AGM Ghettokiid | Discussion Combustion Podcast | #247

[00:00:00] We'll have this discussion. Discussion, what discussion? This is a discussion

[00:00:04] Combustion, coming to you from Denver, Colorado. This is Discussion Combustion

[00:00:11] podcast with your hosts, Kevin Batstone and Arthur Rawe. We're here, let's do it.

[00:00:17] We're going to get to go here on a snowy day but we have to have you back in. Thank you very much.

[00:00:24] I'm happy to be back. It's good to see you man. It's been good to see your career grow

[00:00:28] a little bit. We've known you a couple years now, seeing the music biz. You did the live

[00:00:31] event with us so it's been cool to have you along the ride and check in here in there

[00:00:35] over the past couple of years. So I would say let's grab a beverage and cheers to that

[00:00:39] and get this thing rolling. We're a continued success and networking.

[00:00:44] Absolutely. Cheers, cheers. So quick disclaimer for the viewers and listeners we're kind of

[00:00:50] taped to lay in this so the Super Bowl hasn't happened yet. So by time you see this

[00:00:53] the Super Bowl champions will be either Kansas City or the 49ers. I'm personally hoping

[00:00:57] it is San Francisco but we'll see what happens. Who are you going for? I've been so

[00:01:01] zoned out of sports man. I just don't care whoever wins wins. If any like my hometown

[00:01:08] that I'm just like they could go ahead and go have that game, you know what I'm saying.

[00:01:13] Yeah, I'm on the same. Broncos been doing horrible though. I don't know what it is.

[00:01:17] I feel bad saying that but just bad. Been a rough few years. Been a rough from my

[00:01:22] Patriots too. I'm a new England guy so yeah, I heard about that too. Yeah, but really

[00:01:25] rough. Yeah, definitely. I got to see Bell checks last win as a Patriots head coach.

[00:01:30] That's pretty cool here in Denver. Yeah. But so any who yeah, so take the lay a little

[00:01:34] bit. Super Bowl has already happened. That's fine. We're here at the chit chat. Have a good

[00:01:37] time on a snowy Saturday here in Denver Colorado. It's good to see AGM. Yep, it's nice

[00:01:41] to see y'all you know how you guys been though. Thank good man. Been good. We've been after

[00:01:47] well I could speak for myself here. Actually I'll speak for Kevin right now. Oh really?

[00:01:51] Yeah, so Kevin's ramping up. He's ramping up. He's getting back dialed in with a match

[00:01:57] to gas. Okay. They're first episode last week. Yeah, February 5th was our first up. Yeah,

[00:02:02] I think I saw like some previews of that like a little short. Yeah, yeah. So so Kevin's

[00:02:06] getting back into that. Kevin might ask our gear. Yeah, I see. Yeah, Kevin's also ramping

[00:02:13] up to make some health changes this year on his birthday. It's going to be a good year

[00:02:17] in 2024. We were kind of talking about that a little bit off might giving up the booze

[00:02:19] for a year. Do it a sober challenge. It should be good man. Yeah, it should be good.

[00:02:23] I think it's going to be a smooth transition you talked about being a couple few months

[00:02:26] off. Speaking of that like like I told you guys it's been since November 14th of 2023

[00:02:32] since I had like a dream. How was that first? How was that first? How was that first set?

[00:02:37] The first week like how is this first set just now after all that time? It felt like

[00:02:42] a little refreshing. Yeah, but I don't know like part of me had that addictive personality

[00:02:48] towards it. But now it's like don't even feel like I feel like it's just I'm trading

[00:02:54] myself you know, like you know how you eat some snickers and it's like full of sugar.

[00:02:58] You know you're not supposed to have it but it's like all right. I have me a little bit

[00:03:02] of it. You know what I'm saying? I like me some snickers. I like me some beers. I don't

[00:03:07] mind it every every once in a while. Yeah and definitely I haven't really sipped since

[00:03:11] then so it's like I haven't even been out to a bar. I haven't done any of that. So since

[00:03:15] now that I am older it's like it don't seem something that like I'm gonna be consuming

[00:03:21] so much. It's just like I have to have a high mindset about it. And 21 you're 21. Yeah,

[00:03:27] man that's such a like a mature thought process for for that age like when I was 21 I was

[00:03:35] idiot. Yeah, I was going I was going really hard and so the fact that you're able to

[00:03:39] like see that and recognize that like more power to you. Thank you. I appreciate it.

[00:03:43] Congrats man because it feels good to like go that time off without booze and like prove

[00:03:49] to yourself like all right. It doesn't hold dominion over me. Yeah, I'm in control. That's

[00:03:55] crucial. I just did four months and I did the three months so like definitely yeah you're

[00:04:00] telling me that's props that props and like that a lot. Yeah, like I said just that first week

[00:04:05] for me like when I told myself I'm not gonna be drinking the struggle that I had was that first

[00:04:11] week because it seems like you can't get through it but like as soon as you get do that first

[00:04:17] week you're like perfectly fine. You feel like you could just knock down like 30 weeks or something

[00:04:22] you know. Yeah, definitely just the first week is a little bit gonna be more harder for you

[00:04:29] but after that I think it's just like a piece of cake. Yeah, yeah, just going through that adjustment

[00:04:33] of the break in the habit number one and then adjusting like sleep patterns because you know there's no

[00:04:37] mess with sleep. Definitely, it messes with your mental health, messes with your body you know

[00:04:42] that's what it was doing to me and I just I was only like what like 19 20 like getting shit

[00:04:47] face drunk so it's like I really had to sit there and look at myself from like a higher perspective

[00:04:55] than you know and I was like I can't keep doing this shit every day like I'm yeah I'm not even

[00:05:00] 21 yet you know so it's like I'm fucking up my body before I even become an adult and like

[00:05:05] my whole my body and my mind matures and shit so I just definitely had to just

[00:05:13] just say no to it you know. That's good. That's good that you didn't recognize it really. So is that like

[00:05:18] where did that motivation come from? What was the moment when you're all like

[00:05:27] did you do something embarrassing like at a party or like you woke up feeling like shit

[00:05:31] the next day or like somebody was like yo bro like you are out of control. It was like almost like

[00:05:36] a wrap of it all like I just noticed my drinking was getting out of hand and then my arguing with

[00:05:42] other people it just it came in between my relationships with other people and that's when I knew

[00:05:47] when it was like that like it's diminishing my relationship with my friends like let's say my

[00:05:53] mom might be arguing with we wouldn't get along and especially triggers were hard at first too but

[00:06:00] it's just like a it's a it's a journey you know I don't think you're gonna just stop like really

[00:06:07] like cold turkey one time one day you know. I think it's just you have to grow towards it and work

[00:06:11] towards it that's what I did so yeah and I think everyone's gonna approach it a little differently

[00:06:16] because some people can have a casual beer on the weekend and then not drink for a month and

[00:06:20] you know me it's like it's so routine doing these podcasts it's like your time. Then you're

[00:06:23] out here doing it's like it's kind of part of work. That's how I see it with the marijuana you know

[00:06:28] when I'm in the studio um definitely gotta have me like a blunt rotor maybe a joint just because

[00:06:36] it's like a part of my creative uh how do you say my creative flow process definitely so

[00:06:44] I mean well I mean there there is studies that cannabis but here's the here's like the the kicker

[00:06:50] cannabis and like small amounts like not like you're smoking the whole blunt. Yeah like you take

[00:06:56] like a couple hits of weed like it is actually known to stimulate the creative parts of your brain

[00:07:03] and like help help help that come out so obviously you could overdo anything and it's easy to

[00:07:08] overdo weed especially when it's tasting so good you know you're like let me get some more of that

[00:07:12] um yeah yeah yeah right um creativity when it comes to that I think I'm starting to step into like

[00:07:18] my creative direction um so what I mean by that is like I'm starting to like take myself a little

[00:07:25] bit more serious as an artist because um like you ever be talking and just like

[00:07:34] last week happens it happens all the time yeah just trying to step into like my creative process

[00:07:42] and all that jazz so are you like how is the music coming for you like do you have specific like

[00:07:51] goals that you want to reach are you like trying to get like an EP of like a certain amount of

[00:07:56] tracks put together by like what what are you working on right now so I'm part I'm still just

[00:08:01] working on singles you know and a part of me still feels like that's uh that's a good way

[00:08:06] uh to work right now because I see multiple artists drop like let's say they drop a mix tape or

[00:08:12] EP and they'll have like let's say 15 songs on it and now let's say you're promoting that to people

[00:08:18] people really don't have time to sit there and listen to all 15 of your songs you know it's a good

[00:08:22] point so it's like if I'm out here just gonna drop one song it's like hey check this one song out

[00:08:27] if you like it you don't like it you like it like it on Facebook you know or like it on YouTube

[00:08:31] but um if I have 12 songs or 15 songs and I come to somebody and be like listen to all of these

[00:08:36] I feel like that's this is just me my opinion genuinely that people are not gonna sit here and

[00:08:41] dwell until all of those tracks especially when you're a local artist you don't people don't really

[00:08:46] know you you know um yeah that's just been my my flow right now singles making sure that people

[00:08:53] actually do see my music instead of just like uh 15 songs not well and also I feel like because

[00:08:59] I used to I used to like make like 15 track like and I feel like sometimes when you do that

[00:09:05] you're you're more open to having maybe meteorok mediocre tracks on the thing because you get so

[00:09:14] many of them and you're like trying to complete I need these 15 so like you let some stuff get in

[00:09:19] there that maybe as a top shelf mustard right you know opposed to like when you're just doing

[00:09:24] singles because you're trying to hit a metric rather than your focusing on quantity rather than

[00:09:26] yeah yeah I think there's something to be said about that music business I mean look at any favorite

[00:09:30] artist of ours and take one of the records there's no way I'm gonna love every single track on that

[00:09:35] record but they have a record deal and they have to meet X amount of tracks by X amount of time

[00:09:39] yeah it's and they're getting paid on it but if you're trying to get noticed I think EPs and

[00:09:43] the LPs I guess we eliminated release right are a way to go yeah yeah people have short attention

[00:09:49] spans like okay I have an idea what these guys do you got to grab within that first 30 seconds yeah

[00:09:54] yeah we've learned not even in this business yeah definitely music man I love music I got

[00:10:00] Bob Marley on today uh that movie's coming out on January 4th to be good February 14th I want to see

[00:10:05] that I'm ready to see that too myself I think um I'm not just been seeing a lot of him pop up like in

[00:10:10] the store I just seen this shirt just I don't know where you know what a legend yeah it's I think

[00:10:13] like with music it's like such a universal like uh with Bob Marley like he was such a spiritual musician

[00:10:20] so I think like when it comes to music it's just it's like it's like a a universal language you know

[00:10:25] because you know uh Michael Jackson right so when Michael Jackson go to different countries like they

[00:10:31] don't know English yeah they know Michael Jackson words for word you know what I'm saying um they know

[00:10:36] how to dance just like it means so I think that music is really special and it's like it's a way to

[00:10:42] maybe to get along with each other and spread love like well it's also a good way to kind of

[00:10:46] learn a language do I've been practicing I spent y'all and I'll like pick up songs and like

[00:10:52] do the lyrics and like try to figure out oh like what are they saying here so it's like also a

[00:10:57] good way to like learn languages too and like bridge that gap yeah because honestly like all

[00:11:03] the people I've met and stuff like it doesn't matter like what ethnicity somebody was or what

[00:11:08] country they came from like genuinely people all just want to be respected and we all have

[00:11:16] the same needs really yeah and and and like I look I was close-minded too growing up like oh um

[00:11:22] these people over here speak in Spanish like that that's in my country like that was old ignorant

[00:11:26] Arthur right like like where you're like why don't they learn English and shit like this but at the

[00:11:32] same time it's like how am I gonna sit here and judge like when I haven't even tried to learn

[00:11:36] Spanish and like and so it's like generally if somebody is speaking English as a second language

[00:11:42] and it's broken like they're still effort yeah yeah yeah and then I can still understand it so it's

[00:11:48] like I don't know I used to kind of judge that like long time ago like a long time ago and so I'll

[00:11:54] admit that on here now honestly that's that's how I be when I go to like what like with the girl

[00:11:59] I'm dating and we go to like to go get her nails done and they're like you know they speak in

[00:12:03] different language I feel like they're talking stuff about it but you know at the same time like

[00:12:07] it's just it's just in our head you know we created it in our head it's true it's easy to do

[00:12:11] and then the other easy thing to do is read body language like regardless if you're speaking Korean

[00:12:15] you know Espen you old French yeah like everybody can kind of communicate through body language like

[00:12:19] oh I want to eat or you know let's dance dancing as communication I think that's the other great

[00:12:24] thing about music is it makes people move yeah it's the soundtrack a life back to Michael Jackson when

[00:12:28] I was little I actually used to dance just like I used to try dancing like can you move walk a ham no

[00:12:34] so many tried teaching me I couldn't get it I couldn't either my friend a daydream on try to show

[00:12:38] me that one time and I just he was doing it on the carpet I was like what's like it's almost like

[00:12:43] an illusion though like the way they do it yeah like he kicks his feet in front of it in like slides

[00:12:47] I know the process of doing it like the foot that's coming back doesn't have the weight on it so

[00:12:52] you're putting the weight on the foot in front yeah but you're going backwards I can do it but

[00:12:58] it's really slow and if I try to do it fast it's butchered but the one the one that I do like is

[00:13:03] where they do like the fake step like like where they like kind of do that step in the air like

[00:13:08] where they're walking okay you know and it looks like if you guys see that one I think so I think

[00:13:12] I know she's talking about and it's like and like the first person to do it was like he looks so fly

[00:13:17] he had like the suit on he was like going up this big staircase like that oh shit I don't know

[00:13:21] there's some there's some cool dance moves right so I like and why I just wish that I could find

[00:13:26] my inner confidence to dance in front of people like I dance when I'm alone I've seen you dancing

[00:13:32] the shower yeah that's dangerous oh yeah almost try grabbing the water one time

[00:13:41] yeah no definitely though it's it's a it's tight I just think that it's cool how we express each

[00:13:49] other express ourselves to each other yes yeah music is universal oh yeah and um yeah and the

[00:13:56] body language thing too you can communicate a lot through body language for sure very much so

[00:14:01] I actually speaking of them I saw like this video of like this rock band they're like in front of

[00:14:06] cows right start playing in the cows right away and then the cows like stop for a minute they

[00:14:11] look back and they started like getting interested into the music you know what I'm saying so I

[00:14:15] think like that shit is really music is really special and music emits frequencies and yes

[00:14:21] and if everything is energy you know energy can't be created or destroyed so I think a lot of stuff

[00:14:27] like music and things like that is really important and it's uh it's not really known about a lot

[00:14:33] like the underneath with music really is you know like people who don't really know that music is

[00:14:40] like mind control you know if you listen if if if it can influence your emotions oh yeah

[00:14:46] then isn't that a form of mind control well stimulating something's influencing your emotions

[00:14:52] so if I'm wrapping about killing people and in like drugs and hose like I do speak about that but

[00:15:02] I use it in a way of like reflection you know as a way to look at my life but I don't use it as

[00:15:08] something that's cool so I think the people who use it as something and think that is cool

[00:15:13] have never done it that part or they really it's either like they they haven't done it

[00:15:17] in their trunac like they've done it or there are people really who have done it you know

[00:15:21] and it's like it's taken away from the authentic people who are doing like that

[00:15:26] and it's just it's almost glorifying some of the negative things that happen within that

[00:15:30] community and when it comes down to the mind control part when you're driving about this

[00:15:34] shit all day what do you think you're gonna attract you know if the energy is like the laws

[00:15:38] of the universe yeah you apply that to what you're doing in your life and you all you think is

[00:15:43] rap bitches money gun sex hose you're gonna have like you're gonna have that in your life

[00:15:48] absolutely it's because you're attracting it yeah but we allow our life we invite more of and

[00:15:52] you know quote that's on my Facebook is where focus goes energy flows and that's what you're

[00:15:56] constantly affirming essentially that's where that energy's going yeah that's really so by

[00:16:01] me we've seen that in the rap community for a long time I mean I think there's there's so many

[00:16:05] talented artists out there that can be so many in this city too yeah Denver's got a lot of great

[00:16:09] musicians a lot of great you know artists that we've been fortunate up to to get to know and kind

[00:16:12] of learn about where the music scenes going and I like to always ask a lot of these local creators

[00:16:16] because you guys are in and I'm not I'm just sitting here on the outside looking in what have you

[00:16:19] seen over the last two three years as far as where the Denver music scenes had it um I've seen

[00:16:23] a lot of you night like a lot of uh I like hearing that yeah so um there's these people named the

[00:16:28] shredders you know a lot of before I started rapping in the city I used to look up to like

[00:16:33] half of these people who are in this group and um yeah I used to look up to them and uh

[00:16:39] like I'm not lost myself again right there right there the shredders um local local music

[00:16:45] people coming together yeah yeah um yeah everyone's uniting and I think it's really special because

[00:16:50] like you have artists who are who you wouldn't think would work together and they're working together

[00:16:55] you know well my miles is coming up with some new fresh sounds too oh yeah definitely like

[00:16:59] himself like I was impressed with that yeah I was in I was enjoying hearing that yeah I love miles

[00:17:04] I love Danny I think I watched the half the podcast though with Danny yeah that one was pretty cool

[00:17:10] that's pretty he's right and ask our gear I was blown away yeah I was like oh yeah yeah no that

[00:17:14] was awesome bro I love that podcast and the last one you did with the 90s kid life right oh yeah

[00:17:19] nice kid for life yeah I watched some of that but I didn't get to finish it yeah I mean look

[00:17:24] I got so much discussion like like these are these are long format it shows but yeah

[00:17:28] but it's you don't get to know people in 10 minutes you don't get to know people in the quick

[00:17:34] 20 30 minutes like this show almost has to just be an hour long because we bring people in you know

[00:17:41] you're more comfortable this time because we know each other we work with each other a couple times

[00:17:44] yeah but like on that first visit that first guest appearance like it takes like 30 40 minutes for

[00:17:49] people to like warm up and then the juice actually starts happening yeah see I came here I was

[00:17:53] like I got some juice but I'm gonna try to like get the juice out you know I'm saying about the

[00:17:58] confidence the most confident person and I'm a little shy you know so I love doing these

[00:18:03] look because it helps me like break my barrier and get my opinion out and I like to hear that

[00:18:07] people's opinion so I love doing this that's why I come over here oh yeah show love you know I'm saying

[00:18:13] always yep and repetitions of mother skill the more time do you shit like this you get better at it

[00:18:18] yep easier when we first started we were like what do we even talk about you know and now it's

[00:18:22] like man we're saying it out you know I'm shooting shit getting to know people yeah it's great

[00:18:25] I love it I love it we know we have an ability to bring people on let them tell their story that

[00:18:30] there maybe their viewers can tune in only know your music or whatever now we can get to know AGM

[00:18:34] on a different level yeah it's pretty lit yeah it's the it's the human experience you know and a lot

[00:18:41] of people are missing out on this like I've read blogs about you know people who work from home

[00:18:47] or if you were a student and you had to study from home and you weren't around people as much

[00:18:52] and you know you're kind of just being secluded it takes a toll and like how use how you're

[00:18:59] considering this kind of practice opening up you know getting out there you know this is just we're

[00:19:03] just we're just having a conversation like in and like that's the thing is people are they feel

[00:19:09] uncomfortable talking and I say naturally talking naturally because like everyone feels comfortable

[00:19:17] sending the tags yeah that's true yeah no go ahead it's been more of that honestly too and go more

[00:19:23] that uh the years keep going it's like if you guys heard of the Apple Vision Pro that just came out

[00:19:27] yeah it's like people are FaceTime and on that now it's like you could see the whole world in front

[00:19:32] of you but like you could literally have someone on FaceTime while you're skateboarding like you

[00:19:37] could see them but you know what you're doing you know I think that's awesome but the more we get

[00:19:41] older I think the more it's gonna be hard for people to express theirself also because of like

[00:19:47] you said it's so easy to text people so easy to call people and I think that makes people a little

[00:19:51] bit less confident in real life when they're talking to like having a human experience you know

[00:19:57] so absolutely shh I mean by any means I think that people all could get do it though it's just

[00:20:03] a human thing yeah yeah they have to learn to get through and I think it's gonna become like a trend

[00:20:08] again to put the phones down and have these kind of real conversations I really do I think it's

[00:20:13] become a thing you know where people are doing it and enjoying those experiences you know you go

[00:20:17] to a concert now and most people are living that concert through their phone yeah that look like

[00:20:21] if I am gonna take a video of the concert in Mac because I do like to do that I'll try to like move

[00:20:26] it out of the way so I'm still filming it but I want to see it still with my own I want to experience

[00:20:29] that moment right now um the last concert I went to I think I went to little skies little skies

[00:20:34] the rapper uh moment to go check him out and I didn't record nothing because at the time I had this

[00:20:39] phone and this phone is like broken like the camera don't work so I honestly kind of glad that it

[00:20:45] didn't work because like you said during row time you kind of like notice more than you would

[00:20:50] with the camera it's just like in a better it's a human experience you know like human

[00:20:55] human experiences out um shines just being alone you know and I think that people being alone they

[00:21:03] don't really see that which is okay though being alone is perfectly fine sometimes you need to be

[00:21:07] in your solitude to conserve your energy but also at the same time you gotta know that we're all

[00:21:12] on this planet together and it we're here to communicate and spread love like yeah without we

[00:21:17] got vocal boxes for a reason you know so it's like why not use it to spread love and the positivity part

[00:21:23] I agree I agree 100% everyone's kind of gifted with different ways to do that through music through

[00:21:28] you know our podcast through whatever you know so people do it in different ways but I agree

[00:21:33] I'd like to see you know some of the younger you know demographic get a little bit more into

[00:21:37] being in the moment and having those social experiences because I think it's great tools to be able to

[00:21:41] have like Google Meet and FaceTime and Snapchat that's fun you can still do that like in between

[00:21:45] the hangouts but there's always something like you take away from you know whether it's going out

[00:21:49] to a dinner with your buddies or taking your girlfriend out or whatever and not looking at your phone

[00:21:53] and just being in that moment and enjoying the meal and taking in the ambiance yeah that's the good

[00:21:57] stuff definitely definitely that's what it's all about sometimes though so kind of play devils

[00:22:03] advocate on that so so I've been doing the five-second rule for probably coming up on two years now

[00:22:10] and what that is is that when my intuition tells me that I need to do something I'll act on that

[00:22:16] within three to five seconds before before I talk myself out of it right because normally we try

[00:22:22] to talk ourselves out of doing a lot of the things right so I've been like doing this three to five

[00:22:26] second life and I have had so many fun experiences that like almost like four nights out the week

[00:22:34] three nights out of the week every single week for months like I'm having a blast sometimes you

[00:22:39] forget what the fuck you've actually already done no because you just been having fun so like

[00:22:44] so like having an occasional video having an occasional picture on that night just so you could

[00:22:49] like remember it a little bit that's I had a lot of value to me because sometimes I'll go through

[00:22:52] my gallery and I looked around like oh shit yeah that night and that's so much fun but so there's

[00:22:58] like that fine line like I think it's okay to capture stuff but you have to still be in the moment kind

[00:23:04] of like what Kevin Kevin Kevin's holding it over here he's still in the moment even though he's

[00:23:07] capturing it right you know you can't make it all about just taking pictures the whole time right

[00:23:12] there's no right a wrong way to do it there's like there's like that that fine line yeah yeah

[00:23:15] and whatever works for you works for you if you know I just I find I have a more enjoyable night

[00:23:19] being in that moment it's like that was so much fun not having to look at your phone and

[00:23:23] I think we had a guest on from the Denver to generous podcast he referred to it as like a binky yeah

[00:23:27] I don't like you know our phones become a binky that comfort like yeah something that take your you know

[00:23:32] that's honestly that's how it is when I have it in my hand sometimes I'm like all right

[00:23:36] who got my binky yeah I got my little satisfaction I guess like it's always there it's an

[00:23:41] instant relief for boredom yeah which is something that we didn't grow up with yeah we didn't have

[00:23:47] that because we're old farts definitely I think that also gives you a better advantage to like when

[00:23:51] it comes to expressing yourself and being able to hold a conversation like sometimes I can now hold

[00:23:55] a fucking conversation it's hard yeah I'll get I will but then I'll like slowly like drift off from

[00:24:01] it and then I'll like get lost so when I'm talking about you know I think it's all the weed I be

[00:24:06] smoking out of the audience probably have something to do with it it could it definitely could I

[00:24:10] smoke a lot of weed yeah um I'm gonna I'm gonna do my best to uh one shit whenever I put it on

[00:24:16] on the pod it's a little bit more likely to happen but I am going to calm down with smoking flower

[00:24:22] nice I'll go ahead and make a commitment right now for the rest of this month I'm not going

[00:24:27] to smoke any more flower uh just addibles yeah do some addables all dabble with some

[00:24:31] addibles still though I think that low key the the flower is what helped me stop drinking yeah

[00:24:37] I could see it was something to lean on you know it didn't really my relationships were

[00:24:42] fucking up when I was drinking all the time and when I was smoking I just noticed that like

[00:24:48] calm me down I was in a better mood I didn't really need like feel like I need to do something um

[00:24:54] yeah just marijuana helped as a as a crutch for me to stop drinking a lot I know a lot of guys

[00:25:00] that got up who's you know using I mean good friends of mine that are in their 40s now got

[00:25:05] off marijuana or got off alcohol because of marijuana yeah that they substitute one for the other

[00:25:09] it just became you know okay it's five o'clock instead of grabbing a beer maybe smoke a joint

[00:25:14] you know whatever whatever works for for the individual for me it's like I think I could probably

[00:25:19] use that a little bit as I go into because I call it sobriety for a year but I'm still gonna

[00:25:23] I'm probably gonna use some THC and you know probably some mushrooms and things like that

[00:25:27] light doses though yeah I think the THC will help you a lot just because that's what it did for me

[00:25:32] you know um especially when I would smoke I noticed it would take my mind off the alcohol

[00:25:37] because when I was that first week I was like fuck I'm jittery honestly I got so drunk the last

[00:25:43] time I was shaking the next day after I was like yeah I was like I can't do this shit no more I

[00:25:48] was like look at myself I'm like my room's all fucked up I'm like I'm getting nowhere with this

[00:25:53] shit so I'm like I just had to like look at myself as ugly perspective and like not really

[00:26:00] want to be that ugly anymore you know they're saying just just because me I overdid it when I would

[00:26:04] drink and that it was bad yeah so like you reached your level of like disappointment with yourself

[00:26:11] where you're like I'm sick of being disappointed with myself I swear that's the turning point

[00:26:16] because that was for me with like opiates and shit like that too or it's just like

[00:26:20] like okay I know I'm doing something wrong but I keep allowing myself to do it like at some point

[00:26:26] you're gonna start getting disappointed in yourself and when you're sick of disappointing yourself

[00:26:31] that's when you actually make a change right yeah so it's interesting to hear that it's a

[00:26:35] consistent story on how I feel how you felt like I bet you it's across the board on that yeah

[00:26:41] definitely that's why I'm talking about it because I know people probably feel the same way

[00:26:45] and so with these tools probably next next week when you guys do drop this I'm probably gonna grab

[00:26:52] a few shorts and clips and throw them on my tiktok and people relate to that shit yeah they just

[00:26:59] they see the clip and they like start resonating relating and they like you know I think that a

[00:27:04] tiktok is very great to get yourself out for sure like I didn't really know how to use it at first

[00:27:09] but now I'm starting to get like how certain creators are doing it and I'm like oh shit he did it

[00:27:15] like this I can do it just like you know get myself out there easily like they do I've been hearing

[00:27:20] a lot of that here recently even with 90s kid on last week yeah he literally hit 300k followers

[00:27:25] in the middle of the episode and I was I was viewing all that I was like he's got a huge

[00:27:30] falling for sure he's very humble about it yeah and we learned a lot about that even though he has

[00:27:35] 3.1 million followers it doesn't really equate to what we all think it does and he kind of broke

[00:27:39] that down I would encourage viewers to go back to that but like definitely gonna have to go watch

[00:27:42] you know it's like just because he's at 3 million he's like I'm still working the day job you know

[00:27:46] stuff like that I heard multiple people feel like like a like people who've made it that we think

[00:27:51] like we see these celebrities they say like they still feel like they're chasing to make it yeah

[00:27:55] they're still trying to make it and I think that that never goes away in people like we're always hungry

[00:28:00] to the hunger for more yeah always to satisfy our hunger you know what I'm saying like yeah the race

[00:28:05] is never over you know these racing terms I mean there isn't really I mean there I guess there is

[00:28:08] a finished line of racing but life is is that's it I mean there is no you just you keep going

[00:28:14] sky's not the limit there is no limit you keep going honestly yeah I'm kind of getting to this

[00:28:21] and I guess I'm segwaying here a little bit into like more spiritual talk but how you're saying

[00:28:27] and I agree energy is not create it's it's always and it's just passed along and like the energy

[00:28:32] that we feel when we compose music was something energy that we felt that we're now sharing

[00:28:37] we didn't create that energy so like I agree with that whole mindset on it so

[00:28:42] I almost think like reincarnation could really be a thing oh yeah I'm like starting to lean toward

[00:28:49] that that's I think that's like the main push within spiritualality is the belief that like

[00:28:55] we've honestly been here before as well like so and that we've recarnated into this life and

[00:29:01] I believe that is there's so much information about it and people could go look it up and like

[00:29:07] go see for theirself but it's like that intuition that you have sometimes I think to myself like

[00:29:13] what if that's our past lives knowledge and like our past like our soul is like in us and like

[00:29:19] our body is just like a car yeah we're just driving it so I think that yeah maybe the reincarnation

[00:29:26] could be real because that intuition could maybe it don't come from nowhere you know well and

[00:29:31] there's like an energy like physically what we're made of technically is like stardust right because

[00:29:38] we eat our mother's eat and that's how we form from the food that grows on this planet and then

[00:29:44] we form in our mother's bellies and so physically what we're made of has always been around in

[00:29:50] another shape or form right but there's like this mental energy that I've always been curious about

[00:29:56] like and I believe in ghosts and stuff like that too and like paranormal stuff and but it's like

[00:30:01] where does that mental energy go and like so I haven't read books on this but I've been hanging

[00:30:07] with people that have and they said there's like seven dimensions to like your soul and that

[00:30:14] in this plane right now like the physical plane I don't know what is it the third I think that's

[00:30:18] the physical yeah 3d third dimension of things but like yeah so like our soul could be in other

[00:30:24] dimensions like just because there if we if reincarnation existed and our our soul has been

[00:30:31] in different entities before like just because if I die right now as Arthur it doesn't mean that my

[00:30:36] energy and soul is gonna go right into something else it might go into another one of these

[00:30:40] planes of dimension and then it might come back to the living world in another shape

[00:30:44] so it's I don't know enough I know I have to get interested in yeah that's why I think like almost

[00:30:51] as if like a female is womb is like a portal because okay like that's crazy to think about right

[00:30:56] yeah but it's like we spawn in the womb you know like we're created in the female and yeah

[00:31:04] it's like it's crazy I would like I would like to think that all of our female listeners would

[00:31:09] like to agree that your womb is a portal yes I mean essentially is you know and that's a whole

[00:31:14] rabbit hole in itself babies when it comes to genders and stuff which we won't get too deep into

[00:31:19] I personally there's only two genders that's that's my opinion and take care like we're not

[00:31:23] gonna get too deep into this however that's just like I'm just saying just this can open up a whole

[00:31:28] channel where those people look at you know people will go crazy people get pissed man yeah that's why

[00:31:33] I really watch what I say what certain things like that too because I also have like trend I have

[00:31:37] a trend gender because you know that's what a trend transition from female to male and so it's

[00:31:44] like like I really don't discriminate people for who they are like personally I believe like biology

[00:31:51] is biology you know but like I will never like discriminate someone for how they feel so my cousin

[00:31:58] yeah so maybe like if reincarnation is a real thing like maybe somebody who has that conflict

[00:32:05] was the opposite gender and the past life and maybe that's why I feel like they're yeah maybe

[00:32:12] that's why the conflict exists yeah it's getting deep now I mean I mean like it could be possible

[00:32:19] it's hard to say there's no I don't think there's a like a way we can definitively say this is the

[00:32:22] answer no like we don't we don't even know where our dreams come from you know I was ever since I

[00:32:29] stopped drinking I've been having the craziest dreams ever like my friend that I haven't seen

[00:32:34] in like five years his name is Sergio I'm on earth if he's watching it if you watch it you an

[00:32:40] asshole for not texting me like now I love you hope you're doing good but I had I just recently

[00:32:44] had this dream about him and like we're like an eighth grade but I'm a grown-ass man now you know

[00:32:48] haven't seen him in like six five years it feels like so I haven't seen him as a grown man

[00:32:53] and the last time I like I guess I had the in this dream we're like an eighth grade because our

[00:32:59] voices were squeaky you know okay and I just ever since I stopped drinking them vivid dreams come

[00:33:03] it's like it's crazy um yeah last last year I lost my grandma okay so it's like so crazy with

[00:33:11] the spirituality thing you know it's like you could feel that like my grandma passed I woke up

[00:33:17] and then her body was just you know still there I couldn't pick her up yet they let people say

[00:33:22] they're goodbyes and stuff but that night I went back to sleep after she passed

[00:33:27] and then like I kept having these vivid dreams like I don't remember him I'm trying to remember

[00:33:31] like it's good to write your dreams down you know yeah like right away and it blows you away when

[00:33:35] you actually like remember him and write him down but yeah like I just kept having these crazy

[00:33:40] dreams waking up out of nowhere you know like it's just was your grandma was she in the dreams um

[00:33:47] not necessarily it was more of like just like waking up like like something kept trying to wake me up

[00:33:53] you know it was like I don't know it was weird definitely but I think going through all that

[00:33:58] shit last year seeing death like in your eyes that makes you like value life more and that's why

[00:34:03] the drinking you know like when I would drink I get so emotional start crying in my room

[00:34:09] along you know and um like

[00:34:15] oh no you're good man um no it can be a lot though like it's like you're doing it by yourself

[00:34:22] yeah you just want to be better for yourself like it just made me want to be better for myself

[00:34:27] and like like I wanted to die like people want to die you know when they drink they get so emotional

[00:34:31] you want to die but now it's like I'm in the point of my life where it's like hey it's like I'm alive

[00:34:37] you know it's kind of not bad to live it's kind of like it's lit to be alive and everyone wants

[00:34:42] I see that so much now especially with the type of music um that was coming up in this past

[00:34:46] year there was so much depressing music I'm not sure if you heard of low-peep ex ex ex ex

[00:34:51] entacion but it was like those frequencies that are coming out for kids you know you know the

[00:34:56] music is for to help them get through it but it also does impact them so I think that a part of

[00:35:01] my generation wanted to die for a little because of the the influence impact of everything

[00:35:06] that was going on and I said fuck that I was like I want to live like I love life life is valuable

[00:35:13] like you only have because we don't know what's after it could be spirituality it could be like

[00:35:17] the reincarnation of the spirituality but honestly we really don't know what is there so like if

[00:35:22] all we have is one and if we can create many human experiences and like enjoy that shit while

[00:35:29] we're here because we're like being alive is a gift I thank God every day for waking up

[00:35:35] and I'm just every day like even some shit goes wrong I'm like I'm thankful fuck it you know

[00:35:40] yeah and this is all we have one life right now one life that we're experiencing so why not

[00:35:47] be good to ourselves you know loving to yourself instead of telling yourself these negative things

[00:35:53] or tearing your liver apart you know yeah yeah no it's crazy from from my experience

[00:36:03] like okay so I'll go back to when I was justifying consumption of drugs whatever it is

[00:36:11] booze pills whatever the fuck drugs I was like doing that because it made me feel good right and

[00:36:19] I was doing it more because it made me feel better yeah but like after a certain amount of time

[00:36:25] like it didn't it was doing the opposite and then after acknowledging that and taking that time

[00:36:33] to get off of it right because like there's always that moment when like you get off of something

[00:36:38] where it sucks like it's just sucks yeah you're changing what you're doing with your body

[00:36:43] and like you do you have to deal with that shitty moment but then after you get through that like

[00:36:48] I started looking at the clouds differently yeah I started breathing air differently like and then

[00:36:54] all of a sudden like letting go of these weights like brought all this light into my life and then

[00:37:01] like I'm so thankful and it's just like you know even with my usage of THC like I kind of look at

[00:37:08] that like you know what what am I running from like why do I need to what am I enhancing by doing

[00:37:15] that you know so like once you start knocking it out and then you start seeing more light then more

[00:37:19] light comes in and it's like you know what you're just letting the light shine and you're like yeah I'll

[00:37:24] let it shine I'll let it be sunny you know well now I used to be in this place where it was like

[00:37:30] you know I'm always probably gonna want to get down on something but now I'm getting more to a

[00:37:35] place where it's like you know maybe I just don't want to do anything and I'll actually find true

[00:37:40] happiness and like by just being myself but you have to like okay so earlier you're saying there's

[00:37:46] that importance to being solo like you being alone like I agree with that definitely we need

[00:37:53] to have that self-love relationship in order to recognize that we're disappointing ourselves to

[00:37:59] actually make a change yeah you know so it's like you have to do that on your own and everyone's

[00:38:05] everyone's uh everyone has to walk that path on their own and it's gonna look it's gonna look

[00:38:09] different for everybody definitely it's it's hard for some other people it's easier for some

[00:38:13] other people you know but like when you actually get that clarity uh and it comes out of nowhere

[00:38:19] just like because you never find that clarity you know and to like it just comes in your headwind

[00:38:23] day or just like it's a nice fucking day like the birds are outside um it's sunny as fuck outside um

[00:38:31] it's nice like life is lit you know it's not it's all about also how we perceive things like our

[00:38:37] perspective like if I have a negative perspective every day then my like my world is gonna be

[00:38:42] my perception is gonna be it's gonna like perpetuate that yeah and it's gonna impact my world and

[00:38:46] I'm gonna have arguments in this and that but I want to say it's really hard though for some people

[00:38:51] to stay positive like um relationships like it's it's just uh it becomes more difficult and

[00:39:00] complex because now when you're in a relationship you also have to look out for the other

[00:39:05] persons like uh feelings and emotions you know and maybe you already had your emotions figured

[00:39:10] out you're less emotional than this emotional person but this emotional person is kind of

[00:39:14] fucking with your emotions and it's like energy just scatters around you know so that I think

[00:39:18] that's that's true the solitude uh being alone and having that to get do it yourself

[00:39:24] it just proves to yourself that you can do it and um this proves to yourself that like you love

[00:39:29] yourself man like you're on the right track for yourself and you feel better for yourself you know

[00:39:34] that's what it was for me yeah I agree with a lot of what was said for sure and it does look different

[00:39:38] for everybody you know everyone's got a different battle a different hand that they're dealt some

[00:39:41] people don't have friends and family and there's a lot of contributing factors but one thing that

[00:39:45] I think stays consistent is there's no one that's gonna be able to do it by ourselves you know I

[00:39:49] know a lot of folks turn to religion or they try to focus on a relationship they're always looking

[00:39:53] outward for something else to validate or bring them something rather than looking inward and going

[00:39:57] well what can I do yeah I control myself I mean that's that's what I've seen for the most part

[00:40:02] and that again I think that's why people do cling to relationships and seeking that outside

[00:40:06] validation through social media or I need somebody I need somebody no you really just need yourself

[00:40:11] you gotta look within yeah um also that's what I started giving more to myself ever since

[00:40:16] to stop the drinking is um giving more love to myself good like I said like wanting to die and then

[00:40:22] now going to wanting to die to wanting to be alive and hearing the birds and not being mad at the

[00:40:27] birds and like chirping or something you know yeah I think that's very relatable I remember when I

[00:40:32] would drink and I'd be in my mode and I'd stay up all night I hear the birds chirping I'm like

[00:40:37] fuck they're already going off that's how I know I fucked up for the night yeah it's

[00:40:41] for 30 a.m. like what am I doing yeah I'm all singing honest I love singing when I get like a little

[00:40:48] yeah wavy you know that's my thing but I'll just stay in my room put on some music and I'll just

[00:40:54] scream singing scream sing and I'm saying well the birds are chirping yeah everyone on the

[00:41:00] block probably mad at me because I'm screaming and it's freaking singing hmm sometimes you just

[00:41:05] gotta let loose though I do that I do that frequently you know it's midnight I'm 10 beers in

[00:41:10] I got Metallica going I'm jumping around here guitar and you know sometimes you just gotta get

[00:41:13] that out you know yeah perform like you know somebody is watching see those moments also I would

[00:41:18] think to myself like I can't have that singing moment when I'm like um when I'm sober but

[00:41:24] recently like I started getting that feeling that euphoria from the music without the drinking you

[00:41:31] know yeah it's just the only thing I see that I'm struggling with is I'm boring as fuck like

[00:41:37] I'm really boring when it comes to like me not drinking anymore I feel like a old man or something

[00:41:42] what do you think I boring like I really don't like doing much like I said ever since I turned 21

[00:41:47] I haven't even been to a bar you know haven't been to a club haven't been to a I've been to a few

[00:41:51] smoke shops I've been to a few dispose that was what I really wanted to do from my birthday I was

[00:41:55] hitting the expo but like I don't know just I'd rather be at home eating some McDonald's watching

[00:42:01] some movies or playing the game you know I was speaking in games I actually finished right day two

[00:42:06] okay I want a great game yeah honestly really good where I was like damn start crying look I

[00:42:11] look he teared up on oh no I'm with it I was about to say that's a good movie I was about to say

[00:42:15] thanks it's like a movie man it's like a movie that games a journey yeah honestly I was thinking

[00:42:20] about this I would love to do music like some type of rap music for a for a game like have you

[00:42:25] uh I've never heard of Fallout yeah yeah yeah I would they have this radio right they have old

[00:42:31] classical music so I was thinking like I'll be dope as fuck to get like put a rap music or like

[00:42:36] DLC or something around rap or something you know that would be lit I'd love to do music for

[00:42:41] um for video games or something there's probably a huge market for that there has to be so many

[00:42:44] video game companies out there doesn't have to be some of the big five yeah it could be like a lower

[00:42:49] lower tier game or something just get your music out get that exposure and even a little bit

[00:42:52] hills I've been hearing about the GTA 6 radio station okay a lot of artists are trying to get on there

[00:42:56] of course so so so much and I'm like I don't even know how to start to get there like you got it

[00:43:03] I think oh it's like one of those things you gotta know some of that knows some of that knows rock star

[00:43:06] and has the connects and things like that but what doesn't mean it can't happen I mean obviously we

[00:43:10] saw the GTA 6 trailer come out with Tom Petty so kind of set the set the bar I love Tom Petty

[00:43:15] I mean just one of my favorites honestly I've never done petty until then and I

[00:43:18] yeah that was really people I felt really bad about because I was like this is awesome there's a lot

[00:43:22] of him yeah and that's what I said too when when I saw that trailer I said I'm so happy for Tom

[00:43:26] Petty because and I love Tom Petty he's the reason I played guitar he got me into jammin

[00:43:31] saw him at Red Rocks 2008 tremendous and I was like I was so happy for him and his family

[00:43:36] when rock star decided to use that as the trailer song because I'm like there's a whole new generation

[00:43:41] that just found his music yeah it's such good music I don't know if you've listened a lot of other

[00:43:44] Tom Petty but it's all good I've listened to like a like do you know he's total like stoner type of artist

[00:43:48] you know I didn't know that like last dance of Mary Jane one more time to kill the pain yeah

[00:43:57] so good I mean he's trying to get that Cali vibe like what he just showing the beach and take it in

[00:44:03] right now petty's gonna do it but no I feel you on like the the boredom thing okay because here

[00:44:11] but here's the thing is like it's all a perspective because because you're you're actually

[00:44:17] doing what a centered people do is like you're doing what you want to do what you're comfortable doing

[00:44:25] and like one thing that I learned like with the booze is like I can have just as much fun as people get

[00:44:30] drunk not drinking yeah like like and honestly all you have to do is just dance a little bit like

[00:44:35] like if I'm if I'm showing and everybody's in there and I'll just start doing this

[00:44:39] like they're gonna think I'm having a good time they're gonna and I'm not drinking anything though yeah

[00:44:43] so it's interesting because it can be fun to drink and it can be entertaining social you get

[00:44:50] a little buzzed up you know that that is that can be fun and then when you eliminate that like

[00:44:55] you're you're stuck in this mental plane like even even doing marijuana like I don't really

[00:44:59] fluctuate off my thought process or like how I feel because I do it every day right so it's not

[00:45:04] like I'm getting like mega baked right so you kind of have to just get used to being in this

[00:45:09] like new plane of thought and like it's it's like a new reality yeah and it could get mundane

[00:45:15] I it can easily get mundane if you're not like doing your best to recognize how much better it was

[00:45:24] than when you were disappointed in self you have to keep like looking back to remind yourself like

[00:45:28] ah no even though on board right now I might seem a little mundane right now but like

[00:45:33] this is way better than where I was that when I was I was all fucked up like I think it's like

[00:45:37] like just noticing the moment you know like uh noticing it like being able to be okay which is like

[00:45:44] um not being and not not drinking in like being okay with that you know yeah and socially

[00:45:51] because like I know like my mom she struggles with drinking a lot and so that's when one thing

[00:45:56] she goes she um when she socializes she'll have a little drink you know but um when it comes

[00:46:03] down to it it is just like observing yourself and noticing that you're fine just how you are you know

[00:46:09] I'm saying yeah and I think that looks different for everybody because again there is those people

[00:46:12] that can have a few during the cerebral and then not drink all year you know and it's just like

[00:46:16] that moderation is key but for the folks that do have a problem with it yeah you know and that

[00:46:20] need it every day what I've noticed is folks that get off of whether it's drugs alcohol whatever

[00:46:25] is yeah that energy goes somewhere else whether that's sex addiction sugar food fitness like that

[00:46:31] you're still craving that dopamine you need that dopamine for somewhere and a lot of folks do go

[00:46:35] to the fitness route which is good I think right you're treating your body right I think there's

[00:46:38] like the best route someone could go sure yeah if you're gonna take that somewhere fitness is

[00:46:42] probably the way to go but even that then becomes the obsession oh yeah we're gonna work out all

[00:46:46] the time you gotta come to the gym then you gotta come to gym right then you gotta fucked up joints

[00:46:50] and then all of a sudden heart problems because you push yourself too hard I heard this thing where it's

[00:46:54] like you know how some guys who are chubby like me I'll go look in the mirror and I'll be like

[00:46:58] fuck I'm chubby or like you know I need to get a little bit skinnier won't eat for a little bit

[00:47:02] there's some guys who get so big like and then they go look in the mirror and they're like I'm not

[00:47:08] big enough I need to go oh yeah body some more than I'm saying so I think that's the body this

[00:47:12] morph is yeah that's real when it comes to like the addiction it's like it could transfer onto

[00:47:18] something else and form as another addictive thing and it's like our it's hard because we don't

[00:47:25] even notice we're doing it we just do it you know and then we're just like we end up liking it

[00:47:29] liking it a little bit too much now we're kind of like sprung off the chemical dopamine or

[00:47:36] the satisfaction it gives us you know it's definitely the dopamine for sure does something

[00:47:39] of the brain that we're looking for and smelling salts might be one of those things that I get addicted to

[00:47:44] we'll see I've only been doing it during the podcast you do you want to do it now let's do it

[00:47:48] it will be my first time let's do it so this will be the third week in a row we've been

[00:47:51] broken yeah this is yep smelling salts wake up it's owned by Johnny's four-time bodybuilding

[00:47:57] champ and a fighter shows amazing things over there and other products too it's not just smelling

[00:48:02] salty does vitamins all kinds of things but okay let's have him do it first are you okay yeah

[00:48:06] you want to do a first all right so you want to give it a shake Kevin already shook it up so what

[00:48:10] you're gonna want to do just go in you know gradually and then just kind of a slow hit all right yeah

[00:48:16] is it going to hit like my brain like it's just it's got my eyes water a little bit yeah that's

[00:48:21] shit right see I don't don't do it like like really hard maybe do the slow sniff slow sniff

[00:48:27] there it is oh I see it now it kind of wakes you up a little bit I see it now that I see why they do

[00:48:42] it home yeah yeah now that you know what to expect it just kind of it's kind of wakes you up these

[00:48:49] powerlifts do it man before they lift it feels like they put like icy hot in your nose or

[00:48:53] okay that's a good that's a good that's good last week he just described it as a that's

[00:48:58] smell of dead rodents you see it smells like icy hot I've heard it describe like when you jump

[00:49:02] in the pool yeah chlorine yeah that's what I feel like yeah it felt like I'm champion and all

[00:49:08] the pens have how to have the draft of the room is going to like you might be like right here

[00:49:13] and not get any or you might be here and just get it all yeah sometimes it like really it gets

[00:49:17] too hard my eyes starts watering but again anything I think you don't want to smell this all day

[00:49:21] you hit it a couple times it gives you a quick jolt supposed to increase alertness and consciousness

[00:49:25] I can see that because let's say I would definitely do that like well I well I wake up in the morning

[00:49:30] oh yeah cleaning you know that'll it'll it'll give you a jolt yeah definitely like someone's

[00:49:34] like an energy drink yep wait the f up yep yeah that's right good stuff yep that is good stuff

[00:49:41] yeah man I mean you know we talked addiction we talked a lot of good you know this has been a

[00:49:45] good conversation man pretty deep so this is a good conversation people need to hear about of course

[00:49:49] so where we headed now I mean with what's the journey looking like for 24 with the music with

[00:49:54] whatever you got planned got you so 2024 is all about me stepping into my creative direction too

[00:50:00] like I said you know so a part of me is just like I really want to step into my art history

[00:50:08] so meaning like artist artist artistry okay so meaning that is like before I was making all this

[00:50:16] music that like resonates with people you know and I was making music specifically to resonate to

[00:50:21] people but now I want to make music for myself so a great person on a podcast I was watching was

[00:50:28] you guys know Rick Rubin is saw as watching Rick Rubin and he was telling he was basically saying

[00:50:34] like when you make art for yourself oh sorry when you're making art in creating it for yourself

[00:50:40] it ends up being for everybody else in the world and people end up relating to it 10 times more

[00:50:45] so I'm like I want to I want to do that with people you know so I really want to sit there and

[00:50:52] I don't want to like I just I want to take my time you know so people people are always rushing

[00:50:57] theirself I want to sit here and make some good quality artist artistry music that impacts people

[00:51:05] as feelings their mind their soul and yeah that's what I want to do this year um I definitely made

[00:51:13] like lots of songs already I just haven't been able to record them for certain reasons you know um

[00:51:20] it's just hard out here you know like being a local artist there's some producers who don't give

[00:51:24] a fuck about you like there's some producers who will literally laugh at you while they're recording

[00:51:30] you talk shit about you and your music wow while they're working while you're paying them talking

[00:51:35] to other people and you're paid they don't give a fuck about you bro they just care about your money

[00:51:39] yeah wow so it's like I'm trying to find good relationships with people who are genuine you know

[00:51:44] and that's what I'm looking for um I was a part of the Exodus thing but like you know part of me

[00:51:50] just wanted to do my own thing you know so tired of uh I've been with people for a long time like

[00:51:56] I've been with certain people for since they were recording in a fucking house you know in a

[00:52:01] fucking closet and it's like all right I could do this shit myself it's not that hard like I've been

[00:52:06] basically doing it myself you know so I mean when I got this I got this itch too to to make music

[00:52:15] and like rehash article again that was like my my rap alias was article yeah and like you were

[00:52:20] telling me about that and like so I bought like the midi device I see I already have the software to

[00:52:26] record it logic studios that's like the biggest purchase for for anything so that way you can

[00:52:31] actually make beats and instrumentals where I get held up is I am not a keyboardist I'm not good

[00:52:38] on the keys and and I really want to learn keys because then I feel like because with the boom

[00:52:43] baps like I can make good instrumentals with boom baps and all the snares and all the shit but like

[00:52:47] the second it comes to like the actual harmony I could hum it like I know what I want it to sound

[00:52:52] like but I don't know what those notes are or the keys yeah so if I could transpose my humming

[00:52:58] into actual piano notes then I feel like I would be making some hot instrumentals and like

[00:53:05] to be an artist that is like having a hard time finding a genuine people to work with or help you

[00:53:12] create what you want to create sometimes you just got to do that self-investment and say fuck

[00:53:16] everybody else and like let me just let me just start learning and that's how record companies are

[00:53:21] anyway like they're you don't ever get signed being like oh yeah I have bars I can spit freestyle

[00:53:27] like I'm good lyric lyrically they're like great there's a thousand good lyric like are you

[00:53:31] a package deal like they want people to be a package deal and then at that point is it even like

[00:53:37] worth being signed to a label or are you making the music to express you know there's so many layers

[00:53:41] to look how tech did yeah yeah yeah yeah tech nine was straight you know he basically said I'm

[00:53:46] gonna do my own way you know you know what was the quote that he put out you know tech will never

[00:53:50] go mainstream mainstream go tech and that's exactly what that's all thinking like why not great

[00:53:54] mountain label like because I have people who make beats and people who send me beats and I have

[00:53:59] my good friends who make rap music so it's like well I'm not just great my own label

[00:54:04] and like have certain people under it but honestly it's easier saying it than doing it you know

[00:54:10] it's a lot of work and I think that's why I saw a part of me has just been winging it you know

[00:54:15] just going to go make some good ass music and then sending it to everybody I think the last song

[00:54:21] I released was last year it's called PTSD and I was aiming at mental health yeah that was going

[00:54:26] yeah I really I just wanted to express what I had inside and get that shit out you know I'm saying

[00:54:32] I know that people have PTSD and I got that shit like crazy sometimes like there'd be mad triggers like

[00:54:40] I'm sorry this story one time my good friend like shot himself in the arm and I was like

[00:54:45] fuck you know but the gun the sound of the gunshot like the ringing like when you hear like a loud noise

[00:54:52] like that shit's like a trigger you know but that's the main reason why I wanted to make this

[00:54:57] wrong because I know people have probably have worser mental problems in me you know yeah

[00:55:03] yeah just giving a nod to it for sure because it is there's a lot of mental health out there that we

[00:55:06] don't even know what's happening you know it's probably happening in this building right now and

[00:55:09] the people around us and that's why it's good like you know we kind of open up with the treat everyone

[00:55:13] with love and respect and you know you just never know what someone's going through after grocery

[00:55:16] store and someone's like you know rated off themselves maybe you're just saying hey man hope you're

[00:55:20] having a good day and that could change the whole course of the day or even sharing your story about

[00:55:25] how you were feeling suicidal and like your turnaround maybe somebody's like drinking their emotions

[00:55:30] away right now and then hearing that on this podcast gives him the power you know like and that's

[00:55:35] what that's why I always like to talk about overcoming opiates and and this month actually marks three

[00:55:39] years for me off of fucking off a shitty yeah for sure in pain killers yeah I'll get emotional

[00:55:46] talking about that shit but it's important to put it out there because life is trying to kill us

[00:55:54] since we're born and then like with the mental clarity that I have now like being more sober than

[00:56:00] than I was in the past like I kind of got this big ass chip on my shoulder I'm kind of like

[00:56:04] you know fuck all this shit fuck all the the companies putting all this extra sugar into all the

[00:56:10] food and to try to promote cancer to generate in my body and this healthcare system to give me

[00:56:15] lifelong hooked on fucking pharmaceuticals and like people naysayin and talking shit because their

[00:56:20] life is shitty and like maybe cuz I'm doing good they want to pull me down like it is trying to get

[00:56:26] us and like we have to be resilient and it's like I don't know I'm getting to a point where I'm kind of

[00:56:31] like fucked in noise you know I'm gonna keep it authentic and real with people who kept it real

[00:56:37] with me and I'm gonna share my story and hopefully that that like gives somebody else the strength to

[00:56:41] be like you know what fuck this shit yeah you know I'm gonna do it my fucking way yeah and like

[00:56:48] it's so crucial man and anyone can do it and like what Kev's talking about and like what you're

[00:56:53] talking about is like yeah if you eliminate something then sometimes other things come in as long as

[00:56:58] those things aren't as bad as what you're leaving and that's okay you can do a little worse and

[00:57:03] do a little bit better and then do a little bit better until you're doing really good right like

[00:57:06] it there is no immediate turnaround like turnkey fucking system to bettering your life it's an

[00:57:12] everyday yeah every single fucking day marathons not a spread yeah yeah yeah sir that's why

[00:57:18] that's why I really like napsy else a lot it's because his message the marathon you know it's like

[00:57:23] life is is a marathon you know it's like you're writing constantly and shit and you're trying to

[00:57:29] make it to the finish line but there's no finish line sometimes you know it's just always a constant

[00:57:34] sometimes you'll get to a little stopping point but it's never ending it's um it's continuous

[00:57:39] so yeah I definitely understand then I feel that a lot always more to do always more to be had for

[00:57:45] sure it's never over the battle continues which is also a great segue into our question that we

[00:57:49] ask every guest of course the answer to last time we'll see what's changed if you can offer one

[00:57:54] piece of advice to humanity if everybody heard this could be better off tomorrow what would that

[00:57:58] piece of advice be love yo self you know i'm saying I say this because if you love yourself then you

[00:58:06] you would honestly treat yourself like like you're you're significant other you know like love

[00:58:12] yourself nurture yourself make sure you're you're healthy you got to take um good care of your

[00:58:19] mental health like you uh pressure teeth you know it's just like brushing your teeth it's how

[00:58:22] yourself good things all the time make sure your teeth is clean though for show but um just make

[00:58:28] sure you love yourself and be really be kind to yourself because stop beating yourself up like

[00:58:34] we're all human and we only get so much done and we can only do so much so love yourself and stay

[00:58:41] focused marathon continues it don't end gotta stay strong you could get through anything you could

[00:58:47] get through you're stronger than your habits and your negative habits and love each other in

[00:58:54] life most of all love yourself yes it's great advice no that's that's crucial and it really does

[00:58:59] it ties into you know what we've been talking about out I didn't know where this conversation was

[00:59:04] gonna go today I didn't realize that you were um making those kind of uh personal strides and

[00:59:09] personal health and bettering yourself man so i'm so excited for you um and until like see

[00:59:15] what kind of music comes from that and like to see what 2024 brings um since we're kind of on

[00:59:21] that theme for me it's uh this year I really want to just recognize that I have everything I need

[00:59:28] appreciate what I have and and then like work on accumulating and saving more wealth in my life

[00:59:33] because I know that I I overspend on stuff that like meals and like maybe clothes or something like

[00:59:38] she was like shit I don't need like I don't need the stuff so they're dimensional things but

[00:59:42] focusing that I'm focusing on myself and I'm loving myself in order to be honest with myself about

[00:59:47] that so to to heat to your advice yes sir yep it's gonna be hell of a year yeah for me I think it's

[00:59:53] gonna be going towards my ultimate goal of controlling my time and money yeah and just trying

[00:59:57] to take control of that because no one's gonna do it for me I gotta do it myself so where in the

[01:00:01] driver's seat let's go let's grab a clutch and grab a gear yeah I feel it I love it love it so

[01:00:07] where can everybody check you out we'll leave all that in the show notes is where but uh as well

[01:00:12] but where would you like everybody to go gosh you can check me out all platforms you can check

[01:00:16] me out on youtube as well I I prefer youtube because it's like the most way I could grow for myself

[01:00:22] organically but um check me out I'm a GM ghetto kid a GM and all caps ghetto kids spelled normally

[01:00:29] I'm a rap artist from Denver Colorado just trying to make good music and spread love you know

[01:00:37] love it excellent in like art said just scroll down below we'll get you in touch with a GM

[01:00:42] ghetto kid all that stuff will be down there for easy clicking convenience for sure great episode man

[01:00:46] thanks for being here well cheers one last time before we get out here on the snowy Saturday

[01:00:50] glad to have you in the wheelhouse man we've had a couple episodes now uh we'll check in

[01:00:54] about a year so and see see where everyone's at man you know looking forward to continuing to see

[01:00:58] all of this bro and supporting the stem of music scene wishing you continued success of course

[01:01:02] and we're gonna get on out here man you're on your way to New Orleans so yeah we'll see you on

[01:01:06] happy friday of course next week oh yeah be good to yourself you deserve it believe in a chief baby