[00:00:00] This podcast is Power by The Plug. And that's what I got. Alright, Joel, so thank you for coming in the studio today. I'm just again very honored that you all wanted to even part take and I'm just going to let you all have the mic for a second.
[00:00:53] Just talk about, you know, or introduce yourself and how it was just spirit today. I'm back, I'm here this morning and my spirit is good because I'm here with you Dani. I was so thankful that you asked us to be happy with you. So, you'll be friends.
[00:01:10] I love you. I love you. My name is Bree. This is my mom. I love you. Feeling good today. Good friend. Good day. This is a good day and you're coming off of a work week already and you're first first. Okay. Pretty good work. Oh, honey. Yeah. Okay.
[00:01:35] I understand, but once you get that first paycheck it's going to be worth it. Oh, I know. I'm so excited. Okay. Good. So basically why I wanted to have you all in here is because your relationship as nurture and young
[00:01:49] one or parental and in many ways you learn from your daughter too. So, it's just, let me give a little backstory actually. Okay. Here's a little backstory. I had entered the little modeling realm about a year ago, a little over a year. I think now. Yeah.
[00:02:08] And y'all were the first people I met coming in and we're just so kind and ethereal and just pleasant to me that I was like, I headed in my head that that world was like really mean and that I wasn't going to fit in because, hmm, that's me.
[00:02:24] But y'all just embraced me and loved on me and encouraged me and then we just took some time to get where we're at now and then you keep sending promptings like you should try this. You should try that and we've been in a couple shows together now.
[00:02:40] And so just speaking to that experience of how I've gotten a witness y'all's magic as well as the experience that it is to be in a nurturing relationship like y'all have, which is something that I didn't have when I was younger.
[00:02:55] So in a sense you could say that I'm living by caracely through you all in that, you know. And so I just wanted to give honor to that y'all are just very, very sweet and ethereal creatures quite honestly.
[00:03:09] And you are, because I remember first thing you did was get up and hug me and ask me how my spirit was and it was. So I went and take, yes from the very first time I met you. And you are very nurturing to me, to breathe.
[00:03:30] To everyone around you, you really are, you never found that from your mother and it breaks my heart. But um, you doctor me. Well thank you for having me. I love you too. Look at us doing the things.
[00:03:46] And it's, and so just in that too as you know the young soul that I see you just, and I don't mean young and like an age is a way ever.
[00:03:56] I hope that you know that it's more of like, but it's more of just like honoring the curiosity that your spirit is and the wonder that you have behind it even though that the world is kind of throwing things at you at times.
[00:04:09] Whether it's judgment for the aesthetic of a being that you are and how you effortlessly move. But in that there's still anxieties and things like that, and I see that you walk into a room and you're very mindful of your energy and you're very aware of everybody else's.
[00:04:24] And it's just a really phenomenal thing to witness so much power in such a young soul.
[00:04:32] And I just really want to applaud you for that because I didn't, I didn't know how to exist the way that you're existing as yourself and it gives me a lot of encouragement and I feel a lot of nurture in it too.
[00:04:43] So I guess what I wanted to, what I want to say because I always like starting off with this is what is something that you would tell and I know yes you, you young but even your younger self.
[00:04:57] What would your younger self actually, what would your younger self say to you like your single digit self? What would they say to the person that's sitting on the mic today? I think they would be really proud. Yeah. Yeah.
[00:05:11] Because when I'm younger, I, I, I'm not think I get this far. I don't know. That's beautiful. And you're honoring that young space. That's really beautiful friend. I'm joking. No, you're doing this is beautiful. Thank you for sharing that.
[00:05:26] And so is it okay if I, if I ask was there a pivotal moment, you know, within that space where you were like, Oh man, this is different. I'm going to live in some sort of dream state if you will to be where I'm at.
[00:05:44] Was there a pivotal space that you realized your power? I think it just kind of like built up. Okay. You're good. And then, you know, now you're here. Yeah, you've learned lessons. You've grown from, yeah, you've just become a better, a good person, Brianna. This is so beautiful.
[00:06:08] See? This is the representation we need. We need. We all make mistakes and we're not perfect. You're not perfect. You're never going to be perfect. But you're growing and you're changing. Yeah. And it's brilliantly done. You're doing a great job, honey. Thanks. You're welcome.
[00:06:28] We'll take the heat off for you for a second. I think that's beautiful. It's a safe space too. Yeah, good. I love this space. I've cried so many times on this mic. We just give it a little bit of a dab. It's a little dab.
[00:06:46] And so, back up. Yes. What would your younger single digit self say to this version that's sitting in this chair today? Mm-hmm. Wow. It's a hard question. It is a hard question. It gives us a moment to reflect. I mean, I... I'm... I am... My younger self. Danny.
[00:07:19] Just like high school years. Well, just no. I mean, just that... That I'm... Because I... I had the most amazing mom. Mm-hmm. And... Yeah. I just... I think I just want to be... Make her proud. So I... I feel like I am making her cry. Absolutely.
[00:07:43] I'm so blue on the friend. And... I love this so much. I... Because my mom was so amazing. Um... So my younger son, I just... Really looked up to my mom and I... Uh... Just that... I mean, my younger self would be proud. Beautiful. I'm... Yeah.
[00:08:09] And you're not like... You didn't just make your mom proud. You're still... You're in that continuation. Yeah. I mean, I think... For instance, there's many ways that, you know, we encapsulate these really beautiful moments of the brilliance of our caretakers and our nurturers.
[00:08:27] And so it's not a surprise that these emotions come out because it's gratitude. You know, it was just sitting like, oh my god, my younger self is here right now. Like how often do we reflect that point?
[00:08:38] You know, even my younger self from like getting home last night at 330. So right now, I'm like, I'm proud of you, honey. You made it here. But those really profound moments, you know, I think sometimes with, you know, the human experiencing having so many traumatic life events.
[00:08:54] It's hard for us to reflect on the space that like, oh gosh, like, I was... I'm allowed to be proud. I'm allowed to be proud that I'm here today. Yeah.
[00:09:04] And I think that, you know, with all of the powers that be at times, we don't take that all into consideration that self care is also self reflection for that younger baby. And ourselves.
[00:09:15] Because many times we go into this parallel and we are, if you will like almost repenting ourselves with what we've learned now.
[00:09:23] And you'll be experiencing this already as you go because you're nurturing yourself through these instances where, you know, maybe it's giving your mama's so nurture in lessons that maybe you didn't have or tools that you have now that she didn't have before.
[00:09:38] And so the representation there is just so insanely brilliant. And I don't think that we give ourselves enough time to pause in that because of the powers that be in this consumeristic way of like, we don't have time.
[00:09:52] Our time is so consumed that we don't even give ourselves a break to honor every version of our self. Whether that version was making a mistake or whether that version was getting to the accolades we never really even saw that we could get to, you know?
[00:10:07] Yeah, sure, yeah. So just in this really brilliant journey I, I just, I don't know seeing your y'all's relationship and the support is not again a representation that I had as a young person.
[00:10:21] And so to see this, this care and again I want it to be known that I don't just see it from like mother to daughter I see it from daughter to mother.
[00:10:30] And the ability to see come on in this, this is beautiful in that's where this earnest he comes in like sure we're still going to hide things from ourselves.
[00:10:42] So we're not going to tell our parents at times but once we grow from that space we know we have a safe safe place to return to share what that journey was.
[00:10:53] And so to have that, that communication is so key and a lot more people look up to you than I think that y'all realize.
[00:11:01] And there's a really big effect that you've had on me that I have quite honestly been able to heal different versions of myself that felt without.
[00:11:11] And I wasn't without I've just been able to get myself some time to go back and say hey I'm nurturing you in this parallel and so you've given me that insight. So this thank you. We're doing it.
[00:11:26] And back on grandma, you even know that like she lives through you and you and her like she you're a reflection of her.
[00:11:34] Baby, I'm going to love and treat people that you don't even know is so grandma and like she's she was always proud of you she still is. Thank you. Wow and hence being proud of you. That's come on.
[00:11:49] Sure, I mean she's still a teenager or she's a big snort. I mean all of us are at some point. I mean I still in. She sometimes it's like we're like siblings and we just like go out. Yeah. Oh, love that though. She is my rock really.
[00:12:10] She is you are my rock. Especially recently you know I mean yeah that's so beautiful. So speaking to all of the the brilliance I just want to know.
[00:12:25] Since I met you in the modeling realm what inspired you or what brought you to a place that you wanted to like in essence for myself it's like I wanted to like cause play myself if you will.
[00:12:38] Like I didn't know how to be a model or that's like still like a weird thing to me like a modeling I'm just out here like serving face. Like what made you want to get?
[00:12:48] Yeah like or even if you didn't really know you know that oh this is like what I want to do but what initially attracted you to that space.
[00:12:56] I used to get bullied like really bad for like how tall I am and like my weight she not bullied last night. Oh but that girl had no place in the park anyways. She got bullied for the way she looks. Okay but yeah keep going. I get it.
[00:13:15] And that's a really bother meeting more. It did when I was younger but I grown so much from it and I think that's why I like the modeling community is because everyone's just so different. Yeah. Like we are all completely different.
[00:13:26] And we're still you know we're all model. Yeah. It was really great. It was great. Okay. I mean I mean we were all grandma I really it was really grandma but like she is so tall she needs to be proud of the way that she looks.
[00:13:43] That's really brilliant. Yeah. Grandma got you into modeling and this flew us to LA. Wow okay so you had that experience. Yeah. Okay it didn't like necessarily start locally it was like no okay. I took classes here and then I went with like my group to okay. Okay.
[00:14:06] I am T.A. Okay. There I want model of the year so I think she's just to start off. Yeah it was like only a few months into even knowing what fashion is. I was never really like liked fashion. I didn't know anything about it.
[00:14:21] Yeah after that I was just like I think I have something. Yeah I know I have something and I'm still waiting for that like time to like show it all. We're slowly getting there and I want to give it up. That's so beautiful.
[00:14:35] And so in the community of modeling I think that there's a big misconception at times simply because I grew up watching like America's top model or next top model.
[00:14:47] And I just remember I liked it for the entertainment but in reality I was like living by caracelift through like the bully portion where a lot of those judges were bullies.
[00:14:56] And like come for me if you want to but like that shit was brutal just witnessing and I was like who would ever want to be in that world to basically be told you need to look completely different than you are.
[00:15:08] Your look is unique but we're going to actually put the stamp of approval on you and I was like God that just seems like another underlying bullying way.
[00:15:17] And so I saw things like that. I've never really watched like to be super honest like I would say fashion. I don't know big names. I could walk by somebody and they're like I'm so on a tello.
[00:15:28] I don't know Michelangelo or the indigerturtele. I have no idea but being in that realm the people that I've met behind the scenes, the encourages, the folks that are just like you know I don't really know what I'm doing either but I'm here.
[00:15:43] And so just to speak to the modeling community that I've experienced in Denver. It's been really really positive across the board and as a community I feel like there's a protection there too.
[00:15:54] Like don't mess with my models or you know just like not really like a negative ownership but just like this is our community and we're working really hard to be different than these.
[00:16:04] Top tier companies that could make people feel less than we're building something from the ground here and you're a huge part of that. I would not have gone to another to be super honest.
[00:16:15] I wouldn't have gone to another experience had it not been for cultural runway for one shout out to shout out. Shout out come on they were incredible and just that was my first experience.
[00:16:27] I got paid which is like not something that you experience because it's a very exploitive industry. I got paid I met so much community it got me a job right out of that. I had no idea what I was even doing.
[00:16:41] Which is awesome you know because I think people like that earnestly too but then even the models that I was meeting are like oh my gosh like I've seen you you work at this place or I've seen you over here you know and it's so.
[00:16:55] It didn't feel as intimidating I guess you could say so for you Brianna what was like one of the most intimidating factors that kind of had you like questioning the magic of yourself.
[00:17:09] Well I think like model the modeling community here I think it's like two sided I think it's people that want to do it or there's just people that are in it just because like they're forced to like by their parents.
[00:17:21] I don't know I just feel like I do it because like I want to do it like even if I'm not getting paid you guys want to do it but I do think there's a really negative side to modeling. Yeah also can be very positive. I love that.
[00:17:35] Because there's been a few things I'm not calling people out but there's been a few times I'm just like I'm not going to have to treat someone.
[00:17:44] Right and so when you're speaking to the treatment is that mainly coming from production side or style it or designer side both. I mean there's so many great people and then there's also just people there's more great there's a few that are yeah.
[00:18:02] Yeah but I think in Denver here I think I really think anybody could be a model and I think like it's a real. Yeah yeah I've rean it doesn't make something or if you didn't make something.
[00:18:17] It's not because you're not beautiful or you don't know how to walk or whatever. That's the hard work. You have to realize it's not that you're not great it's not what they need for that show right or they have like an idea of what they're going for.
[00:18:34] And sometimes we don't you know we're not everybody's got the teeth or a look but they're still gonna take us. Yeah when I was going to reject it. Yeah and it was like kill end of the world.
[00:18:45] I've never doing this can I was like oh yes you are. Yeah and she did and she's been rejected many times since then and then your some designers absolute favorites I may want you forever show because you're pleasant to work with.
[00:19:02] So you are you're just you I don't say you go with the flow negatively you do advocate for yourself and even if you don't vocally say it your energy lets you know like this is uncomfortable.
[00:19:14] And because of the designers we've gotten a work with or you've gotten a work with they kind of because they tune into your energy because it's not just about the aesthetic it's also the energy you put out while you're being photographed.
[00:19:25] They I believe that there are designers that really work with you like are you uncomfortable.
[00:19:30] I've had instances across the board I'm not seasoned yet but I've seen you handle it with really amazing grace and poise when you've been in something that maybe could be awkward and you just re adjust.
[00:19:42] You recalibrate and you self regulate which is something that I think a lot of models.
[00:19:49] Mental health from models is a plus and a need because there's a lot of scrutiny there and then you have to surf face on the camera not only your eyes on you but you also have to hit the your mark.
[00:20:01] And make that impression because we live in the social media realm that we do now and it's like everything is highlighted.
[00:20:08] You're being seen from every angle and again you both do it with poise and elegance and a way that I think a lot of folks would have breakdowns, you know and not that that's bad. It's just you understand that you just got to get through the moment.
[00:20:24] So I guess in that too as a parent what is something that you've witnessed that has been very difficult for you to witness within this journey with Brianna being a model. Or has there been any difficult instances or you've been able.
[00:20:41] I've been a lot, but I mean, I have seen models whisper about Brianna and point to her and roll their eyes and I don't tell her because I don't want it to bring her spirit down right.
[00:21:01] But it just it that breaks my heart because I'm like why girls. I don't really want to be so beautiful on outside why are we lovely on the inside you should be. I mean for the most part everybody is still uplifting and help.
[00:21:13] Yeah, there's a lot more positive that I've just seen like girls not or models not being very nice to other models.
[00:21:22] I don't I there have been a few times where she's the one who has refused to walk because they want it let me be there as your support as a poor exactly. Just for the fact that I mean she's a very famous teenager. She was 15 years old.
[00:21:43] Yeah, can be very dangerous like you need to be smart. I mean, I'm so with you. No thank you for that advice. I've seen some young ones come in even myself like knowing that y'all will be there.
[00:21:55] My partner doesn't live here so I'm like babe, I'm going here because you don't know. You know we in an industry where we want opportunity people are also opportunistic and whether that is for Good advantage of the curiosity and absolutely.
[00:22:11] And that's scary and even though I'm like older I see it happening or I see you know maybe models that are super new to it where they kind of behave in a certain way thinking that that will get them more but it just raises a different curiosity
[00:22:27] And you know kind of like you said it can be scary and so a word of advice brings someone with you if you're going to be in the. Yeah, no don't yeah exactly and if it sounds too good to be true it's not true I promise. Absolutely.
[00:22:42] But a few times where we'll get emails like saying it's like such a high paying job. And then we'll send it to Nicky and she's like no okay. Yeah, yeah it's weird people are just like I have no idea really. I don't know this sounds great.
[00:22:57] Like hey they're flying us out to LA. Yeah, and none of that exists. Okay so again even circling back to like the representation I had of the modeling world being like America's top model and then you know I didn't perceive myself as.
[00:23:15] Model material because everything was so you know poised and rigid and I was like I am such a dork. Is my dork in scoundrel?
[00:23:24] I like is there a place for me in that you know and I think that I had to kind of become like a different version of myself and like cause play myself you know.
[00:23:36] And that's again shout out to cultural runway had I not had that first experience and I had like the an experience that I had not too long ago I would have never done it again ever.
[00:23:45] Because the pressure can be really great especially for events where the only form of payment is exposure.
[00:23:57] So when you are in instances like that the exploitation from designer to make up artists to you know to model to everything people break down and I've seen it you know to where like okay we've been here for 10 hours.
[00:24:13] And people you know I've seen designers like want to walk away and they're out you know in a frustrating way or models that are just like are we going to be fed or there like there's not even a compensation of food at times and so you kind of learn along the way like how to advocate for yourself for one by bringing someone with you that can nurture you and nourish you.
[00:24:41] But then you start learning okay I need to bring snacks I need to bring these things so that I you know the less that we have in our systems the more anxiety we get and then we just go with the flow in a negative way and we don't know how to advocate for ourselves so.
[00:24:57] You all do such a brilliant job and not only do you do it for each other you do it for the groups. Well that's up and I want to go back to your modeling you. Okay I am that I guess.
[00:25:09] I mean you are natural I mean really I see you really are like like that the last the two this you. Oh yeah the cool and you click the quick. So nervous about the heels oh my god that was walking them. Oh like I would be so.
[00:25:29] You look amazing like he was never going to not just say I promise you I'm not just saying that you look amazing and it's also just like the energy you bring with you.
[00:25:39] And then it's like this big thing like just positive energy when you walk into the room or like. I forgot which show was but you were running late and everyone was like where's Danny? Oh my god. Do you know how loved you are?
[00:25:53] Yeah I don't remember and I'm like Danny everyone's like where's Danny? But I'm just kidding. And then when you guys talk about like the different being on the runway and it's your what you're wearing the different look. Yeah you can bring it different energy.
[00:26:13] Yeah and when I always I always try and get videos and pictures of you or you. When this is amazing because I usually don't have like outside support and you all have become that for me. And I wish I could do it for every model.
[00:26:28] Oh yeah I do it for a lot. You do it for everybody loves you all for that reason. What you just want. I'm like flying she like goes and talks to everyone. I'm like I'm not. Where's your mom? I'll take your video. I'm not sure guys.
[00:26:44] I love her mom. I'm not sure. I just want to love it. But for you Becca, I want to know what has it been like.
[00:26:54] You know in a sense we do live by carries through the moments where our you know we're proud of our offspring or friends or the spaces that we nurture in the community.
[00:27:08] Where have you found like your niche in it? Are you feeling like do you ever want to be manager or do you ever like that protective piece or do you find that there are ways that you have to step in at times to be more of an advocate not just for Brianna but for other models in the realm better there.
[00:27:31] I just I love it so much. I love everything about it so I
[00:27:37] I will always stick up for any model and but I like if anyone ever needs help I just want to help you know that's what I really I love helping and I will step in I mean one show I will do your own production. Yeah I'm dead serious.
[00:27:55] You've been asking for the next things really amazing. I love you do. I just want things to run smoothly and I want the models to feel it's not rushed I don't with you guys. You know because it's scary. I walked and I'm everyone's like you did so good.
[00:28:14] Thank you but I'm not a model. You guys are not. I do too. I see it with my own eyes. I see it. Yes. I see it. I need the confidence. I do the acting or real. I promise. I'm proud of myself. I do. I love it.
[00:28:32] When you I want you like let's get your outfits changed really quick and yeah sure you're perfect make sure your tags are in I and you know I love what I do. I've looked everything. I do.
[00:28:43] I just try my heart and I just want everyone to be the models to feel the best that they can. Yeah because that it's the scariest thing I've ever done in my life. They say oh you're just walking down. Girl just walking no no no no no.
[00:28:57] Oh I shake every time still my hands are trembling but then I get out and it's like that first turn you know and then I'm like okay I know I stood there for five seconds and my head it was like 0. Like blue blue and bam. You know.
[00:29:10] So you look so nervous but I all 99.9% of the time everyone is amazing. I just I wish models were more positive about themselves you know. Isn't that an interesting dichotomy? Because I'm like guys are also beautiful. Right. Handsome or you know.
[00:29:30] Yeah so I just I just love giving you encouragement and making. Well it encourages us to like if it wasn't. Yeah if it wasn't for you like. There were times and again where I'm living by carries leads through this relationship.
[00:29:47] Especially at this last show the cultural runway and you were right there when we came out and it was like the best thing to see. Like before I walked and turned and was like okay don't trip don't trip and then you're just like rooting for us.
[00:29:59] You got the camera out and I was like okay my people are here. I am doing this it's already happening in another parallel. We're screaming about how amazing we just did.
[00:30:09] You know and so if I didn't have those instances and again I do have like support but like you all are very intentionally there and present know what it takes. And so at the end of the night when we're doing that walk after eight hours.
[00:30:23] That encouragement at that last second and you and Robert so good at that because Rob you know as we're sitting there he's like you got this I've been seeing you you out here you know.
[00:30:32] And she had to was Robert Shannon who sat me there and I was thank you. Yeah because I loved everyone and not having any of the models. It was great. Every time the productions incredible too and the locations that day choose. That was really good.
[00:30:50] I really like that was a fun one. And Dan you're my your like your my baby you're my baby. No, no, no, no. I have someone's been. I got to make you feel good.
[00:31:01] Well thank you you do a great job so speaking to that because y'all in a couple weeks. I'm going to turn 40 and this is a big big birthday for me. And so look at what they did y'all look. Yay! Oh, they brought you. Because you are so special.
[00:31:24] And we love you and I want you to feel special. Oh my feel like hand card y'all. How am I supposed to exist right now? Oh, I'm sorry. Grace like can you move that? You're just you. I want you to feel I love you so much.
[00:31:44] You need to know your special not just me. I need a new way. This is so incredible and I'm getting a gift. Should I get it? Yes, okay. Let's get um yeah open your mouth. Okay. We're doing this. She's got three star special.
[00:32:01] No, no, well the top one is home. I'm just telling you. I mean so beautifully right now. Yeah. Oh my god.
[00:32:09] I would tell my younger self right now is literally screaming because the way that birthdays were celebrated in my realm were just like a gaslighting way for later to be like we did all this for you.
[00:32:26] You know, and it's like it's been really hard for me to receive gifts. And so I'm really working on this right now. Thank you. All right, we're so welcome. Oh god, oh god, here we go. Let's see. Oh my goodness. You had decorate everything. What was my birthday?
[00:32:44] It's my birthday. Before I decided to say it's hey, I love you know we keep the stuff out of the land. I'm sure everything has a meaning behind it. You're not by narrowness. I know. Y'all do you know how much I love wearing these in my little suit?
[00:32:59] They would be sitting in a box forever and be some pretty. You see, and you I love you so. And I don't mean to seem like rude. I want to pop on everything though. We're going to keep it. Oh my god. And then. These I don't.
[00:33:19] Why do I have to? That would be so cool. Like a shirt. Absolutely. I've been on the tack on it. So it's not me. Okay. Thank you. You all don't even know how I fuck with Doily's okay? Shit. Thank you. Thank you so much. I read it. Okay.
[00:33:37] My voice just gets like, I hate it. Oh, you have to be a what I'm about to create with this. Thank you. So excited. Thank you all so much. You got more. We got more. Okay.
[00:33:50] So in this again, my younger self is going to do the name where I'm ripping up. And opening instead of saving that damn paper. I love the paper. I want to give honor. Oh my god. Here we go. What else? We got everything else. It's amazing.
[00:34:05] Because your self is flowers. Yeah. Feed the squirrels. And if you leave me some live and it's. Oh my. Oh. Oh. Oh, my god. I love you. Thank you. Yes. This is so special. Thank you. Just a tiny little wonder out here is what we are. This is.
[00:34:32] Okay. Rip it up. Rip it up. And then make a little more eyes. She might grab out or my aunt, they made it together. And um, no, it's. We have so many and I love them. They're so special. But you are so special to me. So. You.
[00:34:51] I think it's a big. It's a baby blanket, but you're my Danny baby. So you get it. Thank you. And we had to pick that one. I actually picked a different one out. It was just really special. I think you're. Yeah. I mean they're all special. Yeah.
[00:35:13] You're special. You're very special. Yeah. Danny. Thank you so much. I just. It's. It's. I really hope you know how much we love you and. Oh, you're so special to us. We're so thankful for you. Thank you. And we're. We're. We're. You. When we spent the day together.
[00:35:42] Yeah. You and I. I just got to know. I had her and I was like, oh, yes. This is so precious. You know, it's really wild too. Was that because of all of the adventuring I've had becoming this version of self.
[00:35:59] I don't have anything from when I was a kid. Oh, yeah. I've like a couple of photos. Like the smallest stack of photos. I don't have, you know, any. Thing to remind me sometimes that I used to be little. And you were a baby.
[00:36:18] And yeah, you know, so. Thank you so much. Thank you, friend. I love you. You're so special. This is what love is about. It is. Wow. So. Wow. Yeah. Yeah, this is like the representation I always needed. I didn't have like.
[00:36:47] The ability or the want to look up to anything because life seems really bleak. And I know that like 40 such a milestone. But I feel like, whoa, I'm like just beginning on a new version. Like I've shed so much.
[00:37:04] Even in the last six months, the Palin drum and which I'm moving, which is so much quicker. It's like, whoa, like I'm here now way faster than I thought. You know, like and I didn't even know that. Here would have so much love.
[00:37:18] I thought it was going to be traumatic always. You know, like, is the suffering just to always kind of exist? Mm-hmm. And sometimes that secret suffering because we want to advocate for our younger selves and be like, If they're watching, you're doing it still.
[00:37:35] You know, so thank you. I am so lucky to have had the mother that I, and I know you didn't. But I know I'm three years old as a new one. I love you on a, I'm gonna love you like you should be loved. Thank you. Okay.
[00:37:56] Thank you too. You're doing something you do. And this, it's only beginning. It is. You know, I'm kind of feeling that like, yeah, you know, we're all on this precipice right now. And I don't feel like I was even telling Isabelle yesterday,
[00:38:12] like how I've shifted even like my friend group. Mm-hmm. And I was like, I've been wanting to be wholesome for so damn long. Like where are my wholesome friendships that aren't like party or sit around and gossip?
[00:38:25] And I'm gonna be honest, I fall into that sometimes where I enable that space or I become a safe space for people to talk nonsense. And I'm like, I don't even want to do that. I want to enhance each other's joy and enhance the human experience of that.
[00:38:40] And I want to take accountability for that version of self that allowed and created space for that. And now I'm like, no, I'm not anymore. And so a lot of folks that were more, you know, like, I thought we're going to be lifers.
[00:38:54] And now I'm here and I'm like, this is it. This is that wholesome shit that I've been wanting high-haul life. And we're gonna do this and I'm, we're gonna metal detect on your property to find antiques. Yeah, so they're not across the creek to the little trails.
[00:39:10] Even like, I know we're gonna do it. I want to do that so bad. Just like in grandma's yard too. Yes, okay, when we have problems with each other, if anything bothers, we have to use our voice. To be chubby. Yeah, so I'm gonna do that.
[00:39:26] Now to our two, two, each other. Yeah. And we're gonna do that. You are not wrong. I mean, we all do that. But I mean, I'm trying to make it. I'm trying to be very aware of it. For you, for you, for my other friends that I had.
[00:39:43] Front rail wall. Yeah, I can't wait to tell you about her. I have excited to learn more. Yeah, so I just want to be a good person. Well, and love people that love me. That's what like, I love you. And that's all you things around you.
[00:39:59] I just want to say, now I have two role models. I mean, grandma also, I always looked up to her. I always said, I want to be like her and I'm so. I always want to be like you. And now I got you. I don't feel like you.
[00:40:16] So they don't think you for that. I don't know what that means to me right now because, again, the space of my younger self looking at myself having someone who I think is so brilliant. At your age telling me that I'm a role model. Honey, thank you.
[00:40:32] You are. No, I know the art. Danny, like I can see it like you were pushed to the side. Told you were still, like, crazy or severe. Yeah, you are. I mean, it's so like, yeah, like, but I'm not that in a negative way.
[00:40:57] You're that in the most positive beautiful way ever. And I feel so lucky to call you my friend. You're, I am weird. It's so much. You every time you text us, it's like, Danny thinks. I can't. I can't. My videos are my favorite. Like, yeah.
[00:41:15] My little spazzy videos. I can't help it. I think you all are much. I'm just kidding. It's really good to see that there's got to be a smile. And it's, I think you're watching you in love. I love seeing you in love. I guess you're in love.
[00:41:31] I love and you love. Isabel. I don't even know her, but she has to be amazing. She is incredible. I'm so insane. I'm like, what a little, this is my life now. For her to be okay with you loving other people. And yeah. You know what I mean?
[00:41:53] Because your love is different. Yeah. You don't want to meet. Absolutely. And that's always been like a tough space for me. Yep. Which we still navigate because there's instances where, you know, just how we identify words like protective. Like she's very protective, but not in a controlling way.
[00:42:11] She's protective of like, hey, take a second to analyze where your energy is going. You know, and it's not all about her. It's about me preserving myself in many ways. And she just really advocates for that. And she does it across the board.
[00:42:25] So it's really fun, you know, where I've shared stories before. And she's like, okay, just protect yourself. Make sure, you know, and she's never discouraging. But then, you know, when I'm getting this share about she all she's like, this is a door. Oh, you know.
[00:42:37] And I guess so. So in order, I guess like in a wrapping up way since we unwrapped the gas. Since we've been sitting here for a spell and we're hearing the magic from each other about each other.
[00:42:55] Bri, I wanted to ask you now that you sat in this chair for a second. What is? You're like, oh wait, wait once second. What is? What would you now, because you had your self, your younger self, just talk to yourself.
[00:43:14] Now that you've been in this chair for a second, what would this version of yourself say to your younger self? There is love all around. It's not only in family. There's actually really nice people on this world. And you'll find that out completely. You'll find them.
[00:43:36] It's just going to take a little bit. So it was a hard journey, but we're here. We are big. Yeah. Something for you. You, everyone. Proud of you. My friends. I know. This is beautiful. I think that's what I'm saying. Okay. All right. Okay.
[00:44:00] She's not what I'm not. What would you, what would you as you are right now say to your younger self? Now. It's going to be okay. It's going to be okay. Go easy on her mom. Yeah. Go. Don't get so annoyed with her younger younger. Yeah.
[00:44:32] But just show the people that you love. Let them make sure they know that you love them in every thing you do and your actions and your words and gifts anything. Just make sure that just be mindful about showing the people you love that you really love them.
[00:44:59] That's so beautiful. Yeah. This has been like one of the most emotionally charging in the best way episodes I've gotten to do with such a thing. We did it. I needed it. This has just been so incredible and so again, just to speak quickly just to the representation
[00:45:22] that we have. I think systematically we've always looked at this dynamic of a family having to exist from the coming from the millennials that we are that it needs to look a certain way and granted,
[00:45:36] we were parented by folks that were parented as though children should be seen and not heard. And so we're understanding that the curiosity and the wonder behind the youth youthful self
[00:45:50] and taking more time to appreciate the parallels that we're in and honoring where we've been to where we are now and giving our younger self praise, giving our younger self nurture and not denying that part of ourselves. And granted it's going to be fucking difficult.
[00:46:10] It's hard to turn around and be like, you are so worthy when you found yourself in a little bit of a role or found yourself like maybe not on the ideal path that you saw yourself going.
[00:46:21] But just to honor this space as we have today, the amount of love that I've just been shown I'm still working on the receiving that. It's crazy right now. But to just be in a space of acknowledging that and that you all allowed me to give you honor
[00:46:38] and say like y'all are y'all are too that I look up to a lot and the relationship that you have regardless of how much you annoy each other. Regardless of how much, you know, the roles can just feel difficult because there's the best friend aspect.
[00:46:54] There's the nurture, there's the guidance and there's like I want to do what I want to do but all along advocating for the voice. And you both advocate for each other and it's really brilliantly done
[00:47:06] and it gives a lot of people permission to heal the version of self where they felt neglect or they felt abandonment and it's very, very palpable so thank you. I love you. I love you. You're welcome. We are.
[00:47:22] So just with that being said y'all thank you so much for tuning in. Again, I never do these episodes as a way of like creating foam all but it's also creating it's to create awareness to take a little bit more time and focus on what is around you
[00:47:39] and to continue cultivating the relationship with yourself so that you can further advocate and become more aware of your surroundings and what is nurturing you and what is a lesson. I don't really like sitting in a space of like okay, we've made like a mistake.
[00:47:56] Like the purpose is to make a mistake. The purpose is to learn from things that felt really difficult or things that maybe we didn't have all the tools to navigate. But because of us giving ourselves grace and giving ourselves compassion within the suffering that we've endured,
[00:48:13] it allows us to open up a vernacular a bit more if you will and put some cream on those emotional stretch marks and nourish our spirit if you will.
[00:48:27] So with that all being said, it's not to be here in a toxic way of encouragement but to just really showcase that this is the peculiar folks that I've come into the countenance of that I get to grow with on this journey now and I'm so very grateful.
[00:48:42] And so with all that being said, y'all just want to remind you to continue creating earnestly and love out there. Will Talk soon. This is Sarah Hubbard host of UNMI kid, a podcast about starting and raising a family on your own.
[00:48:58] We've just launched season two and I'm speaking with single moms, those still considering an expert in relevant fields to give you a real sense of what the day-to-day experience of solo parenting looks and feels like.
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