps everything very scary.

[00:19:16] [SPEAKER_03]: There's another part that's really scared. And we just hold it. We just sit with it.

[00:19:21] [SPEAKER_03]: And it begins to alchemize and dissolve and resolve on its own.

[00:19:26] [SPEAKER_03]: And then together we can write a new line of code, something about shared power, equal power.

[00:19:32] [SPEAKER_03]: All things get to have a say. I'm giving just this example.

[00:19:35] [SPEAKER_03]: When we work at the level of code, when we're working with shifting the building blocks of reality itself, source code is not aimed at shifting our minds.

[00:19:43] [SPEAKER_03]: It's not aimed at shifting our behavior. It's aimed at shifting the fabric of reality itself.

[00:19:48] [SPEAKER_03]: Source code is based on the premise that nothing is real.

[00:19:52] [SPEAKER_03]: Everything we're experiencing is generated from our source code and we can rewrite the code.

[00:19:56] [SPEAKER_03]: And then not only do we feel completely different, our entire energy has shifted, but the things out there act completely different because they're not real and they're just going to reflect your code.

[00:20:09] [SPEAKER_03]: So the boss that was so mean the next day once we've coded comes in and is totally nice, totally kind, totally respectful.

[00:20:16] [SPEAKER_03]: Not because we're acting differently, but because we're in a new matrix. We've opened the portal to a new reality.

[00:20:23] [SPEAKER_03]: That's what source code does is like we just it's like some might call it timeline jumping or yeah, just turning to quantum leaping.

[00:20:33] [SPEAKER_03]: That's what it is. Yeah, so that's what source code is and it's so weird. It's not anything I set out to do.

[00:20:38] [SPEAKER_03]: I never set out to leave the field of psychology or stop working with the mind or become a quote unquote energy healer.

[00:20:43] [SPEAKER_03]: I'm like, oh my God, that was so embarrassing. But it is what I am now.

[00:20:48] [SPEAKER_02]: Are you guys listening to this? This is so freaking dope and I hear you when I tell people I take people time traveling on neon clouds for a living.

[00:20:58] [SPEAKER_02]: I'm like, how did I get here? And so glad I am. But like, what are we doing?

[00:21:03] [SPEAKER_02]: I know being initiated into these things. It's like you never are intending for it.

[00:21:08] [SPEAKER_02]: No, it chooses you and yeah, like how do you get into this line of work?

[00:21:13] [SPEAKER_02]: And you're like, God, I guess I'm not exactly sure. This is so, so beautiful.

[00:21:21] [SPEAKER_02]: And you've spoken before about the age of the wounded child.

[00:21:26] [SPEAKER_02]: And I'm excited to hear a little bit more from your perspective how I've been really seeing this generation specifically that I think it has something to do with the generation that straddles the line of having an analog childhood,

[00:21:41] [SPEAKER_02]: but having technology introduced at an early enough age to be able to adapt with it pretty easily.

[00:21:47] [SPEAKER_02]: I think like we think about it, we're the last generation with that anchor to that part of humanity that didn't know life with a scream.

[00:21:57] [SPEAKER_02]: Right. And I think that there's this opportunity for us to where it's a healing generation.

[00:22:02] [SPEAKER_02]: Like we now understand how to repair so much of our cells and DNA and transmute trauma and patterns and behaviors that the ancestors and generations before us just didn't have on the scale that we have and understanding that we do now.

[00:22:20] [SPEAKER_02]: So, you know, Aquarius age wounded child, like we are in a truly magnificent time for humanity.

[00:22:28] [SPEAKER_02]: And I'm curious to hear more about how you kind of see that and the source code played into it.

[00:22:34] [SPEAKER_03]: Yes, thank you for that. I would say if I had to imagine it, that the beginning of the age of the wounded child was when we started quote unquote civilization.

[00:22:45] [SPEAKER_03]: Because that's when we left the land and left the village and left one another and left sanity and interbeing and, you know, interconnection and community rituals, only rituals, right?

[00:22:59] [SPEAKER_03]: All of nature. And when we lost that core of who we are, there was so much pain that we started unconsciously passing down pain to our little ones.

[00:23:12] [SPEAKER_03]: And we've been in this long interlocking chain of generational unconsciousness where we all have these coping styles and these coping styles as we parent create more trouble and coping styles within our children.

[00:23:25] [SPEAKER_03]: And it just keeps getting passed and passed and passed.

[00:23:27] [SPEAKER_03]: And when I say the age of the wounded child, I mean that all of us who are growing up into adults are just wounded children.

[00:23:35] [SPEAKER_03]: We've never really reached elderhood in the indigenous sense.

[00:23:38] [SPEAKER_03]: We've never gone through an initiation. We've never healed our wounds and taken responsibility and figured out how to steward each other and our young ones in this planet in a truly loving integrated way.

[00:23:52] [SPEAKER_03]: And so all of the collective infrastructure that we build, all of the worldviews and laws and ways that we work with the earth dominate are based on our wounds.

[00:24:04] [SPEAKER_03]: And so we're continuing to harm one another, harm our children and harm the planet because we're all living from wounds.

[00:24:11] [SPEAKER_03]: We haven't healed ourselves. But like you said, there's something kind of trippy and amazing going on right now where we're kind of on the event horizon of human consciousness.

[00:24:22] [SPEAKER_03]: And people are starting to wake up and have some kind of capacity for self-awareness.

[00:24:28] [SPEAKER_03]: It seems like the baby boomer generation and above were kind of allergic to self-awareness.

[00:24:32] [SPEAKER_03]: It felt scary in a way to go in. And for us, it's like scary to not.

[00:24:38] [SPEAKER_03]: I think more and more and more of us are like, I want to know the truth. I want to know what my defenses are.

[00:24:43] [SPEAKER_03]: I want to know how to heal, how to become whole. Right?

[00:24:46] [SPEAKER_03]: It's this new, I call us like the six finger tribe. It's literally like an evolutionary, what's that word?

[00:24:55] [SPEAKER_02]: I don't know. I'm still criss-crossing the six finger tribe and having a visual about that right now.

[00:25:00] [SPEAKER_03]: It's like a new genetic mutation that we want to...

[00:25:04] [SPEAKER_02]: Like our third eyes are going to start actually popping out.

[00:25:07] [SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, yeah. Our brains are, shape is going to change.

[00:25:12] [SPEAKER_03]: And as we're doing this, it's the first time on planet earth that we have the support and the capacity and the willingness and the desire to say, hey, the buck stops with me.

[00:25:22] [SPEAKER_03]: I am going to learn what my coping styles are.

[00:25:26] [SPEAKER_03]: I am going to metabolize them and alchemize them and heal them in myself instead of unconsciously passing them on.

[00:25:34] [SPEAKER_03]: And I'm going to be the seed of a new world and truly become an elder that can steward us into a new age, what I'd like to call the quantum age,

[00:25:44] [SPEAKER_03]: the age where we all take radical responsibility for our energy and how it's impacting the whole.

[00:25:52] [SPEAKER_03]: And we're in a full universe, that thing we talked about as within, so without.

[00:25:56] [SPEAKER_03]: So whatever patterns are occurring within us are occurring at scale in our governments, in our relations, right?

[00:26:04] [SPEAKER_03]: In our socioeconomic... All of it is a reflection of our inner world.

[00:26:09] [SPEAKER_03]: And so when we start to heal our patterns and wounds, it's not only a service to ourselves, but there is a ripple effect into the collective because every point is the center point in a fractal universe.

[00:26:20] [SPEAKER_03]: So each of us matters so much more than we think.

[00:26:23] [SPEAKER_03]: Everything we do and feel and embody has a profound ripple effect on everything else in our universe.

[00:26:33] [SPEAKER_02]: Do you guys see why I'm obsessed with her?

[00:26:37] [SPEAKER_02]: Literally, I love it. I'm right here with you.

[00:26:41] [SPEAKER_02]: I am here for the ripple effect. Absolutely. And the amplification of that, right?

[00:26:45] [SPEAKER_02]: There's this beautiful opportunity that we have as we all take this on and witness one another.

[00:26:52] [SPEAKER_02]: I think that's what just a theme conversation I've been having a lot lately is how integral witnessing each other in some of this work truly is.

[00:27:03] [SPEAKER_02]: Right? Like there's absolutely work that we can do in the solitude of our own space and energy and practices and rituals.

[00:27:15] [SPEAKER_02]: However, I truly believe that the faster way to accelerate some of this healing is witnessing others in it and having someone witness you in it, help you see the patterns and the mirrors that we can't just on our own.

[00:27:29] [SPEAKER_02]: And that's where I'm really excited.

[00:27:33] [SPEAKER_02]: And also, as I told her before we got on, I was like, I'm nervous-sided about this.

[00:27:37] [SPEAKER_02]: This is a very vulnerable thing to do on a podcast and share it with the world.

[00:27:43] [SPEAKER_02]: I have no idea what's about to come out of my mouth or where we're going to go.

[00:27:47] [SPEAKER_02]: And I think it's so important for us to be willing to do this with each other, y'all.

[00:27:53] [SPEAKER_02]: Like guaranteed, I know because I received and what I've witnessed Dr. Sam doing before,

[00:27:59] [SPEAKER_02]: I've received shift from it. Right?

[00:28:02] [SPEAKER_02]: And so y'all are going to get to receive some of that shift from whatever is about to happen and go down right now.

[00:28:08] [SPEAKER_02]: So the more that we choose courage and bravery and vulnerability to allow others to see us in our work and in our wounds and in our messiness and in that willingness to step over it,

[00:28:21] [SPEAKER_02]: the more we empower each other to do it.

[00:28:23] [SPEAKER_02]: So I'm just, I'm so grateful for you. I'm so grateful for your work.

[00:28:27] [SPEAKER_02]: I'm so grateful for your presence and your energy.

[00:28:32] [SPEAKER_02]: Coping styles. Okay. So y'all she has a quiz.

[00:28:35] [SPEAKER_02]: And if you don't know this about me, I love a good quiz.

[00:28:39] [SPEAKER_02]: I took the Myers-Briggs. My mom gave it to me when I was like seven or eight.

[00:28:42] [SPEAKER_02]: And I've just been a quiz junkie ever since, like really trying to get what feels like objective data on ourselves.

[00:28:50] [SPEAKER_02]: Right. And just a way to look at ourselves and kind of reflect, does this feel accurate? Does this not?

[00:28:56] [SPEAKER_02]: What can I learn from this? These data points.

[00:28:59] [SPEAKER_02]: And so I've been a big fan of all the different types of assessments in quiz for a long time.

[00:29:06] [SPEAKER_02]: So y'all she has a coping style quiz that will obviously be in the show notes.

[00:29:10] [SPEAKER_02]: And what I also love about your quiz is we're going to go through different seasons of life.

[00:29:15] [SPEAKER_02]: And like as I heal one fractal, there's going to be times when now something else is going to pop up.

[00:29:21] [SPEAKER_02]: So this is really a powerful tool to be able to check in and see where you're at and what's coming up for you.

[00:29:27] [SPEAKER_02]: And she's got incredible resources to be able to dig deeper and do some of that that work on it yourself.

[00:29:33] [SPEAKER_02]: So definitely check it out. The first time I took the quiz, I had the premature coping style,

[00:29:39] [SPEAKER_02]: which was fascinating because it was right when I got to Tulsa or right after I'd gotten to Tulsa.

[00:29:44] [SPEAKER_02]: And this has been a season of nurturing myself and like really grounding and just like truly taking care of myself first and foremost before anything else.

[00:29:55] [SPEAKER_02]: And that was a big disruption from how I've operated most of my life.

[00:30:03] [SPEAKER_02]: And now I just took it earlier this week. I'm like, oh, I need to see where I'm at.

[00:30:07] [SPEAKER_02]: And I got the masking coping style, which feels very apropos to some things that are going on.

[00:30:16] [SPEAKER_02]: And yeah, I'm excited to see what comes from this coding session.

[00:30:21] [SPEAKER_02]: Is there anything else that you would want to say about this experience before we get into it?

[00:30:26] [SPEAKER_03]: Well, if people are listening and curious what premature and masked are about just quickly for me to explain.

[00:30:32] [SPEAKER_03]: Premature is a coping style that's about caretaking everyone else and being last on the list and never getting the nurturing and care from others, from the world, from the self that we need.

[00:30:45] [SPEAKER_03]: And so she has spent the last year coming out of premature and into its antidote, which is nourished.

[00:30:51] [SPEAKER_03]: And even today, you know, when I gave you the love at the top of our before we started recording, you said, I received that I'm working on receiving.

[00:30:58] [SPEAKER_03]: And that's coming out of premature. So you're doing so much work that that's no longer your top coping style on the quiz.

[00:31:04] [SPEAKER_03]: And now masked is coming up, which is one of the subtypes of what I call the disconnected coping style.

[00:31:09] [SPEAKER_03]: And it's when we've had to really attune to others and give them the understanding because we didn't feel like anyone could actually understand or believe or hear us or reach us like that.

[00:31:19] [SPEAKER_03]: That deep raw aliveness inside hasn't felt reachable.

[00:31:25] [SPEAKER_03]: It's felt like we're going to have to be the ones who reach everyone else.

[00:31:29] [SPEAKER_03]: And so that's one of my core wounds. And again, I have them all.

[00:31:34] [SPEAKER_03]: And so, yeah, I'm really excited to work with you today.

[00:31:38] [SPEAKER_03]: OK, so we're going to do a little coding session.

[00:31:41] [SPEAKER_03]: And your job is just to tell me about any problem you're experiencing in your life for about a minute.

[00:31:49] [SPEAKER_03]: And as you do that, I'm going to take notes.

[00:31:51] [SPEAKER_03]: And it's important that you don't take notes because we want to keep you out of your left brain, out of your thinking mind.

[00:31:56] [SPEAKER_03]: And then I'm going to circle the keywords that I see in what you said.

[00:32:00] [SPEAKER_03]: And then we're going to drop into a very liminal, very trippy, very psychedelic dreamlike state together for the rest of the session.

[00:32:08] [SPEAKER_03]: You're reflecting the symbols back to themselves.

[00:32:10] [SPEAKER_03]: We're going to be dissolving and resolving the code and alchemizing there.

[00:32:14] [SPEAKER_03]: And from there, we'll insert a new line of code where things get to be more aligned for you.

[00:32:23] [SPEAKER_03]: And magic and miracles will start to unfold in your life pretty dang quickly.

[00:32:27] [SPEAKER_03]: So this is this is fun.

[00:32:30] [SPEAKER_03]: I got my water. Do I need some tissues?

[00:32:34] [SPEAKER_03]: It is so gentle. I don't know if you'll cry. Maybe you'll cry.

[00:32:36] [SPEAKER_03]: But, you know, it's not it's not like therapy. It's so different.

[00:32:40] [SPEAKER_03]: OK, I'm ready when you are.

[00:32:44] [SPEAKER_02]: All right. So just tell me about a problem for about a minute.

[00:32:49] [SPEAKER_02]: It goes back to probably kindergarten, skipping a grade, being very excited to get to first grade because of my reading ability and showing up in my fully expressed self that was not at all welcomed.

[00:33:02] [SPEAKER_02]: And how this shows up now is this like pendulum swinging energy of like being too much and not enough all at the same time.

[00:33:13] [SPEAKER_02]: And I'm finding it really interesting and like my willingness to be visible online and really speak to what I know.

[00:33:23] [SPEAKER_02]: I'm meant to be channeling and giving out into the world.

[00:33:26] [SPEAKER_02]: But then feeling some self-imposed judgment or some type of I'm not doing enough or you're not doing it the right way or good enough.

[00:33:36] [SPEAKER_02]: And this just like tug of war energy.

[00:33:39] [SPEAKER_02]: And it's it's manifesting in my body, in my solar plexus and like in my rib cage and on my sides and in my throat.

[00:33:48] [SPEAKER_02]: Like I can feel that's where some of this is hiding or holding onto.

[00:33:54] [SPEAKER_02]: And I think impacting my ability to trust myself in decision making and like moving quickly on things.

[00:34:04] [SPEAKER_02]: It's this I've had the experience of jumping into things way too fast in life and like regretting that.

[00:34:11] [SPEAKER_02]: And then also the experience of never taking action or not following through or finishing things that at one point were very exciting to me.

[00:34:22] [SPEAKER_02]: And so feeling like stuck and torn between like the polarity of these types of energies in my body.

[00:34:30] [SPEAKER_03]: Let me just work with what you've already given me and see if I have some follow up questions.

[00:34:34] [SPEAKER_03]: OK.

[00:34:44] [SPEAKER_03]: Tell me about the tug of war.

[00:34:48] [SPEAKER_02]: About the what?

[00:34:49] [SPEAKER_02]: Tug of war.

[00:34:51] [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah, it feels like this like parts like internal family systems a little bit like these parts that are at war with each other, like the the know it all part that wants to be shouting from the rooftops, all these things that I'm so excited about and

[00:35:10] [SPEAKER_02]: these ideas and like I'll have like an example be like, oh, get on your Instagram and talk about blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.

[00:35:17] [SPEAKER_02]: And then there's the part that's like, who are you?

[00:35:20] [SPEAKER_02]: Like what are like no one gives a shit or they're going to think X, Y, Z or sit down like don't be so loud.

[00:35:28] [SPEAKER_02]: It's like this goes back and forth and it's like no, like quit hiding behind other people.

[00:35:33] [SPEAKER_02]: Like, no, like, you know, quit, you know, disowning your power.

[00:35:36] [SPEAKER_02]: Like step into it like the the idea of like the fear about shining has been something that has been so present for me throughout my lifetime that as soon as it feels like I'm stepping into a little bit of shine, it's like that's when that like tug starts to happen like to pull me back.

[00:35:52] [SPEAKER_02]: And then it's like, no, no, come shine.

[00:35:55] [SPEAKER_02]: Like now literally what it feels like.

[00:35:58] [SPEAKER_02]: OK, one moment.

[00:36:02] [SPEAKER_03]: OK, so this is great.

[00:36:04] [SPEAKER_03]: I have everything I need right now just to let you and your listeners in on it.

[00:36:13] [SPEAKER_03]: There's seven coping styles that have come up in what you shared, and that is totally normal amount to come up in a share.

[00:36:22] [SPEAKER_03]: OK, and so from here on out, I'm going to ask you to completely let go of this story about work or social media or anything concrete.

[00:36:34] [SPEAKER_03]: I don't want you to think about your current life whatsoever.

[00:36:38] [SPEAKER_03]: That's going to keep us stuck in the concrete.

[00:36:40] [SPEAKER_03]: And that's why things don't change very fast when we work with the mind or with the story.

[00:36:44] [SPEAKER_03]: We're going to go deeper than the mind to just the energetic patterns that are here.

[00:36:48] [SPEAKER_03]: So we're just going to drop in and feel into the energetic of that back and forth.

[00:36:57] [SPEAKER_03]: Let's just feel that as an energy, this tug of war inside.

[00:37:12] [SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, I should warn you coding sessions are very quiet and mostly silence.

[00:37:16] [SPEAKER_03]: So they're not the best for podcast vibes, but very powerful.

[00:37:21] [SPEAKER_03]: So we're just going to drop into this energetic of back and forth, this tug of war inside, feeling torn in two directions.

[00:37:46] [SPEAKER_03]: So we're just really feeling that as an energetic and not relating it to any concrete specifics in life, but just feeling what it feels like to be at war inside being torn in two directions.

[00:38:07] [SPEAKER_03]: And because things are getting pulled here and getting pulled there, things don't go anywhere.

[00:38:19] [SPEAKER_03]: And that's that stuckness. Yeah, what's happening now?

[00:38:31] [SPEAKER_02]: It feels like I'm on the ocean, like this forward and backwards tug.

[00:38:34] [SPEAKER_02]: It's like forward progress and then pulling me backwards.

[00:38:37] [SPEAKER_02]: But it's also like very soothing and then unhealthy way.

[00:38:44] [SPEAKER_02]: Like it's that familiarity that feels like my attachment is in.

[00:38:56] [SPEAKER_02]: Like there's like an attachment to the familiarity of the back and forth.

[00:39:00] [SPEAKER_02]: And like that's that soothing of the rocking as frustrating as it can be.

[00:39:10] [SPEAKER_03]: You are killing it.

[00:39:13] [SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, so the point of source code is to have a gentle ego death.

[00:39:22] [SPEAKER_03]: So right away you started to notice, wow, who am I?

[00:39:26] [SPEAKER_03]: If not rocking back and forth between here and there being tugged in two directions and staying stuck rocking in place.

[00:39:37] [SPEAKER_03]: That is my identity.

[00:39:41] [SPEAKER_03]: That is the core of my fractal pattern, the core of my energetic field that has shown up here, there and everywhere in my life.

[00:39:51] [SPEAKER_03]: And I don't want to let it go, even though it's uncomfortable to be frustrated, which is one of the coping styles we're working with.

[00:40:00] [SPEAKER_03]: It feels like home. It feels like me. It feels like self. It feels familiar.

[00:40:04] [SPEAKER_03]: So let's just feel that. We don't need to fix it or change it in any way.

[00:40:14] [SPEAKER_03]: What's this feeling?

[00:40:18] [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah, there's this I guess fear of the unknown. If I'm not that, then what am I?

[00:40:26] [SPEAKER_02]: Right. Like this is despite the discomfort of that energy and pattern, like it has been so much of my identity wrapped up in it.

[00:40:36] [SPEAKER_02]: So letting that go is like.

[00:40:40] [SPEAKER_03]: Trust me, I get it. I have gone toward every single ego death I've ever had kicking and screaming, even though I know better.

[00:40:46] [SPEAKER_03]: But what I like to remind myself of is that Terrence McKenna quote about ego deaths.

[00:40:51] [SPEAKER_03]: He said, this is how magic is done by hurling yourself into the abyss and discovering it's a feather bed.

[00:41:05] [SPEAKER_01]: OK, let's run and jump.

[00:41:08] [SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, and that feather bed part is really important for us to know about, which is it really feels like if I let go of this frustrated tug of war inside where I'm rocked by rocking in place, I will be nothing.

[00:41:24] [SPEAKER_03]: I will literally cease to exist because this is my identity.

[00:41:28] [SPEAKER_03]: And so it really feels like it's going to be such a gaping hole, such a steep cliff, such a huge loss of self.

[00:41:35] [SPEAKER_03]: That's what it feels like to be at the precipice of a new ego death.

[00:41:38] [SPEAKER_03]: But in reality, when you and I walk through that door together, which we will today on the other side, you'll just feel a little bit more yourself.

[00:41:49] [SPEAKER_03]: It's very gentle. It's very subtle. It's like, wait, that was the big to do?

[00:41:55] [SPEAKER_03]: I'm even more me in a really gentle way than I was before.

[00:42:00] [SPEAKER_03]: I'm just me without the crap that I don't need anymore.

[00:42:04] [SPEAKER_03]: Great.

[00:42:07] [SPEAKER_03]: So the way we get through that door is literally to do nothing, but just sit with this familiar rocking in place.

[00:42:14] [SPEAKER_03]: Just feel it.

[00:42:16] [SPEAKER_03]: This uncomfortable yet soothing motion of being pulled forward and being pulled back and never getting anywhere.

[00:42:31] [SPEAKER_03]: Staying stuck in that rocking tug of war, back and forth.

[00:42:44] [SPEAKER_02]: I mean, a really interesting and acute sensation in my left jaw.

[00:42:51] [SPEAKER_03]: Great, because the tug of war is part of the withholding subtype of frustrated, which is held in the jaw.

[00:42:58] [SPEAKER_03]: Perfect.

[00:43:01] [SPEAKER_03]: So not letting things move forward.

[00:43:06] [SPEAKER_03]: There's been a way that there's been a clamping down, not letting anything, not allowing anything that we really, really want to happen.

[00:43:24] [SPEAKER_03]: Kind of like keeping it all on lockdown.

[00:43:30] [SPEAKER_03]: So yeah, just allowing, noticing the jaw. There's nothing we need to do. It's all going to resolve itself.

[00:43:38] [SPEAKER_03]: Things have been closed and stuck, stuck in a stalemate inside.

[00:43:48] [SPEAKER_03]: One step forward, two steps back.

[00:43:53] [SPEAKER_03]: And we never get to stake new ground.

[00:44:00] [SPEAKER_03]: There's some part inside that won't allow that.

[00:44:04] [SPEAKER_03]: That withholds and subverts, essentially sabotages anything from getting to move forward.

[00:44:15] [SPEAKER_03]: And I want to just be with how, I want to be with the intelligence of that adaptive response, that coping style to shut down and kind of make a stink.

[00:44:29] [SPEAKER_03]: That was actually like a healthy response to being blocked from standing up and expressing and shining.

[00:44:48] [SPEAKER_03]: There was so much judgment and so much squashing that there's a part that's really frustrated about that.

[00:44:59] [SPEAKER_03]: And that makes sense.

[00:45:02] [SPEAKER_03]: There's a part that's really protesting that that wasn't fair and that wasn't okay.

[00:45:06] [SPEAKER_03]: And it wasn't.

[00:45:07] [SPEAKER_03]: So the frustration is completely natural and healthy and normal and a normal healthy adaptive response to being controlled and squashed and suppressed.

[00:45:25] [SPEAKER_03]: That anger is good.

[00:45:32] [SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, and so you can just sit still because source code's not really a cathartic modality.

[00:45:37] [SPEAKER_01]: And getting a lot of internal movement, I guess is the best way to describe it.

[00:45:49] [SPEAKER_03]: Okay, great. That's great. And let's see if we can stay in the quantum, just the symbols that something's starting to move and come alive.

[00:45:59] [SPEAKER_03]: See if you can stay with that in an energetic way and in symbolic way.

[00:46:04] [SPEAKER_03]: The source code is working with a place beyond the mind, beyond the body.

[00:46:10] [SPEAKER_03]: That symbolic landscape that things that have been stuck are starting to move, starting to flow.

[00:46:26] [SPEAKER_03]: Things that have been closed are starting to open and things that haven't held on to aim are now becoming direct.

[00:46:47] [SPEAKER_03]: There's a direct flow of energy from where we are to where we want to go.

[00:47:08] [SPEAKER_03]: What do you notice now?

[00:47:11] [SPEAKER_03]: Almost like Legos clicking into place.

[00:47:13] [SPEAKER_02]: Yay, the fractal shape is changing.

[00:47:16] [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah, it's like a Lego spine.

[00:47:21] [SPEAKER_03]: Great. Oh, I'm so glad. Yes. Okay, I'm so proud of you.

[00:47:26] [SPEAKER_03]: So you were frustrated around your squashed coping style and the antidote to squash, which is already happening in your physiology now and in the Lego fractal, is that the spine lengthens and becomes erect.

[00:47:40] [SPEAKER_03]: So that's what's already happening. Do you feel it? How you're already sitting up much taller? Yeah.

[00:47:45] [SPEAKER_03]: So when we moved the frustrated, what was under it was the squashed and so something's becoming erect now.

[00:47:53] [SPEAKER_03]: So let's just feel what it feels like to be erect and radiant, fully shining, standing up into the full height.

[00:48:20] [SPEAKER_03]: Powerful, beautiful, radiant light, able to fully shine without impediment with that erect spine. Yeah, what's happening now?

[00:48:46] [SPEAKER_02]: It's like the tug of war is dissolved into a dance.

[00:48:53] [SPEAKER_02]: And, you know, the original rocking sensation was like forward and backwards.

[00:48:58] [SPEAKER_02]: And now it feels like there's just this balanced dance between my right and my left, which I'm interpreting as like masculine and feminine energy that feels like really grounded in that Lego spine.

[00:49:21] [SPEAKER_03]: Yeah. So that part can stand up and shine with an erect spine and be visible and share the beautiful essence at your core.

[00:49:57] [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah, there's these like ultra light beams.

[00:50:00] [SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, beautiful. Just feel this integration of your light, your radiance, that gorgeous erect spine.

[00:50:16] [SPEAKER_03]: Everything gets to move, be open in flow and direct and erect.

[00:50:38] [SPEAKER_03]: And from this erect place, what about being fully expressed?

[00:50:53] [SPEAKER_02]: There's this like Little Mermaid moment happening with like the glow in my throat. It feels like it's coming alive.

[00:51:04] [SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, there's this part that can trust the self and have a voice.

[00:51:14] [SPEAKER_02]: Be clear.

[00:51:19] [SPEAKER_02]: It kind of feels like the star on top of a Christmas tree. That makes sense to the Lego spine.

[00:51:28] [SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, how wonderful. Yeah, really feel that this erect radiant spine is topped with this gorgeous place of expression.

[00:51:49] [SPEAKER_03]: There's this sense that the authority was outside, that there was this judgment coming from outside,

[00:51:57] [SPEAKER_03]: that the outside had the knowing or could think X, Y and Z about the inside. But now the authority is inside.

[00:52:20] [SPEAKER_02]: I like this desire to hum. It's very present. Beautiful. Go for it.

[00:52:53] [SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, that beautiful open throat. The ability to express and be heard and believed.

[00:53:06] [SPEAKER_03]: Valued.

[00:53:07] [SPEAKER_03]: Yeah.

[00:53:11] [SPEAKER_03]: And to trust the inner knowing and the clarity and use the voice.

[00:53:21] [SPEAKER_03]: And to be free to express and trust the instincts, to allow whatever is natural to come through without judgment,

[00:53:35] [SPEAKER_03]: without holding in or holding back. Really free to express.

[00:53:51] [SPEAKER_02]: I'm getting this sensation now of the movement going up and down.

[00:54:00] [SPEAKER_02]: The rocking going up and down, like having feet on the ground,

[00:54:04] [SPEAKER_02]: like the sensation of being grounded in the earth, but also this connection in the clouds and the heavens and the ethers and having both and balance in those.

[00:54:19] [SPEAKER_03]: Yeah. And just notice this, one of the most magical qualities of being on the ground is that means you get to stand eye to eye and heart to heart with everyone else.

[00:54:39] [SPEAKER_03]: So there's no one above and no one below. There's no such thing as better than or worse than.

[00:54:54] [SPEAKER_03]: Just human, which is to be connected to the ground and the heavens, just like everyone else.

[00:55:32] [SPEAKER_02]: Neon colors, like right in my pineal glands popping right now.

[00:55:39] [SPEAKER_02]: And just a lot of different rotating shapes and colors and awareness and energy right there.

[00:55:51] [SPEAKER_03]: Boom. Things are open and alive and shining and visible and balanced, direct, solid, human, connected, erect, free.

[00:56:22] [SPEAKER_03]: And from this place of openness and expression and erectness, there's also a part that can take in, receive from all the other beautiful energies out there and be nourished.

[00:56:48] [SPEAKER_03]: That sharing the gifts doesn't always have to be a doing, but can also just be a being and even receiving really getting that feeling of being nourished.

[00:57:03] [SPEAKER_03]: It's been such a habit to have all the energy go out. And now there's this really nice loop of nourishment that can go in.

[00:57:13] [SPEAKER_03]: And of course, when the cup runneth over, go out as well.

[00:57:18] [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah, there's this infinity circle happening in my hips, giving and receiving.

[00:57:28] [SPEAKER_01]: How would it kind of a very smooth being of both at the same time?

[00:57:36] [SPEAKER_04]: I see. I see.

[00:57:41] [SPEAKER_04]: Really great.

[00:57:49] [SPEAKER_03]: So we are in all the antidotes to the styles that came up.

[00:57:56] [SPEAKER_03]: We're getting to be nourished, connected, human on the ground.

[00:58:12] [SPEAKER_03]: And it happens. Feeling solid inside, really trusting the cell.

[00:58:26] [SPEAKER_03]: Being erect and radiant and getting in flow where there's an opening and directness.

[00:58:43] [SPEAKER_03]: Things are moving and not stuck anymore.

[00:58:51] [SPEAKER_03]: Things can be fully expressed without judgment because you're free.

[00:59:11] [SPEAKER_02]: There's like a shift in the word overwhelming for me happening right now.

[00:59:20] [SPEAKER_02]: Overwhelming has always been something that hasn't felt great in my body.

[00:59:25] [SPEAKER_02]: And right now I'm experiencing an overwhelming amount of ease.

[00:59:29] [SPEAKER_02]: Amazing.

[00:59:30] [SPEAKER_03]: It feels really lovely.

[00:59:33] [SPEAKER_03]: Oh, my God. Yum, yum, yum.

[00:59:35] [SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, so really feel that ease.

[00:59:38] [SPEAKER_03]: This was a much shorter coding session than I would normally do.

[00:59:43] [SPEAKER_03]: But what we do in a coding session is we shift your visceral reality.

[00:59:49] [SPEAKER_03]: Because I've noticed whatever feels visceral for us becomes real.

[00:59:55] [SPEAKER_03]: So I call it the visceral real.

[00:59:59] [SPEAKER_03]: And if things have been stuck and torn and frustrated, hiding,

[01:00:07] [SPEAKER_03]: this overwhelming ease and flow of energy is the new visceral reality.

[01:00:14] [SPEAKER_03]: And from here, everything gets to go in the direction we want.

[01:00:23] [SPEAKER_03]: Action is taken so naturally.

[01:00:26] [SPEAKER_03]: Of course there's follow through and seeing something through to the end.

[01:00:32] [SPEAKER_03]: There's such beautiful forward movement and shining of the light.

[01:00:39] [SPEAKER_03]: And all of it is welcomed.

[01:00:42] [SPEAKER_03]: That Goldilocks just right enoughness.

[01:00:48] [SPEAKER_03]: So we kind of switched your quantum channel.

[01:00:55] [SPEAKER_03]: And from here, those old patterns don't have to keep playing out.

[01:00:59] [SPEAKER_03]: Like they just you'll just do something different.

[01:01:02] [SPEAKER_03]: It'll feel different.

[01:01:03] [SPEAKER_03]: Bye.

[01:01:05] [SPEAKER_03]: And that was the ego death that felt so scary.

[01:01:10] [SPEAKER_03]: So who are you now that you're not stuck and rocking in place?

[01:01:15] [SPEAKER_03]: Is it so different? Is it so scary?

[01:01:19] [SPEAKER_03]: No.

[01:01:21] [SPEAKER_02]: It's dental AF, no?

[01:01:22] [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah. Yeah. It's like, oh wow.

[01:01:27] [SPEAKER_02]: Me and open and flowing now.

[01:01:30] [SPEAKER_02]: Yeah.

[01:01:32] [SPEAKER_03]: That's the cool shit.

[01:01:36] [SPEAKER_03]: Wow.

[01:01:37] [SPEAKER_03]: Yeah.

[01:01:41] [SPEAKER_04]: I can't wait to get little love notes from you about what happens next.

[01:01:45] [SPEAKER_04]: Oh, I can already I can already I can already feel that.

[01:01:50] [SPEAKER_02]: It's weird, isn't it?

[01:01:51] [SPEAKER_02]: How different we feel.

[01:01:53] [SPEAKER_02]: I could like I was having moments of like seeing myself reaching out being like, and then this.

[01:02:01] [SPEAKER_04]: These are my favorite messages to get.

[01:02:03] [SPEAKER_04]: I literally live for having this front row seat at people's quantum shifts.

[01:02:07] [SPEAKER_04]: Like it's like the best thing ever.

[01:02:09] [SPEAKER_01]: Yeah.

[01:02:10] [SPEAKER_04]: Yeah.

[01:02:11] [SPEAKER_02]: Wow.

[01:02:12] [SPEAKER_02]: Is there any like post coding care or maintenance that I need to be aware of?

[01:02:19] [SPEAKER_03]: The cool thing about coding is that it requires no effort.

[01:02:22] [SPEAKER_03]: So there's nothing you need to do at all.

[01:02:24] [SPEAKER_03]: My favorite thing to do when I'm integrating a coding session, because my team codes me now,

[01:02:28] [SPEAKER_03]: is I listen to it again and again and again.

[01:02:32] [SPEAKER_03]: And each time I listen, it goes even deeper.

[01:02:36] [SPEAKER_03]: But you've got the recording because this is a recording.

[01:02:40] [SPEAKER_02]: Great.

[01:02:44] [SPEAKER_02]: Like thank you doesn't even begin to feel like it does it justice.

[01:02:47] [SPEAKER_01]: Oh, honey.

[01:02:49] [SPEAKER_02]: Like, wow, like just a profound level of gratitude in my being right now.

[01:02:55] [SPEAKER_02]: I'm so glad.

[01:02:58] [SPEAKER_02]: I can feel and almost taste like the journey that you've been on to be able to bring this thing into form.

[01:03:09] [SPEAKER_02]: And I'm just so grateful for you.

[01:03:13] [SPEAKER_04]: Dude, that makes me so happy.

[01:03:15] [SPEAKER_04]: It was all worth it.

[01:03:17] [SPEAKER_04]: That weird journey was all worth it.

[01:03:20] [SPEAKER_04]: It has been.

[01:03:21] [SPEAKER_02]: And like, can also really sense like how much more of a ripple effect this is going to be.

[01:03:32] [SPEAKER_04]: I can't wait to hear about it.

[01:03:35] [SPEAKER_04]: Thank you for having me on your show.

[01:03:38] [SPEAKER_04]: Thank you.

[01:03:39] [SPEAKER_02]: Thank you.

[01:03:40] [SPEAKER_02]: Thank you.

[01:03:40] [SPEAKER_02]: Thank you.

[01:03:41] [SPEAKER_02]: We'll definitely be reporting back.

[01:03:44] [SPEAKER_02]: And the one question I do need to ask, do you have 30 seconds to tell me about what you're most grateful for in the last 24 hours?

[01:03:51] [SPEAKER_02]: The last question that I ask every guest on the show.

[01:03:53] [SPEAKER_03]: What I'm most grateful for in the last 24 hours is that I have been offering six month coding programs with me, with clients.

[01:04:02] [SPEAKER_03]: And we're four months in to the six months and all their lives have completely changed and everything they said they wanted to get out of, they're out of and everything they said they wanted is already here.

[01:04:10] [SPEAKER_03]: And so I was like, you know what?

[01:04:11] [SPEAKER_03]: I'm signing up for a six month coding program with Dr. Sam Rader.

[01:04:15] [SPEAKER_03]: So yesterday was my first coding session.

[01:04:17] [SPEAKER_03]: I did all the writing assignments.

[01:04:18] [SPEAKER_03]: I did the questionnaire.

[01:04:19] [SPEAKER_03]: Like I'm enrolling in this thing with myself and doing self coding.

[01:04:24] [SPEAKER_03]: So yesterday was my first self coding session in this formal container with myself.

[01:04:28] [SPEAKER_03]: And I'm so hopeful.

[01:04:31] [SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, I'm so hopeful about like I'm so hungry for my own medicine, you know, so I get to get it now.

[01:04:36] [SPEAKER_03]: So I'm over the moon for myself.

[01:04:40] [SPEAKER_02]: Over the moon for you and just extremely grateful for you, Ryan.

[01:04:45] [SPEAKER_02]: Thank you.

[01:04:45] [SPEAKER_02]: Thank you.

[01:04:46] [SPEAKER_02]: Thank you.

[01:04:46] [SPEAKER_02]: Thank you.

[01:04:47] [SPEAKER_04]: Thank you.

[01:04:47] [SPEAKER_02]: All right, y'all.

[01:04:48] [SPEAKER_02]: If you have loved what you've experienced today with Dr. Sam, if you want to dive deeper into her work, tell us where can the people find you?

[01:04:57] [SPEAKER_02]: What do you have coming up?

[01:04:58] [SPEAKER_02]: Please share your goodness with us.

[01:05:00] [SPEAKER_03]: Oh, I'm so glad.

[01:05:01] [SPEAKER_03]: Yeah, I think taking the quiz is the first best step and that's inside my world.

[01:05:05] [SPEAKER_03]: And there's a million other little offerings.

[01:05:07] [SPEAKER_03]: But I do think the one thing I'm most excited about is normally my team teaches the classes, but I'm personally teaching a class that starts in the fall.

[01:05:16] [SPEAKER_03]: Oh, y'all.

[01:05:17] [SPEAKER_03]: It's a year long, the first ever source code certification program.

[01:05:23] [SPEAKER_03]: And the first three months is learning all about the coping styles.

[01:05:28] [SPEAKER_03]: That's module one and then module two is the next six months, which will be learning how to do a coding session, how to walk someone into the quantum, go beyond the mind, dissolve and resolve negative patterns and shift things very quickly.

[01:05:42] [SPEAKER_03]: And then the final three months is learning how to turn that skill around and do self-coding, learning how to become a master of your own quantum field and also do what I call quantum activism, which is working on ourselves and on others to not just benefit ourselves but also benefit the collective.

[01:05:59] [SPEAKER_02]: I'm so glad you brought that up because one of the things that stuck out most for me two summits ago is having someone up on stage and like, let's talk about a collective problem that really bothers you and how to use this work in a collective way was or maybe that was the last time.

[01:06:15] [SPEAKER_02]: I can't remember. They all blend together, but I love, love that you brought that up and around because it is so interconnected and a beautiful way to be an action when this world can make us feel really helpless and like how to help on a more collective level.

[01:06:31] [SPEAKER_02]: So amazing. This sounds incredible.

[01:06:33] [SPEAKER_03]: Yeah. And the cool thing about coding is unlike psychology or coaching, you don't have to have any background in the healing arts. You can go from knowing absolutely nothing about psychology or coaching or anything else and in a year's time being able to guide people as a quantum guide and also guide yourself and recode your own matrix.

[01:06:56] [SPEAKER_03]: It's a very simple, easy skill to learn. It does take time because it's a really new way of seeing things but working with the quantum is actually really, really easy. It's really easy and gentle. It's like riding a bike, but you have to just learn how to do it.

[01:07:11] [SPEAKER_03]: It takes about a year.

[01:07:11] [SPEAKER_03]: You're getting rucks in.

[01:07:13] [SPEAKER_02]: Hey, well, looking at my fall to see what my availability is.

[01:07:18] [SPEAKER_02]: Hell yes.

[01:07:20] [SPEAKER_02]: Well, thank you so much for your time today. Look forward to seeing you again soon.

[01:07:33] [SPEAKER_02]: Thank you so much for tuning into another episode of the Make One Day Happen podcast. I get it. Bandwidth can feel scarce, distractions can be abundant, so the fact that you made it this far in the episode truly means the world to me and I honor you for making some space for yourself.

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[01:08:07] [SPEAKER_02]: Until next time, my friend.

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